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she/her I read way to many fanfictions (im 21 don't panic<3)

istg can we agree that not everything is fucking Vecna ? people keep attacking me because i say that demogorgons have telekinesis and they're like no it's Vecna. and omg it is insufferable!!!! someone told me to watch the show again when ive been here since day 1. like season 1 had to have a plotline ?? we know the duffers plan but i do not think this is the way they would go and it's not the way they did like bffr. also that he would have eaten Will 😐 yeah sure go with that. the demogorgon looks human because half the time it was an human in a suit, they have telekinesis, they can open up portals to come trough like ??? Vecna would open up portals for the demogorgon to come hang out really ? that's what you think ? please tell me you guys agree with me because i can't with this anymore😭you can litteraly check all of this on the internet but im the one who's wrong apdjzldkakkzkka im gonna go feral😭 and they're like "omg new theory i think i cracked it!" bffr dude, bffr

omg you guys i have seen the funniest thing ever, i was reading an old conversation with a friend and at the time she used to send me lot’s of post on insta about stranger things and one when of them was the milkvan fans thinking blue meet yellow in the west was for them when i tell you i SCREAMED 

i’m gonna try again, because even though i still have messages to reply to, i feel like i haven’t met enough people in this fandom… i just really want lucemond/house of the dragon/game of thrones friends 🥺🤍 like this and i will text you! 🤍

Rewatching Romeo + Juliette and craving a lucemond fic like that,                  this is messy sorry if it doesn’t make any sense, I really really want to write it but I don’t have enough knowledge of hotd and tbh with you I understood nothing of what they were saying in the movie so if I write it it might take some time (that plus the fact I have a collection to do lol) btw they wouldn’t be related in this, Aegon and Aemond neither

just imagine Romeo as Aemond being the best lover out there, writing poems and verses to express his love for Lucerys, sick puppy love, being this drama queen about love and life. Aemond not giving a fuck about the people at the party who could see him, kissing the boy that shattered his world and stole his heart in 3 seconds while looking at fish. being immediately drawn to him asking him if he could kiss him Luke being all shy and a little shit about it. Aemond going out of his way just to see him again risking absolutely everything to kiss him again and be with him. Then learning he is a Capulet being torn with the decision he has to make and choosing love. Aemond doing everything he can to marry Luke as soon as possible, convincing the priest and all that shit meanwhile he’s known Lucerys for 1 day. 

Mercutio as Aegon (rocking the sparkly outfit as he fucking should) he is dramatic, he is feminine, he is a bit mad, he his very pretentious, and a tad jealous of seeing Aemond’s attention being stolen and Aemond’s bestie. His death makes Aemond absolutely FERAL with rage and grief seeking vengeance, scaring the hell out of Jake with a madness he has never seen in anyone eyes, then kills Jake without any mercy just rage (while Luke is out there dreaming about his marriage and making out with Aemond again not giving a shit about the family feud)

Luke horny as fuck on their wedding night waiting for him, then proceeds to learn of  his cousin death’s, crying about it and afterwards having the best sex of his life.

Alicent hating Raenyra because of whatever reason , Visery’s not giving a fuck following Alicent

Lucerys being precious Juliet seeing life through Aemond eyes and being completely in love at first glance, being over the moon for him, talking to himself out loud, dreaming about him and what their life together could be. Lucerys in the angel outfit ROCKING the world of Aemond. Not wanting to be with anyone else as soon as he saw him, thinking this is destiny, this was written in the stars, this is fated.

Rhaenys being the nurse, protecting Luke thinking Aemond’s an asshole

Daemon drunk as fuck letting Aemond being at the party because he doesn’t care (that’s so him honestly)

THE POOL SCENE OH MY GOD

Jacerys being Tybalt that LOTHES Aemond (anti lucemond until the end) all being the family feud because it gives him a purpose in life and a kind of power (which was just a childish quarrel over who has the biggest dick let’s be honest)

Aemond crying his soul out at Aegon’s death, losing his purpose when he thinks that Luke is dead, Luke dying twice when he wakes up and finds Aemond dying in front of him then kills himself now that he has no purpose in life without his Aemond.

Oh to be dramatic teenagers in love

you know what what made me watch hotd was an edit of lucemond and I really thought they were together, from how the edit was made I understood that people wanted lucerys to be married to idk who and he actually got secretly married to aemond and so that’s why he looked at aemond and aemond smiled when he said im already betrothed but luke is so shy around him because its new and out of nowhere like aemond convinced him idk and they don’t know each other well so imagine my disappointment when i watched the show but NOW I need someone to write this please 

why are we not allowed to have an opinion on the show because we don’t like it? I'm sorry that I wanted to see something that is an actual adaptation, I'm glad you guys enjoy it I wish I could too but I don’t, so many details that I loved are gone, it’s not what I wanted and it’s not my fault, I'm not someone that can ignore missing details, characters, trope, etc, glad you can really but let me be mad 

this is bullshit

I don’t think anyone is gonna read this because I don’t have a platform here but I need to vent because I am so mad. If you do read this, spoilers for the finale.

