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No, it's possible. just bloody difficult.

@rose-like-the-phoenix

{bi/genderfluid/transmasc/demiboy/aego/musicaconic} 《he/they/fae/nix/fern/ey/fur/pup/ze/sun/dey》 (Mutuals can call me by one of my kintypes if they want) *kin to Casey Hartley (nitw)* ×dark angel/canine/eurasian black wolf kin× ~Melophile/voidpunk~ SummerEXE on wattpad "the supreme paradox of all thought is the attempt to discover something that thought cannot think" Søren Kierkegaard.

Master post!!!

Considering I now have three side-blogs along side my main one, I figured it was time to explain some of the details

This is basically a brain dump of anything and everything all of the time

@poisonwolfstims *second oldest*

Not a whole lot to say about this one, it's just stim boards and asmr things that my autistic brain finds pleasing

@thathartleykid *third oldest*

!!warning!! This is a vent blog, so enter at your own risk. Mostly filled with music, rants, pages from my journal and things that relate to my Casey Hartley (night in the woods) kintype

@angel-inked *newest*

This is snippets of one shots, WIPs from my wattpad and anything to do with writing ✍️ (also themed off my dark angel kintype)

Note: my name and pronouns preference for each blog is different, read my bios or ask what I want to be called
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"Stop saying 15 year olds with weird interests are cringe, they're 15" this is true however you should also stop saying adults with weird interests are cringe because who gives a shit

To wit:

I want to share some wisdom from my high school art teacher.

In my AP Art class, there was a girl who was just starting to experiment with mixed media. At this point she was still playing around, trying to decide what direction she wanted to go with her portfolio. So one critique day, she brought in an abstract canvas with some rhinestone highlights and painted and real peacock feathers. She loved sparkles and peacock feathers so she thought she’d try introducing them a *little*. And after everyone had given some input, the teacher gave her his advice, VERY roughly paraphrased here:

“So here’s the thing… I do not like this style. These are just elements that do not speak to me personally, but I see that you like them, and you’re doing interesting things with them.

“My biggest critique is, I only merely *dislike* this piece. I want you to make me HATE it. Go crazy with the things that you like. Don’t hold back trying to make it palatable to people like me. Because I am NEVER going to like it. And if the audience does not like it, it should drive them crazy seeing how much YOU love it.”

Her portfolio was chock full of neon colors and glitter and rhinestones and splashes of peacock feathers and it was a delight. Our teacher despised every piece lol, but she got great marks and I think even won some awards. And more importantly, she was happy and proud of the results. Because she didn’t limit herself by trying to appeal to people who were never going to enjoy what she enjoyed.

Takeaway here: be as cringe as you want. Don’t limit yourself based on other ppl’s tastes. They’re not you, and you are incredible 💕

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o/ <- person waving

o7 <- person saluting

ol <- person raising hand

o1 <- person scratching head

\o> <- person stretching

\o/ <- woohoo!

<o> <- EXTREME STRESS, LIKE "OH FUCK OH SHIT" STRESS

orz <- the person is on their hands and knees, on the floor, god what happened to them

OTL <- same, but we are now closer to them (mb softly pat their back or something)

or2 <- the person is still on their hands and knees but they've got a fat ass now

Day 1 of drawing pride flags in my journal

Day 2 of drawing pride flags in my journal

*This flag was suggested by 🍓gay strawberry kaveh🍓 on tiktok*

Day 3 of drawing pride flags in my journal (featuring a cute little flower 😊)

Day 4 of drawing pride flags in my journal

Day 5 of drawing pride flags in my journal ✨️

Day 6 of drawing pride flags in my journal, and I finished watching 8 mile today 😁

Day 7 & 8 of drawing pride flags in my journal, yesterday was busy and exhausting so y'all get two today 😄

Day 9 of drawing pride flags in my journal 😉

Day 10 of drawing pride flags in my journal 💛🤍💜🖤

Day 11 of drawing pride flags in my journal (feat, the second apple sticker I've found on gift card packaging in the Walmart parking lol 😆)

Day 12 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🏳️‍🌈

Day 13 of drawing pride flags in my journal!

