For who Damon is, how would you have written him pining after Elena?

Well, this actually requires a bit more specificity. Do you mean who the writers say Damon is or for who Damon actually is?

Because, and as I've said repeatedly including in my three recent posts, how the writers characterize him and how they actually portray him are contradictory.

They've always been wildly inconsistent with Damon's characterization, what irritated me the most was the way the dialogue and action would contradict each other when it came to Damon and his emotions:

the show packages the feelings he has for Elena as something specific to her, I sit there like but it’s not, though. Season 1 was all about how Damon would do anything to get Katherine back — it’s not like Elena awakened in Damon the capacity to feel because he’d been feeling and waiting for Katherine for over 100 years.

So when Stefan and Damon have that exchange in 2x01

I’m sitting there like but that part of him was NEVER destroyed! Damon’s problem is that he can’t handle what he feels so he kills people because it’s easier than dealing with his shit.

But that isn't the same thing as not being emotional. Damon is, hands down, the most emotional person on the show.

In 1x06 alone, Damon saw a picture of Katherine, got sad,

slow-danced with Vicki after seeing the picture because he was feeling a type of way

and then killed Vicki as a way to deal with his grief

He killed Lexi because he felt guilty, he killed Zach because he felt guilty

he kills random people because he's sad Elena's "dead", he kills Aaron because he's upset about Elena breaking up with him

So, are you asking me how this guy would pine? Or how the guy in dialogue would pine?

what's going on with the fanfiction?

I CAME BACK FROM THE DEAD JUST TO READ THIS

"Yet, Stefan thought, Elena always seemed to know when he reached his breaking point and couldn’t take ignoring her anymore, and that was when she’d call instead of text. He’d pick up and say nothing and she would remain silent on the other line and for the half hour or forty-five minutes or hour they were on the phone, they’d do nothing but listen to the silence of the other, able to glean just enough of what they needed from the type of quiet communicated over the phone,  and then Stefan would eventually find the strength to hang up."

*i can do this. im a strong woman. i can handle the angst*

"In those dreams, she had him pinned beneath her and gave him pleasure that dared him to ever leave her again, putting her hands atop his as he reached up and felt her, kneaded her, then  she stifled his moans with her kiss as she swayed atop him, bared down on him, catching his pants and curses in her mouth, riding him until he begged her to stop and to keep going, grinding on top of him until he was spent and undone, until he vowed to never, ever leave her again."

"She didn’t know how, but she just knew they were dreams they shared because those were the nights Stefan came to the house. She could hear him outside, hear his racing heartbeat, hear his ragged breathing. Knowing he was there, hearing evidence of his presence wired her body and made her clench her sheets and it took all of the self-control she had not to go to the window."

"She knew the moment she left her bed would be the moment he’d leave the porch, not allowing either of them the tortured comfort of a glimpse of each other."

"Going to Elena’s on the nights his body was not only aching but screaming for her was always a huge risk but Stefan couldn’t help himself. Those were the same nights he needed some sort of proximity to her otherwise it felt like the desire for her would kill him. He never went in and he’d never go in, not until this was all settled, but he’d look up at the window and remember the nights and the mornings he spent in that room, in that bed, under the sheets, holding her or entwined with her and the moment he felt his self-control ebb, he’d leave and deny himself the release of even a sighting of her."

stefan:

me:

"they’d remember those moments from their actual unions, feel the frustration of the other’s absence all over again, a hundred times over, and Stefan could do nothing but sit entirely still as a storm of longing raged within him"

"while Elena would find herself breaking down from the unfairness of it all."

zal... this is breaking me.

a caroline elena bonding moment...yay...all is good now..................im great...................................

zal... this is breaking me.

yayyyy! lmao but i DID warn you i was going to play out this scenario

just them having all of this love and all of this desire and all of this affection to the most extreme degree and not acting on it could lead to this kind of frustration where they just don’t know what to do with themselves.

it was one of my favourite parts to write, just this unfulfilled desire and love kicking stefan's sort of vampiric instincts where he skulks outside of her house because she's in a way drawing him to her but also that hitting up against his humanity and who he is as a person so he won't actually DO anything and they can't even see each other because if they did, he doesn't know how well his control would hold up.

