Dear Agony

It's ♡

getting ♡

bad ♡

again ♡

x

i feel like i’m constantly relearning to love the world again after very painful experiences and grief but sometimes it’s as simple as stepping outside and seeing a flower with a bright yellow centre and thinking “oh, how stunning!” 

fuck im awake again

mood

Martha Gellhorn, Selected Letters

so anyway

did it hurt? when you realized that your childhood trauma was going to affect you for the rest of your life and truly changed you as a person and didn’t just give you a good sense of humor?

i don’t know why i’m like this // 1.9.2017

anyone: how are you doing??

me: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh anyway how are you.

i miss feeling like i meant something

i hate that isolation is the only way i know how to heal from everything