i wish john boyega was in the new spiderverse movie so bad T_T
like its weird to experience something and be like “this is how i should be feeling/this is how i wouldve felt a year ago” and feeling just static (not bad static, just static) in its place .. its definitely not all the time or for everything but it happens enough for me to be like . oh . i guess this is how i feel things now
ssris have been working amazing only downside is my mood has flattened out as fuck (duh) which is kind of the point but it feels so strange to not be able to feel sweeping waves of big big BIG emotions anymore, especially when i know i should/would be feeling it.. especially since so much of my experiences have just been one big sweeping emotion to the next, good and bad.. im so grateful i can be functional finally but it just bums me out that this is what i have to give up to get it
every time i see cas having a drink with dean i go feral. ancient unfathomable solider of god sitting in a chair, making a home of his body, consuming a beverage that will taste like nothing and do nothing simply because his best friend handed it to him with the hopes that he would sit next to him and slow down with him for a little while.
in other news . i am moving to the bay area this summer :-3 excited to get a chance to live in another part of the continental united states ❤️
So what are people's relationships to New York City like?
#its the only place i could see myself living long-term in the US..#im a city kid born & raised and it reminds me of home so much. i love the noise i love the mta i love the traffic i love the fire alarms#i love the food i love how bright it is i love all of it!!!!!!#obv. have a very romanticised view of it and have stayed in the city for only like a total of one month because my aunt lives there#and she was one of those classic NYC dreamers who actually ended up living there..#and has lived there for like 2 decades now..#and was someone i looked up to so much as a kid as someone who managed to ‘get out’ of home#so im biased <3#i would kill. to live in nyc#wheres the post like this about LA. I have Many Words
how are we supposed to interpret this. what does it mean. who is the target audience
no wait i think i understand
it's for him and his struggle </3
Patrick Stump: 2005 Vans Warped Tour
dashboard simulator may 2023
mutual 1: fuck this stupid job im killing myself
mutual 2: Isn't it so crazy how we're all getting older and our bodies are breaking down and we all know we have to start living healthier and better but we're just stuck in a terrible cycle and the patterns are repeating and repeating and repeating
mutuasl 3-5: I need kpop boy hole NOW
mutuals 6-7: I need weird old man hole NOW
mutual 8: Send roman roy to the reeducation camp
mutual 9: [painstakingly detailed director's commentary on the fanfic they just posted]
mutual 10: I can't stand [mutual 4]'s ass
mutual 11: who else 4loko drunk at work on a wednesday at 11am!!!!!
mutual 12: fuck this stupid grad program im killing myself
Idealogically don't agree with omegaverse but I do understand it because I also want a world where Jensen ackles has to face more hardship