"It was as if Stefan was caressing the entirety of Elena’s body -- the sensation was overwhelming; she could feel the movement of his touch between her legs, and she ached to feel the power of him solid within her, to feel the magnitude of them; she hadn’t realized just how much she missed the love they made during their time apart. The pangs of desire she felt were so acute, she was lightheaded but the only desire stronger than her physical one was the desire to keep looking at him, to study him, bask in his gaze. He was there. With her. Again. Always."

no one does "always" better than stelena

"His certainty that she could get through this had become her certainty and had improved her mood significantly, allowing her to move on to the next part of his regimen: vamp speed."

lol the foreshadowing

LOL STELENAS MAKE OUT SESSION IS HOTTER THAN ANY DELENA SEX SCENE DAMN

"I mean it," she said, lifting his head so she could hold either side of his face and look into his eyes. "I'll kill anything that gets in our way."

He cleared his throat. “"What do you want to do?"

Elena looked at him. “I don’t - I -you said we should train.” 

“Yes, but what do you want to do? You, Elena?” There was a hint of frenzy in his tone, his expression.

me, knowing that this is one of the worst things that couldve happened to stelena, considering how much stefan values elena's autonomy:

“It’s about Elena,” said Stefan.

Klaus scoffed. “Naturally.” 

KLAUS IS SO PETTY. and jealous 🤣🤣🤣

“Stefan, you would never make me do something I didn’t want to do.”

“Not intentionally but you can’t live with this over your head.”

Elena nodded. “I agree.” She touched his arm. “So we’ll figure it out. We’ll find a way to break it.” 

Stefan moved out of her hold. “Yeah, I will.”

THIS HURTS. like... this hurts ME as a reader. cant even imagine how elena must feel hearing this. not only is she a new vamp with heightened emotions but shes also sired to this man. hes basically pulling the rug out from under her feet

“How many times are you going to do this? You did this at the Mikaelson ball,” she said angrily. “You did this over the summer. You did it last year---”

“It’s just until I figure this out.”

“We will figure this out! I’m not just going to sit around and do nothing.”

Stefan cleared his throat. “OK so then you can see if Bonnie has any information and I will work it from my end and---”

“You’re missing the part where we do this together.”

She was shouting. “What did you think I meant when I said that it was me and you? Always? Always, Stefan, does that mean nothing to you?”

He looked at her sharply. It means everything to me. But he didn’t say it. Elena searched his eyes, waiting for a response and when he refused to give her one, she couldn’t help but start to cry, and everything in Stefan shifted. 

He touched her face. "No, no, no, don’t cry,” he had said it without thinking but the second he did, Elena took a shuddering breath and stopped.

Stefan started shaking his head.“See? This is exactly why we can’t be around each other.”

I. AM. DROWNING. IN. ANGST.

“And it won’t! We’ll figure it out together. It’s what I want and I know it’s what you want too.”

“It’s not,” he said definitively. “It’s not what I want.”

Stefan almost faltered at the betrayal on Elena’s face. 

“You’re lying,” she whispered.

“It’s not what I want,” he said again. “I mean it.” 

He left and when he was sure he was out of earshot, fell apart."

LOL klaus was SO petty this fic.

THIS HURTS. like… this hurts ME as a reader. cant even imagine how elena must feel hearing this. not only is she a new vamp with heightened emotions but shes also sired to this man. hes basically pulling the rug out from under her feet

which is also why i was like she also has to get angry and indignant, it's not just bewildered and sad, it would make sense for her to be like are you fucking kidding me but i didn't want it to have the steroline feel in season 8

i wanted it more like a very heightened 3x05

first off: thank you so much for writing this. i was really hoping youd go for the sirebond fanfic, so your effort is GREATLY appreciated! now let's get to the actual fanfic!

starting off with passionate stelena sex, BLISS! 😍

"Elena woke up with a gasp and when she blinked in the unfamiliar surroundings of her motel room and realized Stefan wasn't beside her, that gasp shuddered out to a sob. She curled onto the bed, gripping the scratchy sheets, and heaved violently as the cries wracked her body."

"She couldn't stand feeling like this. Like there was a slow tearing in her mind, in her very core that had yet to rip her completely apart. She never thought she'd feel this kind of pain again and she thought that it might kill her.

But she couldn't go back.

Staying away was the only way to keep her and Stefan alive."

OH MY GOD... my current facial expression is really similar to this:

LIKE....

