1/10

Me every night lmao

not to get too deep on main but did anyone else have such deeply rooted issues with their self worth for so long that they thought as a kid/teen that their only redeeming feature was being “low maintenance” and now as an adult you give yourself guilt pangs asking for any more than the barest minimum in virtually any relationship because asking for things might negate your only good quality which is just “doesn’t ask for things”

tbh the real advice I’d give to anyone is, do shit alone. go to a museum & go at your own pace & leave the instant you’re done. go somewhere you’ve never been and just wander around, duck into & out of places as it pleases you. linger as long as you’d like.

Do you ever become desensitized to your own trauma?? Like you’ve been dealing with it for so long that when you accidentally let it slip out in conversation and the persons like “um oh my god?” You’re like wow I forgot my life has been one unspeakable horror after another #noted

Me when I make an extremely personal post then delete it 10 minutes later

It gets to the point sometimes where you’re just so unhappy that no amount of positive thinking is going to change that.

It gets to the point sometimes where all you can see if is shit.

Treat spiders the way you want to be treated

Killed without hesitation

Why would I inflate a spider

I will beat you with a fucking rock

I post on Tumblr when I’m feeling depressed.

me

me: is fine being single, understands i am still capable of love, is in no rush, doesn’t like relationships that much

stupid brain:

Signs you grew up lonely

- Chasing people who don’t want you

-Making up lots of stories and worlds

-Overtalking whenever there’s someone to talk to

-Excessive reading

-Daydreaming

-Clinging emotionally to others

-Being the ‘disposable’ friend in the group

-Excessive baths

-Talking to oneself

-Obsessive friendships

-Excessive helpfulness

2019 is the year i get my shit together or i finally kill myself so stay tuned