dear will

I’m sad to see this blog go, rosesonarms has been my favorite url yet. Will, because i know you’re stalking me on here and i know youll read this- please leave me alone. Michael came to see me yesterday just showed up out of the blue and said you told him my schedule. I don’t want to see him, i don’t want to see anyone thats ever been involved with you or reminds me of you. I’m begging you, please just leave me alone. Don’t send anyone to find out what I’m up to, I don’t want to be found i want to erase everything you’ve ever said or done to me. i want to forget all of you, all the memories i have of you, all the things i have that remind me of you, all the times you said you loved me because now i know you never meant it. For a second i did, i got up every morning and went to school or work and never thought about you and finally stopped fucking crying everyday. and then michael shows up and reminds me of everything and its like I’m starting all over again. Im so hurt, so incredibly hurt inside from what you did and i don’t think ill ever forgive you for all the things you said and called me. I know i hurt you and I’m so sorry for that but you took things way too far, you dragged my family into it and you destroyed them. Not only my relationship with them but my sisters, Sage’s, everyone.  I miss who i thought you were so much. ive never been so in love with someone or looked at them like they were they only thing that would ever make me happy. i saw that in you. i wanted to wake up next to that person everyday for the rest of my life and you changed and left me with nothing. you just left me. please stop stalking me, ive already erased all my social media, i threw my goddamn phone in a lake to get rid of everyone, i actually packed up and moved into a new place. so please stop getting on here and checking on me. I’m not leaving nashville and I’m not leaving my job or school and i know you know that so just leave me alone. I’m so scared of everything you do know. I’m so scared of you.  i don’t want to be sad anymore. i want to trust people again and because of you i don’t think that will ever fucking happen. is that the satisfaction you need from all this?? you fucked up my life Will, if that was all you wanted as revenge you succeeded. i hope you figure your shit out one day. I wish i could get back all the time i spent falling in love with you.