I grew up with this show, it was my favorite one, I loved everything in it, the plot, the characters, the actors, and everything around it. It was one of my biggest hyper fixations, I watched it so many times. When season 3 came out my ex broke up with me, and I couldn’t enjoy any second of it, I hated season 3. I couldn’t watch the show for 2 years because of this. When it was my favorite show that I’ve watched countless times, it broke me, something was missing for me. Then I broke this cycle, rewatch the show, healed myself, and grow to love the show again. I was so excited for season 4, so fucking excited, I planned my whole day, I love every second of it, I was so hopeful, I felt like myself again I felt my inner teenager healing because she was so mad against me that I let my ex ruined our favorite show. I was so fucking excited for the finale. I am only mad, disappointed, frustrated, and angry, so many things are wrong in the finale.

I hated that they throw out the window Steve’s growth, you’re going to tell me he was with Nancy for like 1 year and he never said to her that he wanted children? He never said to her that he crawled backward as a child? Are you going to tell me it was always her for him? Fucking bullshit, this is lazy writing.

I don’t get where Nancy’s state of mind is? I hate that Jonathan didn’t say anything because I know it’s gonna ruin their relationship, I get why people don’t like them together but Stancy is bullshit and didn’t work for a reason.

And fucking Byler oh my god, I knew we weren’t going to have Steedie, I knew we weren’t going to have Ronance but I truly did believe we were going to have Byler, I had so much hope. I am so sad and angry, why did the cast act that way? Why did the Duffers act that way? 

I didn’t like the painting it was disappointing for me. Will’s speech was beautiful and I’m so mad that my boy didn’t get once again what he deserves. He will never catch a break, I am mad. Why create and amplify Byler to not make it canon? You’re going to tell me Mileven is the right way to tell the show? Do the Duffers think I’m gonna believe that? We knew Will was gay, from the beginning, making Byler more and more obvious to the point the cast was in on it just to throw Mileven In the spotlight? Really? This is sick.

I have never liked Mileven, so many things are wrong in this relationship for me, things that Mike pointed out which made me hope a bit, and then he was just like eleven *sad eyes*. I hated that he ignored Will’s crying the fuck was that? He was just whining and that made me so angry. Using a queer character just for the sake of a straight ship is so wrong, so so wrong. 

Queerbaiting is not it. 

The fact that everyone was in on it it’s fucked up I’m sorry, maybe I was delusional but still guys c’mon. I am so tired of the straight relationships, I am so tired of every storyline getting thrown away for the sake of straight ships.

We didn’t need that, that wasn’t a good choice of a storyline, this is lazy writing.

I feel like the Duffers got way into their heads, got lost in the success of the show, and are fucking cowards. We have one season left and I don’t know if I’m gonna want to watch it, I don’t know if I love the show anymore, I feel like they’re making wrong choices on wrong choices, adding characters, storylines, killing them off, creating more plotholes, more confusion, not useful storylines, focusing on the wrong things. You could guess too many things, way too many, it’s boring.

I am angry and beyond disappointed, this was my favorite show, and once again it is ruined for me, I would have preferred another heartbreak as the reason I don’t watch the show, but no, it’s just not that good anymore. I was so excited guys, so excited, I wanna cry.

Thank you if you took the time to read this, I hope you’ve enjoyed the finale more than I did.

I’ve written this reblog a thousand times over, but nothing is coming out right. I don’t want to trauma dump, and I don’t want pity or anything like that, I just want to vent a little. I’ve never talked about this on my blog, but your post made me want to, because I can somewhat relate to your experience. Queerbaiting fucking sucks, and this is why.

⚠️TW FOR SA⚠️

I was SA’d by an ex while we watched s3 together. It had been our favourite show, and, like OP, it took me a long time to be able to watch it without thinking of him, or what he did to me.

When I overcame that, and was able to watch the show again, it felt like I was finally free. I started hyperfixating on the show again. I bought a shit ton of merch. I talked about the show to almost anyone who would listen. I started this blog.

Most of all though, when I watched the show again for the first time after what had happened, I found myself relating to Will. I was a queer, traumatised 14 year old girl watching a queer, traumatised 14 year old boy overcoming so many of his hardships, and that was incredibly inspiring to me. I was especially invested in Will’s relationship with Mike. It looked like they were going to defy the odds and become canon. It looked like they were going to trample all over the homophobic, queerbaiting tropes we’ve seen in so many past shows and movies. It looked like the queer, traumatised boy I related to so much was going to “get the guy”. It made me feel like I could do the same.

I was so excited for season 4. Volume 1 came out and it was amazing. There were so many little hints and pieces of subtext that I thought pointed to a Byler endgame. I was so confident that it was going to happen.

And then it didn’t.

Tonight I am upset for that 14 year old girl that I once was, because she’d be absolutely fucking devastated at this outcome. I know it’s just a TV show, but it meant so much more to me than that. I wanted to see the queer person win for once. Just fucking once.