Day 14 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🩵🩵🩵🩵

Day 15 of drawing pride flags in my journal 💛💛💛💛

Day 16 of drawing pride flags in my journal!!! Also it's my last day of being an 18 year old 😄

Day 17 of drawing pride flags in my journal, I'm 19 now!!!!! 😄

Day 18 of drawing pride flags in my journal 😺😸😽

Day 19 of drawing pride flags in my journal 💫

Day 20 of drawing pride flags in my journal!!! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Day 21 of drawing pride flags in my journal, only nine more left to go! Have a flag with which I am associated 😁

Day 22 of drawing pride flags in my journal, enjoy this rushed aroace flag because me brain's been all over the place 😅

Day 23 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🖤💙🖤💙🖤

Day 24 of drawing pride flags in my journal, only six me more to go!

Day 25 of drawing pride flags in my journal, this was is supposed to be the aceflux flag but hey I tried 😅

Day 26 of drawing pride flags in my journal ✨️ 😌 ☺️ 💕 😍

Day 27 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🤍💚🖤✨️

Day 28 & 29 of drawing pride flags in my journal

Day 30 of drawing pride flags in my journal,

Happy pride!

Day 1 of drawing pride flags in my journal

Day 2 of drawing pride flags in my journal

*This flag was suggested by 🍓gay strawberry kaveh🍓 on tiktok*

Day 3 of drawing pride flags in my journal (featuring a cute little flower 😊)

Day 4 of drawing pride flags in my journal

Day 5 of drawing pride flags in my journal ✨️

Day 6 of drawing pride flags in my journal, and I finished watching 8 mile today 😁

Day 7 & 8 of drawing pride flags in my journal, yesterday was busy and exhausting so y'all get two today 😄

Day 9 of drawing pride flags in my journal 😉

Day 10 of drawing pride flags in my journal 💛🤍💜🖤

Day 11 of drawing pride flags in my journal (feat, the second apple sticker I've found on gift card packaging in the Walmart parking lol 😆)

Day 12 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🏳️‍🌈

Day 13 of drawing pride flags in my journal!

Day 14 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🩵🩵🩵🩵

Day 15 of drawing pride flags in my journal 💛💛💛💛

Day 16 of drawing pride flags in my journal!!! Also it's my last day of being an 18 year old 😄

Day 17 of drawing pride flags in my journal, I'm 19 now!!!!! 😄

Day 18 of drawing pride flags in my journal 😺😸😽

Day 19 of drawing pride flags in my journal 💫

Day 20 of drawing pride flags in my journal!!! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Day 21 of drawing pride flags in my journal, only nine more left to go! Have a flag with which I am associated 😁

Day 22 of drawing pride flags in my journal, enjoy this rushed aroace flag because me brain's been all over the place 😅

Day 23 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🖤💙🖤💙🖤

Day 24 of drawing pride flags in my journal, only six me more to go!

Day 25 of drawing pride flags in my journal, this was is supposed to be the aceflux flag but hey I tried 😅

Day 26 of drawing pride flags in my journal ✨️ 😌 ☺️ 💕 😍

Day 27 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🤍💚🖤✨️

Day 28 & 29 of drawing pride flags in my journal

Day 1 of drawing pride flags in my journal

Day 2 of drawing pride flags in my journal

*This flag was suggested by 🍓gay strawberry kaveh🍓 on tiktok*

Day 3 of drawing pride flags in my journal (featuring a cute little flower 😊)

Day 4 of drawing pride flags in my journal

Day 5 of drawing pride flags in my journal ✨️

Day 6 of drawing pride flags in my journal, and I finished watching 8 mile today 😁

Day 7 & 8 of drawing pride flags in my journal, yesterday was busy and exhausting so y'all get two today 😄

Day 9 of drawing pride flags in my journal 😉

Day 10 of drawing pride flags in my journal 💛🤍💜🖤

Day 11 of drawing pride flags in my journal (feat, the second apple sticker I've found on gift card packaging in the Walmart parking lol 😆)

Day 12 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🏳️‍🌈

Day 13 of drawing pride flags in my journal!