LOL rebekah secretly being the biggest stelena stan is just so accurate. its funny cause i can really relate to her admiration for them. stelena is ultimate couple goals

"It would be sickening if it weren't so sincere. Elena's body was weakening, her breathing becoming more and more laborious but Rebekah could see that even in the midst of a physical breakdown, she was at peace. Being next to Stefan, choosing Stefan had made her at peace.

"No matter what happens," she was saying. "It's the best choice I ever made."

the fact that she has absolutely zero regrets despite the fact that choosing him led to her death... I CANT WITH STELENA. THEYRE TOO BEAUTIFUL. MY HEART CANT HANDLE IT

"Damon stared up at her for a second before he pushed her off him and got up in one, smooth motion then stormed off. She followed him, knowing Stefan would find Matt and take care of him. She could trust him to do that. She could trust him with anything."

"Elena shook her head at him, almost relieved in how pointless this all was. "I do know that. And I also know that you never got it and if you don’t get it now, you never will," she said. "I could never have had those things if Matt died. It would have never been the life I wanted without him alive. And you can’t think that far ahead to see that. Stefan can."

I AM LIVING FOR THIS

"Damon narrowed his eyes at her.  "Was it ever really a choice?" he asked. "Between him and me?"

Elena bit her lip. "No."

L M F A O !!!!!!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

ELENA IS RUTHLESS. damon is garbage that got trashed

She sighed then said softly, "You don't love me, Damon."

He glared at her. "Don't try to make yourself feel better."

"That's not what I'm doing." She made a soft exasperated noise. "Look at what you were about to do to one of my oldest friends. I chose to save his life and you were about to take it, you were about to spit in the face of my choice. You..." she shrugged. "You don't consider anything I want, you don't take my feelings into account, you just do whatever you want because you need me to be alive for you."  Elena spoke calmly and simply, as if she were explaining something to a child, which only seemed to inflame Damon. "And I - I get it but ... that ..." She shook her head. "That isn't love, Damon, that's obsession. Like with Katherine."

"You loved her for over a century, Damon, you carried her for over a hundred years, and then you came to town and ripped it apart for her, and she didn't care." Elena watched as the pain of the memory flitted across his face. “What did you do with all of that? Where did it all go?"

YES TO ALL OF THIS!!! thats one of my biggest issues with show. damon moves on from katherine SO QUICKLY after a whole fucking century of obsession. so, just like that, hes over her? bitch please. its so dumb. to be fair though... it wouldnt be. itd actually be brilliant if the show didnt try to gaslight us into thinking that damon was genuinely over her and then madly in love with elena. cause he was neither of those things. he basically transplanted his obsession onto elena. which is why he doesnt respect her as a person. i dont think he ever even explains what he likes about her. damons feelings for elena would be a great commentary on toxic patterns in romantic relationships like obsession, idealization, etc. but the show doesnt address any of this in a meaningful way. love that youre doing it though!

YES TO ALL OF THIS!!! thats one of my biggest issues with show. damon moves on from katherine SO QUICKLY after a whole fucking century of obsession. so, just like that, hes over her? bitch please. its so dumb. to be fair though… it wouldnt be. itd actually be brilliant if the show didnt try to gaslight us into thinking that damon was genuinely over her and then madly in love with elena. cause he was neither of those things. he basically transplanted his obsession onto elena. which is why he doesnt respect her as a person. i dont think he ever even explains what he likes about her. damons feelings for elena would be a great commentary on toxic patterns in romantic relationships like obsession, idealization, etc. but the show doesnt address any of this in a meaningful way. love that youre doing it though!

Exactly this, though!

I had a post about it where I was like everything Damon likes about Elena is about what she can do for him

So I was like, I think it would be interesting if Elena kind of re-realizes this with the clarity of a life-changing event where she's just like ... it's not just that I don't love you, you don't love me.

noooooooooo the 'sired elena' is falling behind! guys, PLEASE. I NEED THAT FIC. VOTE FOR THAT.

Sired stelena 👀 I need it

lololol vote! :)

you said something like black panther and gotg were the only marvel movies you really liked right? (and into the spiderverse). did you see gotg3? and are you going to?

i haven't seen it and i probably won't because from what i can tell particularly of starmora's journey in this final installment, it's not the vibe i'm looking for when watching gotg, i'd just be unsatisfied.

why do you swear in so many of your posts? you don't have to swear to be elegant smh

jesus fucking christ, anon, do you mean eloquent?

sooooooooooo when's the next fic coming out? it's been like a week.