Proud and hopeful

Kanto Starter Pokemon Japanese Ukiyo-e Style Artwork made by Lanipuna

Neurodivergent people love pacific rim bc its basic theses are “two besties who share a braincell can pilot a mecha” and “what if crab was big”

He wants to be an adventurer, what kind of gear should I give him?

Print Finished Milo Print Patreon

harrow nova au my beloved (sorry for low quality on two of those pics its because im stupid)

it would be cool if fat dudes without big beards were considered hot sometimes too.

I realized today that the main reason for the “hot fat dude must also include beard” thing is part of the whole “fat people are required to perform a higher and more perfect expression of gender”.

like usually this sort of thing is more easily identifiable in fat women, who have to be hyper feminine to be considered “attractive” by the mainstream.  but I sort of blinked today and realized, oh.  fat men must have beards to be attractive for the same reason fat men must wear suits and look dapper to be attractive, just like fat women have to have perfect eyeliner and wear cute pinup clothing.  higher, more intense expression of gender, executed perfectly and without flaw is required for fat people to be seen as attractive.

i think it’s important to mention a major thing a beard does, other than potentially act as part of a performance of masculinity, is cover double chins. i legitimately feel leaving that out is a major oversight. double chins are societally reviled and rarely ever depicted in supposedly fat positive art.

i’ve known fat women to literally tape the skin of their neck up under their hair to try to get rid of them– not to mention trying to contour them away with makeup. (i’ve personally done both. let’s talk about the utter misery of trying to exist in public with your skin taped and painted in place, terrified if any of it fails you will be treated as disgusting.) and fat men must grow a beard, and just the right kind of hyper-groomed beard, lest they be labeled disgusting neckbeards. fat people of all genders are compelled to “learn their angles” for photos, so they can create the illusion of not having double chins if only in still images. do you know how many photos with loved ones your fat friends duck out of because they can’t know how it will turn out, and don’t want to be mocked?

accept double chins as normal. accept that you can be attracted to people with double chins. stop requiring heightened gender performance and discomfort from fat people. stop forcing tape and makeup and beards and tactical angles on fat people.

Tristesse by Jonatan Anjos

[ID: art of an astronaut floating in space, with a white suit with gold accents, and the wings and halo of an angel. they’re holding a trumpet and have a gold-white teather connected to them trailing out of frame. end ID]

forgotten one

Malenia by Yi.

Nighthawk in a blanket. It hates waking up?

i hate nerves and anxiety. oh nooo i am scared of acting like a weird bitch to remedy this i will act like a weird bitch

still believe that one of the greatest bits of all time was on January 6th, 2021 when. well. you know. and twitter was understandably an echo chamber of panic and fear and Justin McElroy just tweeted a selfie with a filter that was like “have a delicious national spaghetti day” followed by 3 tweets that were like “fuck. i’m sorry. i don’t know how to delete scheduled posts” and as i type this two years later i’m laughing

a belated delicious national spaghetti day to you all

this is so insanely accurate i dont even know what to say

More Adventures in Adulting

I am not doing a great job at budgeting. Without my dad's income, it is a lot harder to plan out my purchases from month to month. I am working with the lawyer to increase my disability, but the process is slow-going still. We have a call with Social Security in a few weeks.

My big screw up this month was grocery shopping. I started filling my cart with things and once I was nearly finished I realized I didn't keep track of how much stuff I had. I could barely stand at that point and there was no way I could put anything back. So I just bought everything and hoped I didn't go too over budget. But I did.

I've overdrafted 2 months in a row now. I'm going to work with Katrina and make a spreadsheet and try to plan out my spending better. I've just never been good at this. My mom was a bookkeeper for years and always helped me. But I'm going to try to learn.

And hopefully the disability thing will happen soon.

I updated my Amazon wish list. It is ranked by priority. It's mostly stuff that I can't justify buying right now, but would be really helpful. And a few things I need on a regular basis that could help expand my budget a bit.

[id: “‘you’re so resilient!’ Thanks! My options were that or dead”]

If you haven’t changed your url in years tell me why as someone in your same boat it’s for science

“Hot and bothered” in the sense that it is 90 degrees out and I am extremely annoyed