Smiling depression
Everyday I see people living their lives
in all kind of shapes and forms
some people
are happy families
happy couples
and happy friends
but most
are just people with issues
with broken families
toxic couples
and friends that only care about themselves.
And I’m over here
with blood on my wrists
and tears on my cheeks
crying over nothing
over everything.
That’s why i doubt
when i feel alive but not living
depressed over some perfect life
that most would want.
I force myself to put a smile on everyday
and hope that nobody notice
what’s behind it
what it hides
because i don’t deserve to feel sad
over how worthless or fat I am
there are people with real problems
not like me.
-f.s.