Queerbaiting is a fucking joke made at the expense of so many queer people like myself. They advertised Byler so much during pride month, all for it to end up being a giant “FUCK YOU!” waved around in our faces by the duffer brothers, and everyone involved in the show who encouraged this decision.

I’m absolutely sick of it.

Babe, you can trauma dump on me, I don’t care, share your story, I'm glad you did and that mine made you want to. Feel free to message me if you wanna.

I feel bad just responding a tiny text to you, but I wanted to tell you that I feel the same way. I’m queer too and I want reel queer representation.

Byler could’ve been amazing, I believe in it too so badly, I feel so stupid now, I hate that they did that, I really do. It would’ve been fine if in season 4 they introduced a new love interest for Will, no one would have been mad, disappointed yes probably but it would have been fine.

Making Will’s role revolves around Mike, the subtext for Byler replicated, giving us so much in Volume 1 to be robbed and piss on like that in Volume 2. Will’s character doesn’t deserve this, to be on freaking pawn for Mike and Elven relationship.

Fuck them. I hope that today and in the following days the world will let them know that they made the wrong move.

this is bullshit

I don't think anyone is gonna read this because I don’t have a platform here but I need to vent because I am so mad. If you do read this, spoilers for the finale.

I grew up with this show, it was my favorite one, I loved everything in it, the plot, the characters, the actors, and everything around it. It was one of my biggest hyper fixations, I watched it so many times. When season 3 came out my ex broke up with me, and I couldn’t enjoy any second of it, I hated season 3. I couldn’t watch the show for 2 years because of this. When it was my favorite show that I’ve watched countless times, it broke me, something was missing for me. Then I broke this cycle, rewatch the show, healed myself, and grow to love the show again. I was so excited for season 4, so fucking excited, I planned my whole day, I love every second of it, I was so hopeful, I felt like myself again I felt my inner teenager healing because she was so mad against me that I let my ex ruined our favorite show. I was so fucking excited for the finale. I am only mad, disappointed, frustrated, and angry, so many things are wrong in the finale.

I hated that they throw out the window Steve’s growth, you’re going to tell me he was with Nancy for like 1 year and he never said to her that he wanted children? He never said to her that he crawled backward as a child? Are you going to tell me it was always her for him? Fucking bullshit, this is lazy writing.

I don’t get where Nancy's state of mind is? I hate that Jonathan didn’t say anything because I know it's gonna ruin their relationship, I get why people don’t like them together but Stancy is bullshit and didn’t work for a reason.

And fucking Byler oh my god, I knew we weren’t going to have Steedie, I knew we weren’t going to have Ronance but I truly did believe we were going to have Byler, I had so much hope. I am so sad and angry, why did the cast act that way? Why did the Duffers act that way? 

I didn’t like the painting it was disappointing for me. Will's speech was beautiful and I'm so mad that my boy didn’t get once again what he deserves. He will never catch a break, I am mad. Why create and amplify Byler to not make it canon? You're going to tell me Mileven is the right way to tell the show? Do the Duffers think I'm gonna believe that? We knew Will was gay, from the beginning, making Byler more and more obvious to the point the cast was in on it just to throw Mileven In the spotlight? Really? This is sick.

I have never liked Mileven, so many things are wrong in this relationship for me, things that Mike pointed out which made me hope a bit, and then he was just like eleven *sad eyes*. I hated that he ignored Will’s crying the fuck was that? He was just whining and that made me so angry. Using a queer character just for the sake of a straight ship is so wrong, so so wrong. 

Queerbaiting is not it. 

The fact that everyone was in on it it’s fucked up I’m sorry, maybe I was delusional but still guys c’mon. I am so tired of the straight relationships, I am so tired of every storyline getting thrown away for the sake of straight ships.

We didn’t need that, that wasn’t a good choice of a storyline, this is lazy writing.

I feel like the Duffers got way into their heads, got lost in the success of the show, and are fucking cowards. We have one season left and I don’t know if I'm gonna want to watch it, I don’t know if I love the show anymore, I feel like they’re making wrong choices on wrong choices, adding characters, storylines, killing them off, creating more plotholes, more confusion, not useful storylines, focusing on the wrong things. You could guess too many things, way too many, it’s boring.

I am angry and beyond disappointed, this was my favorite show, and once again it is ruined for me, I would have preferred another heartbreak as the reason I don’t watch the show, but no, it’s just not that good anymore. I was so excited guys, so excited, I wanna cry.

Thank you if you took the time to read this, I hope you’ve enjoyed the finale more than I did.

I am so mad, I am so fucking angry right now. I can't believe this fucking shit, all of this ? all the fucking interview and all of them fangirling for THIS ? I hated the end of ST4 it was fucked up and wrong, using Will to throw again Mileven in the spot I am SO angry, I couldn't even enjoy the rest of the season, and don't get me started on the others storyline, this was SHIT