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emma; canada; cis female (she/her); aroace. mostly run by queue.
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eyo! saw your tag on the links I WAS able to gather on the issues going unaddressed.

the thing is that I still covered so little myself, but there is someone trying to gather it all in one spot so we can have a more comprehensive understanding of what's going on.

so if you're interested, their form is in this post here. and regardless, thank you for the support, it means a lot :)

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Ooooh thank YOU for the link!! I'll be sure to reblog the post in a bit!

48hr tumblr blackout proposal

tumblr mobile has seadily become near unusable these past few updates. not just from a user experience perspective (which is important enough in itself) but also from an accessibility perspective.

examples include the new way the image viewer works (if you can call it "working"), the tumblr live button replacing the profile button, and that newly created blogs will be forced to have their main dashboard tab be the 'for you' page.

the demands of the protest would be along the lines of:

  • reverse the recent image viewer update
  • scrap the new users 'for you' page default setting
  • let us turn off tumblr live indefinitely
  • increase efforts against spam / porn bots
  • make reporting abuse and hate speech as easy as reporting as reporting spam
  • let us go nuts show nuts again... for real this time
  • commit to improving usability and accessibility, and listening to users!
  • (suggestions welcome!)

to protest against these usability issues, and inspired by the recent reddit blackout, i propose a 48 hour blackout (where you don't use tumblr at all). preferably of both mobile and web (since web has problems too) but mobile is the focus here.

I suggest the 48 hours between the 30th of June to the end of the 1st of July.

this marks the end of pride month (for the "queerest place on the internet") and the start of disability month (since accessibility is a massive issue here).

tumblr office is in San Francisco, USA, so the times and dates will be calculated using their time zone (PDT).

i can't afford to blaze this post so please spread it around as much as possible! protests only work if significant numbers show up!

tumblr rejected the blaze campaigns for this post because they know it would hurt them. let's make this an indefinite blackout - it's the best way to get results.

(so the blackout would be from June 30th onwards)

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below are issues I've seen people remark on. and while I'm adding this addition quite late. I do want to make something more clear. for me personally, this blackout isn't the end. it's the beginning. I want staffs attention and for them to be pressured to engage in conversation.

my proposal for staff that I'm wanting feedback on is here.

staff statements, politician answers, disconnect

i do have to premise, many staff-involved posts are going to be from cyle's blog or written by him. some have other staff contributing to the answer! but he appears to be a sort of main front-end developer, so he's quite literally the most visible staff member, to me at least.

issues w reblog chains

layout issues:

issues w video/picture viewer

issues w other long standing features

user frustrations and rage

and personally my favorite post

OH YEAH something I really appreciated about Across the Spider-Verse (spoilers for a scene towards the end)

genuinely don’t understand the “it’s good to be a hater” sentiment because i just do not give a fuck about anything if it doesn’t involve me and it’s not really hurting anyone. and in fact focusing on stuff i didn’t like that didn’t involve me and wasn’t hurting anyone in any capacity just made me super fucking miserable and my mental health actively improved when i just stopped giving a fuck

like in my opinion and maybe i’m just misunderstanding the posts but lambasting stuff that genuinely deserves it isn’t being a hater. that’s just deserved criticism. being a hater is just being mean about stuff that is otherwise morally neutral and doesn’t affect you or really hurt anyone.

tbh i think it’s better to just not give a fuck sometimes

Tumblr: what if miguel ohara was in love with me

Me: what if miguel was in love with his hologram ai but also not and she might be sentient but he also might be lying to himself about it and only convinced himself it was true to not seem crazy but also he is terrified by the idea of her loving him and so he doesnt love her because shes just his silly ai helper except he cares about her so much that the idea of her system being factory reset terrifies him because it would not be the same lyla because he loves her and her snark and how she tries to cheer him up but he doesnt love her but he does and shes real and loves him except shes not real except she is and they can never ever touch but thats ok.

