After almost a year of training, I am pleased to announce that the Nashville Aquarium Restaurant has mermaids, and I am one of them.

alive

Hey, guys. I’m still alive. I noticed a couple months ago a bunch of random porn blogs started following me. I don’t mind it. I was just curious if there’s some kind of spam associated with it. Or if it perhaps means my account has been hacked or something. Does anyone have any expereince in this matter? I have twenty-one months clean or 661 days. I am still willing to help anyone who is trying to get clean or anyone that just needs to talk. I’m on my 11th step which is exciting. In this step (“sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, as we understood him”), I’m excited to get to know who my higher power is: not Brandon’s higher power, nor my parent’s higher power, but my own higher power. I’ve been writing in my journal mostly, lately. I’m trying to decide if I should start a new blog because of how scattered this one got while I was using, as well as because of the influx in inappropriate images showing up in my followers tab. Like I said, I don’t mind, I’m just not sure it’s not all weirdo spam. Anyway, that’s all. I’ll get it figured out soon enough.

day three

Today is the third consecutive day that I've gone without a cigarette. This is the longest time I've gone without nicotine since about six years ago. I feel pretty confident I can continue to refrain. With that being said, I just had the desire to smoke one, which is why I'm writing this instead. Justin is getting baptized tomorrow. I just got done playing the Easter bunny while Layla slept. I should be asleep but I feel like I haven't been able to just sit and be me all week so I'm doing that now. All of these porn blogs having been randomly following me this past few weeks, like 15 of them. I don't understand why so it's kind of funny. That's all.

After months of training, I finally had my first show last weekend. I’ve still got a long way to go, but I am so proud of my progress so far. You guys, I’m a mother fucking mermaid. Two years ago I was shooting dope, and now I am paid to make little girls/boys dreams come true. God is so good. We do recover. Mermaid hair, don’t care; for real though.. ha.

Lorde

"I must be a mermaid. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living."

My first official show as a mermaid is a week from today. I’ve been training for six months and I am so excited to finally show off all my hard work. While I am nervous, I’m confident that I will blow it out of the water (literally, haha). I’ve practiced in the show tail a few times, I’m been working on my breath holds, and I even got my bathing suit top fitted and approved for the show! Considering we're still not supposed to post about it on social media, I chose this semi anonymous outlet to tell the world how excited I am. Pictures will be coming soon!