Anxious Sugar

I just realized my blog is very text-heavy. I don’t like posting fashion or general femininity inspo photos to this blog. I do have separate blogs that I use to catalog looks that I like. But this blog is mostly for journaling and saving sex work and feminism posts.

I’ll use this post to (semi)formally introduce myself: I’m a black escort in the U.S. I’m still a “baby ho” and still somewhat naive about men. I see them through rose-colored lenses but sex work is reprogramming me to see reality.

This blog is not about glamorous trips or fake stories about lavish gifts and shopping sprees as a sugar baby. Follow me if you can relate to real struggles in sex work. Meanwhile, we can “level up” together on this journey. Because I’m still gonna find that whale, baby. 😎

For all my personal posts about anything related to sex work... click here.

I’m dead tired. I went hiking this morning with my new girl friend. We had a great talk. I found out that she works in biotech and I’m pretty sure she makes close to $200K. Her job is interesting too. She helps bring new drugs to market.

I also found out that she’s kinky. She told me about this kinky dude she was with who wanted to be choked and slapped during sex and she really enjoyed beating on him. No wonder she and I get along: she’s really open-minded.

Anyway, I just got to the hotel and I really should sleep but I need to get ready for this client in a few.

I added more rates and virtual services as well as an overnight option to my ad and website.

I think that a full range of options makes you look more professional. It looks like you take your business seriously because you're expanding on the services you offer. I think it's also best to lay out all your options for clients so that they don't have to ask. If they don't know an option is offered, they may not even consider you to begin with because you're not giving them enough to think about.

I added virtual dates to my ad and I've gotten an inquiry for a 20-minute "virtual" date already.

I’m putting on these 5-inch lock sandals and setting my timer while I walk around in the kitchen. I want to see how long I can last in these heels without sitting down. Cuz (in my black girl voice), “baaay-BEE”! These shoes hurt!

Never mind… I injured my front toe walking in these the other day and I can still feel the pain. I lasted 10 steps.

sigh

Either my acupuncturist’s mom was in a really good mood or she has been learning more English (she only knows a little English).

She complimented me on my outfit and said, “beautiful” and then told me “have you seat” just now.

That’s so fucking awesome. I should make an effort to learn Cantonese. I downloaded Duolingo but I think it only teaches Mandarin.

My ho bag is packed for tomorrow and in my car trunk. I needed to get that done ahead of time because I have to wash my hair after I get back from acupuncture and I’m going hiking with my new girlfriend tomorrow morning. After hiking, maybe I’ll go straight to the hotel.

Actually, hiking kind of interrupts my plans for tomorrow. Firstly, it means I have to spend more time traveling and secondly, it’s going to take energy away from my client. Client sessions alone suck energy from me because I usually end up eating and drinking less that day to keep a small waist (I get easily bloated).

The wrap dress I ordered from AliExpress that I want to wear to the client dinner date in two weeks is on track to arrive next week. Hopefully, it will look good.

The Tom Ford inspired lock sandals I ordered for the dress are hideously painful. They’re more painful than a pair of So Kates. I don’t want to look like a fool during the date so I probably won’t wear them.

The first client who booked me under my new low-end persona wants to see me again this weekend. 🥳 My period will be ending just in time for the appointment.

Thank yoooooooooou Jesus!

I’m done with Twitter marketing. I can’t. It’s too difficult to get exposure. I’m not going to put anymore effort into it or stress about it. I have nothing to say on Twitter. Being fake makes me want to vomit. I’ll just post my pics and dip.

sigh I feel better about it already.

Y'all get ready for a smear campaign piece...

Has anyone heard of Dr. Eric Berg from YouTube? He's all about holistic wellness. Normally, I don't check on someone's credentials when seeking advice (although, maybe I should). But when I came across one of this YouTube videos, I knew something wasn't right. And his credentials, or lack thereof, back up my suspicions about him.

I listened to one of his videos on healing from autoimmune disease. He seemed to talk bout all the correct things you need to address except...

His explanation came across as info that was compiled by a layman. And it was very much, "jack of all trades, master of none".

I'd come across his videos in the past but visually, they were very gimmicky-looking. He's excellent at marketing. His thumbnail videos draw in the user. For me, that's usually a sign that there may not be any real substance in the actual content.

My mother is always singing the praises of Dr. Berg. His scripts are well-written and easy to understand. But the first and most important reason this man's videos are so popular on YouTube? He is a WHITE... MALE. And of course, this is a huge part of the reason my mother worships him.

As a white male, you have instant credibility. Shit can literally be spewing out of your mouth yet, if you're a white male, people are more willing to believe in you than a black female doctor with several degrees and a strong background in lab research and clinics.

Did I also mention that his only medical accreditation shown on his website is a chiropractic degree? Chiropractors are notorious for getting into the lucrative market of holistic wellness.

Also, according to his website bio, HE HAS NO CLINICAL EXPERIENCE!

Oh, my God...

Okay, Imma stop here...

Does anyone use an electrolyte powder that is totally free of sugar or other natural sweeteners? I need a new brand. I was using Ultima but it has stevia.

I am eagerly waiting for OF Boy to get back to me. He is an absolute beautiful specimen of a black man. Having him as a client would be a fcking dream. Derrick is pretty good-looking too but OF Boy is more conventionally attractive. But it’s his confidence and positivity that actually make his good looks irresistible. Also… he has a beeeeeaaaaard! 😩

His wife is lucky.

I tried to look up his social media so I can see who this partner of his is but I can’t get sht on him and I’m an excellent online detective. I’ll try again later on tonight.

Whatever… I’m just crushing hard right now. I’ll get over it soon.

My mom called me to tell me she would offer to buy me a set of stainless steel cookware because I’ve been having these post-covid symptoms. She thinks non-toxic dishes will help me with my symptoms.

My mom really doesn’t know me.

Not only do I already mainly use stainless pots and pans but I don’t use microwaves, I don’t pour or place hot food into Tupperware, and I most definitely don’t use styrofoam plates. Additionally, the fact that I use a high end water filtration system for my drinking water should tell her how I feel about environmental toxins surrounding food and drink.

I’m actually surprised she suggest the stainless steel dishes because removing toxins from the kitchen is something I started doing years ago, even when I was living with her!

My sister tells me over and over and again that my mom doesn’t really have a clue who we are as individuals. She’s right.

I pay a private company for trash pickup at my house and I hadn’t received a bill from them in over a year. Additionally, they didn’t pick up my trash today so that actually prompted me to call about my account.

According to them, my trash collection service was cancelled in November 2022…

Mm… Okay… Really?

This place just has poor account management and they were not sending out bills so they were not collecting payments from everyone. That’s probably how my account got cancelled…

… But the woman I spoke to on the phone also didn’t realize that their pickup person has been collecting up my trash, once a week, every week since November 2022…

But I didn’t mention that fact because I didn’t want them to make me pay for the service I owed. Instead, I just told them I would sign up for services (… again).

Anyway, I signed up for service again and even though I hate coming out of my pocket, I’m happy that I just got about 16 months of free trash pickup. 😎 And you guys know how much I like free sht… 👀