Tumblr: who the fuck is lyla

48hr tumblr blackout proposal

tumblr mobile has seadily become near unusable these past few updates. not just from a user experience perspective (which is important enough in itself) but also from an accessibility perspective.

examples include the new way the image viewer works (if you can call it "working"), the tumblr live button replacing the profile button, and that newly created blogs will be forced to have their main dashboard tab be the 'for you' page.

the demands of the protest would be along the lines of:

  • reverse the recent image viewer update
  • scrap the new users 'for you' page default setting
  • let us turn off tumblr live indefinitely
  • increase efforts against spam / porn bots
  • make reporting abuse and hate speech as easy as reporting as reporting spam
  • let us go nuts show nuts again... for real this time
  • commit to improving usability and accessibility, and listening to users!
  • (suggestions welcome!)

to protest against these usability issues, and inspired by the recent reddit blackout, i propose a 48 hour blackout (where you don't use tumblr at all). preferably of both mobile and web (since web has problems too) but mobile is the focus here.

I suggest the 48 hours between the 30th of June to the end of the 1st of July.

this marks the end of pride month (for the "queerest place on the internet") and the start of disability month (since accessibility is a massive issue here).

tumblr office is in San Francisco, USA, so the times and dates will be calculated using their time zone (PDT).

i can't afford to blaze this post so please spread it around as much as possible! protests only work if significant numbers show up!

tumblr rejected the blaze campaigns for this post because they know it would hurt them. let's make this an indefinite blackout - it's the best way to get results.

(so the blackout would be from June 30th onwards)

@one-time-i-dreamt @i-am-a-fish @lizluvscupcakes tagging some larger blogs to hopefully get the word out more

♦ ☆ For Zelda (Botw/Totk specifically), please!

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fun fact: I kind of have this headcanon that all the Zeldas have a middle name, (the last name being 'Hyrule', if both Rhoam and King Daphnes's full titles are anything to go by), and that once a Zelda has a daughter and becomes queen, they generally switch to being called this middle name. (This is fully because I realized that the original Link has TWO Zeldas and I wanted to differentiate them in my head in a more 'canon' way than just Original Zelda and Link's Adventure Zelda.) ANYWAY

♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon

  • exploring, particularly the ruins of Hyrule! I don't think Age of Calamity is 100% canon, seeing as it wasn't made by Nintendo, but I still definitely adopted some things there into my headcanon, and it's mentioned somewhere briefly that the Queen would take Zelda out on little expeditions, and I love to think that that's what instilled her love of exploration.
  • tinkering! Zelda likes to figure out how things work. I have this headcanon that Rhoam liked to make clocks or other little… fantasy medieval automatons he could make and the two of them used to love doing that together. :') TOO BAD THAT DIDN'T LAST LONG HUH
  • horseback riding! particularly after she started acting more friendly towards Link and he started giving her tips.
  • reading! All the Zeldas like to read I imagine. they are the bearers of the Triforce of Wisdom after all
  • journaling! In TotK she has a journal AND a diary in the house she shares with Link. slfjesjfs She likes to keep track of her thoughts and feelings y'all!

☆ - happy headcanon

  • Zelda's happiest after a long day of working towards her goals, then resting peacefully in the evening with one or two close friends!!
  • I like to think she's much happier living in a small house in Hateno with Link than she ever was in the palace. Even if things HAD been happier for her there, she just strikes me as liking less complicated accommodations.

every once in a blue moon that gifset of the Newfoundland episode of Anthony Bourdain: Parts Unknown crosses my dash where two of the guys say "To The Queen" when they toast and it always Bothered Me because my family is very Newfie. and yes. Newfies were the last province to give up being a British colony. there is a lot of lingering loyalty and such there

But also, I am watching the episode and the guys who say that are Quebecois so

we don't claim them

Wait, people grabbed your ass, as a joke? That’s sexual assault! Last time someone did that to me I kicked them in the balls and blacklisted them as a personal enemy (not sure if I would have defenestrated them if a teacher didn’t intervene)