Day 14 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🩵🩵🩵🩵

Day 15 of drawing pride flags in my journal 💛💛💛💛

Day 16 of drawing pride flags in my journal!!! Also it's my last day of being an 18 year old 😄

Day 17 of drawing pride flags in my journal, I'm 19 now!!!!! 😄

Day 18 of drawing pride flags in my journal 😺😸😽

Day 19 of drawing pride flags in my journal 💫

Day 20 of drawing pride flags in my journal!!! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Day 21 of drawing pride flags in my journal, only nine more left to go! Have a flag with which I am associated 😁

Day 22 of drawing pride flags in my journal, enjoy this rushed aroace flag because me brain's been all over the place 😅

Day 23 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🖤💙🖤💙🖤

Day 24 of drawing pride flags in my journal, only six me more to go!

Day 25 of drawing pride flags in my journal, this was is supposed to be the aceflux flag but hey I tried 😅

Day 26 of drawing pride flags in my journal ✨️ 😌 ☺️ 💕 😍

Day 27 of drawing pride flags in my journal 🤍💚🖤✨️

ANYWAY if you have adhd/autism, are nonbinary, transmasculine, or part of another typically infantilized marginalized group, and you intentionally adopt a sharp, spiky "fuck you" attitude and presentation - you're AWESOME.

you're not a baby, you're not confused, you know damn well what you're doing and your voice deserves to be heard. you're not cute, you're not adorable, and that doesn't make you any less part of your group.

you're a fucking badass, that's what! keep doing what you're doing!

hey can you guys please reblog this version instead? this post started getting notes again and I want it to be right this time. not every neurodivergency is punished with infantilization, and if you've ever been demonized by yours, you're also amazing. I hope people stop being assholes to you.

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I've been seeing a lot of transandrophobia and general transphobic/anti-masculine bullshit, so this seems like a lovely Sunday to say, to all my trans men and transmasc and genderqueer folks-

You're all fucking wonderful. You're all fucking awesome. There is nothing wrong or bad or icky about being a man, or being masculine. There is nothing evil or traitorous about being a trans man or transmasc.

Y'all have given me the courage to explore my own gender. Y'all gave me the guts to ask myself the hard questions and to come out on the other side knowing more about who I am. And I am happier now than I can ever recall being in my life.

You are all handsome, gorgeous, strong, amazing motherfuckers and any asshole who tries to tell you that you're a monster for being a man, transmasc, genderqueer... They're an idiot and a bigot.

Keep rocking on, guys. I love y'all.

Transmascs/men: there are tons of other trans people who absolutely hold individuals in their complex humanity w/o assumption & that uninhibited love and openness being given to you will reveal how cruel it is that anyone ever tried to make you resent yourself for being you.

Half-love feels gross to me now that I know what it’s like to be loved in my full complexity as a manwoman, a guy, a trans person, an intersex person, a disabled person, a gnc Black woman, a transmasculine, an abimegender man, a shapeshifting fairy trans person, by other trans people. You’re literally a gift you deserve enthusiastic connection. I mean it. You can have it, too.

You don’t have to accept “ugh unfortunately I’m attracted to men” bullshit from anyone. There are queer + trans people who will write poetry about how much they love the way you move and live and love as a man, how joyous it is to bask in the splendor of said manhood. Promise. Transness is a gift. It is divine. Transness that includes the expanse of manhood and masculinity is included in that and always will be. You are divine, in all of your forms and in your infinite complexity and there are so many people who will see it.

anyway being transmasc is beautiful and amazing. im wishing the transmasc reading this so much joy and health and happiness and freedom and literally anything you want and need forever. you deserve life. you are worthy. you are everything.