When are you going to realize how badly you hurt me & how I’ll never be the same. I feel like you stabbed me repeatedly & I let you do it & in the end you left me to die & I asked you for this so how could it ever be your fault.
so lately I’ve been trying to talk to old friends or talk to new ppl. sometimes it’s hard for me to feel connected & lately I feel like I’m just floating through life in a non bad way but also non fun way. ig this is what I need just something boring n mundane. I feel like there’s a lot of emotions I’d like to get out but I have no way to do so which is interesting bc I’m an emotional person. I miss someone & think of them still. And I also miss my friends & the time we spent together at school. I miss my old job & my old coworkers & talking to a boy n flirting at work. Yea that’s it, I’m moving forward now & maybe some day I’ll miss this now.
I hope we can all find a way to live without guilt, no matter how long it takes
I used to be able to write really good without even thinking about it but now I don’t know what to write about & everytime I try to I don’t know where it’s going & it almost feels like I’m trying to hard to do something that won’t come naturally. I rlly hope I can write something good again I miss being able to use words to communicate myself to the world.
Even tho I have time it feels like I don’t have time to do the things I rlly want to do like grieve.