one day connor is like. super high and he goes outside @ 4:20am for some fuckin reason and he sees a possum and just looks at it and says ‘wow that’s the weirdest fuckin dog ive ever seen’ and he takes it inside and in the morning connor is still lowkey high and zoe’s like 'connor what the fuck is that’ and he just says 'it’s my dog you asshole. don’t yell at it’
((This is one of those The World Is Black and White Until You Meet Your Soulmate ones))
The first time Evan met the Murphys was on the first day of school, sophomore year. He remembers the day perfectly– the grays of the trees in the courtyard, the dark hues of the doors, and then light. Greens, blues, and the red of Zoe’s dress. Oh my God, Zoe’s dress. He wanted to ask her if she could see it too, but the very thought made him a little nauseous.
From there, it was a whirlwind. The blue pen she scribbled stars with. The red of her guitar. The indigo streaks in her hair.
He also remembers the light green of the tree. The red and blue flashing ambulance lights. He remembers wanting to see her cherry red lipstick one more time.
And then on the first day of senior year, he remembers the color of Connor’s eyes. He remembers him storming off with Evan’s letter, a smudge of gray amongst all the colors.
That was the same day all the colors went away, leaving Evan once again alone in black and white.
Click the hearts to the right of the songs for YouTube videos.
40s, 50s, 60s
Born too Late-The Poni Tail❤ Teenager in Love-Dion & The Belmonts❤ Eddie, My Love-The Chordettes❤ Darling Forever-The Marvelettes❤ It’s Gonna Take a Miracle-The Royalettes❤ My Boyfriend’s Back-The Angels❤ To Sir, With Love-Lulu❤ My Heart Belongs to Daddy-Marilyn Monroe❤
Don’t Stand So Close To Me-The Police❤
Seventeen-Winger❤ Roxanne-The Police❤ Stray Cat Blues-The Rolling Stones❤
Brown Sugar-The Rolling Stones❤
Pop (Indie, alternative, dance, etc.)
Primadonna Girl-Marina & The Diamonds❤ Off to The Races-Lana Del Rey❤ Lolita-Lana Del Rey❤ Mr. Watson-Ke$ha❤ Dancing Queen-ABBA❤ When I Kissed The Teacher-ABBA❤ Heart Wants What it Wants-Selena Gomez❤ Good for You-Selena Gomez❤ Candy Kisses-Amanda Perez❤ Pink and Blue-Hannah Diamond❤ Carousel-Michael Jackson❤ PYT-Michael Jackson❤ Love Me Harder-Ariana Grande ft.The Weeknd❤
Hiphop and RnB
I Like The Way-Hi Five❤ Around the Way Girl-LL Cool J❤ My Favorite Part-Ariana Grande ft.Mac Miller❤ Kisses Down Low-Kelly Rowland❤ Crush on You-Lil Kim ft.Lil Cease❤ Cupid-112❤ Pretty Brown Eyes-Mint Condition❤Highschool-Nicki Minaj❤ Right by my Side-Nicki Minaj ft.Chris brown❤ Promise Ring-Tiffany Evans ft. Ciara❤ Hey Daddy- Usher ft.Plies❤
Jolene- Dolly Parton❤ Only Daddy That’ll Walk The Line-Waylon Jennings❤ Kiss Me-Faith Hill❤ You’re Still The One-Shania Twain❤ Wildfire-Michael Martin Murphey❤
Connor had been withdrawn from Evan
for weeks and it was beginning to worry him. Had he done something wrong? He
probably had, he seemed to push people away. Even Jared was only hanging around
him so his parents would pay for his car insurance.
Evan had tried telling himself he
just needed to calm down. He had tried figuring out on his own. He couldn’t
figure out what he’d done so one day when they were studying in Connor’s room
he blurted out, “If you’re going to break up with me can you just tell me now.”
“What?” Connor exclaimed looking up
“Sorry it’s just you’re being
withdraw, which is fine I understand I tend to drive people away so it makes
sense that you want to leave me. It’s just I want to know before I get
emotionally invested. I’m sorry. Well it’s not like I’m not already emotionally
invested but I’d like to know before I do something stupid like tell you I love
you or something like that. Although I guess I just did that, sorry, but since you’re
leaving me can we pretend that didn’t happen. I just want to know, sorry. I’m
sorry,” Evan stuttered desperately barely able to breath but already planning
how to get out.
“I wasn’t going to break up with
you,” Connor said calmly reaching out to try to calm evan. In any other situation,
he would have laughed because only Evan would apologies because he was being
broken up with.
“Oh…sorry…I…sorry,” Evan gasped out
in between stuttered broken breathes.
“Hey, it’s okay,” Connor said as Evan’s
breathing began to pick up and he began to hyperventilate, “Can you try to
breathe with me?” Connor asked gently taking Evan’s shaking hands in his and
placing them on his chest as he tried to regulate his breathing so Evan had a steady
“That’s it you’re doing great. There
you go. In and out, slow and steady,” Connor said in as calming a voice as he
could, “You’re doing so good sweetheart, just try to breath with me,”
eventually Evan’s breathing calmed to broken stuttering breathes.
“I’m sorry,” he says again, pulling
his hands back and looking down.
“Hey,” Connor said softly placing
his hand on Evan’s jaw and bringing his face up to eye level, “It’s okay you didn’t
do anything. I’m sorry I’ve been withdrawn. I didn’t think you would think I was
going to break up with you. I’m sorry. I love you too.”
Evan had tears running down his
face, “I’m sorry,” Evan said again not knowing what to say, that being his
“For what?” Connor asks.
“I don’t know being as screwed up
as I am? For making you have to deal with me? For constantly overreacting? I don’t
know,” Evan listed, “I’m sorry,” he added.
“It’s okay love, you didn’t do
anything,” Connor said pulling him to his chest, “I love you,” he said kissing
“I love you too,” he said burying
himself deeper into Connor’s chest, “I love you,” he said curling into Connor
who was solid and warm and safe. Connor who would said he would be there for Evan,
no matter what and maybe Evan was even beginning to believe it.
<b><p></b> <b>Someone:</b> *finds a lizard at P.E.*<p/><b>Me:</b> I want a lizard. I'd name it Connor.<p/><b>Friend:</b> Who wants a lizard? And who wants a Connor?<p/><b>Me:</b> The Murphys didn't.<p/></p><p/></p>
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan Hansen/Jared Kleinman Characters: Evan Hansen, Jared Kleinman, Connor Murphy (Dear Evan Hansen), Zoe Murphy, Alana Beck Additional Tags: Texting, text fic, Secret Relationship, sorta - they’ve yet to come out, Coming Out, Canon Bisexual Character, Bisexual Male Character, Evan is a weak bisexual and loves his bf, Implied Sexual Content, Mild Sexual Humor Summary:
Acorn: WHAT I’M TRYING TO SAY IS THAT I AM A WEAK BISEXUAL
Docs out of bullets
Warren says the word “mission”
Murphy bites SOMETHING
10k tree face plants
Any refs to other shows or anything out of the show
Someone gets pinned