4 a.m.

I long for you in this moment; But in this moment, you are sound asleep, my love. And I wonder.. Do your thoughts of me linger into your dreams? 

It has been a while. A while too long since my fingerprints last left their mark, tracing the curves of your smile. 

A while since we stayed out until 4 a.m., embracing each other with kisses; a taste so sweet-- nothing could replace it; the stain on my lips. 

A while since we gazed into each others’ eyes for hours on end. A while since we cancelled out the background noise and all we pursued was the silence that told us our minds, bodies, and souls had    f

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into a deep love. 

A while since I last told you how I feel about you. Because although I am sure you know, I thought you ought to hear it from me, over and over again. 

And since those last few nights we spent together before you left, I have found myself fighting to decide if I should tell you how I really feel. How I feel now that you are not here, even though you are only a few hundred miles away. How I really feel.. Because I could have told you, and I didn’t. And I regret every bit of it. 

And I realize now.. You are the one I love. From the very beginning, since I met you. It has always been you. Has been, always will be. 

If this isn’t reason enough, then I don’t know what is.. but darling, you are the light of my life and you are everything I want, everything I need, and more than anything, everything I love. 

In only a few days time, I will see you once again and I am already sure it will feel like the first time my eyes met yours because every time I see you, I fall in love all over again. But this time might be different.. Just maybe. Because now I know what I want to tell you even though I have known for quite some time.. And I refuse to have any regrets when it comes to the could haves and would haves when what we have is now. I will use every ‘now’, every chance I get. 

You are my now. You, my love, are extraordinary, and I adore you. There are no limits to the love I have and feel for you. 

I. Love. You. 

Yesterday, Today, and Forever Always. 

See you soon, my love. 

      Until then,

                      -C