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Thoughts: Three

You lead me into the dark and left me there, you knew you were my light but you didn’t care. What was the point? What was your goal? What did I do? What didn’t I do… If you had no intention of guiding me in the right direction then why guide me in the first place? You knew what you were doing. Hell, I knew what you were going to do. I just prayed fate was wrong for once. I hoped that things would never end. Correction I wanted things to start. I can’t even say that what we had was real because we had nothing. We had whatever I thought, which means nothing at all. I dreamed of a false reality and applied it to the muck of what is you and I. I unified letters to form words of hope. Us? We? How foolish. How absurd. I’m sorry self, but you knew what you were doing. They told you. I told you to stop. You’re falling, catch yourself. It’s funny though, because you warned me that I was falling yet you kept pushing me. When I held you in my arms you’d tell me you loved it. With every kiss you’d poison me even more. There is no antidote for love. There’s no remedy for infatuation. Hate may provide temporary relief, but as the definition describes: it will not last forever. At the end of the day you’re still on my mind and I hate it. I hate it so much that I forget what hate is and I want you even more. I’d say “I want you back even more” but I never had you to begin with. Or maybe I did. There was a point where I couldn’t tell. We had a moment where I saw the pureness in your eyes. I felt the rapid pound in your heart and the truth in your voice. You meant what you said. You felt how I did. However, that was one time, one night, gone forever but forever remember. Embedded into my soul and attached to my heart. That one moment gave my and endless amount of hope that I wish I didn’t have. We will never be what I want and yet here I am, writing about you. Hope goes a long way, sometimes a little too far.

- Zach Brown

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