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How do I tell you I love you without choking on the words?

Growing up, I never heard my family say 'I love you'. It was something people confessed in films and books and not what mother said to us or father told my mother. I love you was an exotic bird that existed somewhere in the world- too far away from us. I love you was a weakness that required immeasurable strength.

So, I pour my love in the morning coffee. And in the evening, I peel an orange for you, I love you. And I send you 15 cat pictures an hour, I love you and I hope you see it. And I text you good morning at the same time everyday, I love you, I love you, I love you. And until I learn to swallow it and live in it and whisper it, I hope you see how much I love you.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

“Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself- I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy. Today I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead. Tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.”

Groucho Marx

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Conversations with myself lately have involved identifying what I want. What I want out of my career, out of a partner, out of my loved ones, out of life. These things are a lot different now than they were two years ago.

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Think twice when attraction strikes

We feel attracted to less or many people during our life But the thing is to question, why does this attraction happens? Because it is happening unconsciously in the mind to help us evolve, as souls, as consciousness. Sometimes, we are falling into the attractions, projecting everything we desire into that person. But the thing is, when we do this, we tend to skip the steps to manifest the real partner for ourselves, skipping the steps, we are unconsciously tying to skip the needed steps to evolve, to reach that level with the right person. Every person in our life is a lesson. Every person is a gift. The gift for the self, in this dynamic, is to look within to recognize the lesson the other person is reflecting inside, and actually start investing energy to grow that specific trait that we admire, within the self, into our own persona. When you recognize the shadow within the self, that the other person is reflecting through their light, that we recognize through admiration, only then we can see the real value of that person in our life and within us, and within the entire dynamic. It works even for the negative feelings that some people reflect within ourselves. The right person comes when you realize you don’t need any person. Projecting and trying to manifest someone is very selfish and is consuming your energy and the other’s energy. It is co-dependency. It is validation to feed the ego due to unresolved traumas, traumas that are still unconscious. Through sexual energy we transmute the trauma as well. Directing the sexual energy consciously within the self, the mind and the soul, we can notice the fine lines that makes the difference between the unconscious and the conscious. Then, you realize that if you try to manifest someone, what you are doing is not in true alignment with your true self. If you realize this, bless the people and bless yourself. Apply compassion. You are more than partnerships, sexual energy, lust, and anything that happens unconsciously. Put the energy and attention within the self and your own life and trust yourself always. Get in your own flow. Things will come to you while you are following your life mission, that is speaking through what makes your ‘soul dance’ or your ‘heart sings’ when you share it to the world.

Then, and only then, the right partner will come to you, so you two can support a higher purpose, that is to serve the Divine, with the Divine within.

Many blessings to you all <3

Don't wait for me to stop loving you. Reciprocate my energy. I deserve that. I deserve that.