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doctor said my silly girl tendencies are actually psychotic symptoms   ;(

{Katie Maria/ Gregory Orr/ Li-Young-Lee, A Hymn to Childhood/ Liv Ullman, Changing/ Broken Veil/ Louise Glück, Unpainted Doors/ Anne Carson/ m.h.w, yuki, age thirteen/ Killing Eve/ unknown/ Ekta R. Garg/ Beau Taplin}

toxic parents will traumatize you and act surprised when you act like you've been traumatized

Richard kadrey // Clementine von Radics // Taylor Swift // Alice (1988) // Amanda Lovelace // sue zhao // ? // Édouard Levé //Emily Berry // ?

fatima aamer bilal, from all that is damaging.

-Sylvia Plath. (The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath)

what a fucking day *me at 8:15 AM*

shoutout to people who don't have a "before" the trauma.

shoutout to people who don't have any sweet or nostalgic childhood memories. to people who don't remember enough of their childhood to know what the before was like. to people who lost their innocence before they ever learned the word for it. to people whose pasts were too painful to keep around in any form. to people who only knew trauma, and don't have an idea of what life would be like without it. to people who can't long for "the better days" because there weren't any.

you deserve a good future. i hope it's there for you soon.

when you’re healing, you will fuck up. maybe you’ll relapse, maybe you’ll do something you know is gonna hurt you, maybe you’ll deprive yourself of something you need, whatever. but healing isn’t linear, its wibbly wobbly and weird. you’re not terrible for messing up, you’re not terrible for not being ready to move forward, you’re not terrible for not being perfect. you still deserve healing, and you still deserve respect.

it’s unfair how i have the responsibility to heal myself when i didn’t cause my wound in the first place