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this is cool and all for you but you do realize not everyone has the opportunity, training, reflex, or confidence to respond to sexual assault with immediate and overwhelming violence, right? i've responded to some threats in my life with violence, and at other times i've run away or completely frozen up.

also as a word of warning in how you talk to people who have experienced sexual assault: until very recently, a lot of what we now understand as sexual assault or harassment was normalized as a reasonable and even funny thing for men to get away with. the further back you go, the less 'counts' as an actionable offense. if no one around you believes what happened to you was anything worse than annoying, you don't know how to deal with your own pain and outrage, let alone feel empowered to retaliate.

so yeah, people have grabbed my ass as a joke, and i didn't respond in time with violence, because everyone thought it was a joke. i was an ugly and awkward teenager. no one actually wanted to have sex with me at the time. that was the joke: the absurd implausibility that i was even worth raping. violence wouldn't have improved the situation. do you understand the complexity, there? that it wasn't a straightforward violation of my body but a complete social negation of my worth as a person and my right to be loved? and that kind of deep and haunting trauma can't be assuaged with a kick to the nuts?

like, good on you for being very clear on your own self-worth and militantly defending your boundaries. i'm glad that kids today know that's an option. a lot of people didn't.

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Headcanon meme~

Put a symbol (or several) and a character/characters in my ask box, and I’ll give you a headcanon.  Yes.  Do it.

☾ - sleep headcanon

★ - sad headcanon

☆ - happy headcanon

☠ - angry/violent headcanon

✿ - Sex headcanon

■ -  Bedroom/house/living quarters headcanon

♡ - romantic headcanon

♥ - family headcanon

☮ - friendship headcanon

♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon

☯ - likes/dislikes headcanon

▼ - childhood headcanon

∇ -. old age/aging headcanon

♒ - cooking/food headcanon

☼ - appearance headcanon

ൠ - random headcanon

◉ - Any other question of your choosing

this post hasn't left my mind since i've first saw it

people jest but this is literally how i worked out i was gaslit for like 15 years of my life

People who “want trauma” are recognizing, on some level, that they were traumatized but in a way that’s not “socially recognized” as trauma. What they really want is for people to see that they’ve been traumatized and be on their side

Hold up

I think it’s also important to talk about mental illness, and how the pain and trauma of being mentally ill as a kid is often diminished because of the lack of outside actors. If you spent your childhood being suicidally depressed because your wee little kiddo brain decided to be a chemical shitshow, it doesn’t matter how much mom and dad loved you, that kinda thing fucks you up. And having people only look at your external surroundings and argue that “nothing bad happened” ignores all the pain you went through internally. So wishing you could have something external you could point to in order to justify that pain and enduring stress -- just so people could understand -- makes sense. 

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It's not so much "I wish I had been traumatized" as "I wish I had a name, an event, an explanation for my trauma that other people would understand and accept."

Also, just because a home seems happy and healthy to an external observer does not mean that it was.

One thing I've noticed about the questionnaires that are used to identify if you've experienced trauma ignore major areas of child life where trauma happens. The ones I've taken always ask about home and family. That's not where I was most traumatized. It happened at school.

And even if you have a loving, supportive family, you still have to leave them for several hours a day and be at the whim of bullies, terrible teachers, administrators who treat you like trash, and more. No questions about any of those people or experiences come up in those questionnaires.

I have spent YEARS going: why do I have so many trauma responses? I haven't experienced trauma.

welp

And this is not even to get into how Western society low key constantly traumatizes everyone who isn't white or neurotypical or abled or cisgender or straight.

i used to wish, regularly and shamefully, that i had cancer. i knew cancer was bad. i knew no one should want cancer. but i fantasized that doctors could reach into me--into my brain, or my breasts, or my guts--and cut away some enormous hairy stinking tumor and everyone would say ‘oh wow, so that’s what was in you, so that’s what was making you so sick and unhappy’ and then i would be sewn back up and get an I Survived t-shirt and everyone would be so proud of me.

i didn’t really want to have cancer. i don't want anyone to have cancer. what i really wanted was to have a problem that i could trust someone else to fix.