🍋since everyone does this, here i am🍋

im giulio, a 23 year old transmasc enby from italy. i would like to be referred as a man/boy/dude ect.
i have a history of family issues and bullying throughout primary and middle school, as well as a s3xual ass4ult when i was 14.
i was diagnosed with BPD (borderline personality disorder) in early 2022 after a psych ward recovery. after that, i lived in a "psych house" with other mentally ill people for 8 months.
i have been dealing with alcoholism ever since the first quarantine lockdown (so in italy it was from march to may 2020) (but i also think that the problem began even earlier than that). since the beginning of 2023 I decided to be "Cali sober" for harm reduction reasons.
i also have issues with food. ive lost a lot of weight during 2021 and this has kinda messed with my head lol
i currently have a beautiful girlfriend that i love oh so much 💓🏳️‍⚧️

some random facts about me:

im a taurus sun, leo moon and scorpio rising. ask for the full birth chart and i will provide ;)
my favourite colours are yellow💛, green 💚, purple/lilac 💜, and red ❤️
i mostly read essay about feminism and LGBTQ+ topics, but i do like some novels and poetry
i do occasionally read some manga/graphic novels and watch some anime, but just sometimes
im infp 4w5, do with that what you will guys i don't even know what that means

please i apologize if my english is not 100% perfect, but it's not my first language as you probably guessed lmao🕺🏻😔

so okay uhm, here's the thing. enjoy your stay i guess????ok see ya.

last update: 22/05/23 (DD/MM/YY)

No matter how much I say it,

I love you,

will never lose its meaning.

questosoffittoviola

canidkid

You are deserving of so much more than you think. 🌻🧃🧸🌿

How deserving of peace you are, little angel. How deserving you are of feeling the sun on your skin, with no concern for how you may look whilst doing so. Deserving to laugh loudly, at everything you find funny. Deserving of nourishment for your body and soul, without questioning why or if you might even need it. Deserving to cry whenever you need to. Crying is healthy. There are reasons we cry. Do not question them. Embrace your nature.

Your nature is to feel, to live, to explore, and to make the world yours. You are safe to do so. Safe to find yourself and discover your home again. Safe to play and scream and stomp your feet.

Safe to jump in puddles and mess up your shoes. Safe to drop your toys in the dirt and clean them up later. Safe to get paint all over your hands - they can be washed. No fuss, my darling.

You are safe.

You are deserving.

There is nothing special you must achieve to be these things. You must simply exist. You are so loved for just that.

I just want someone to hold my hand and kiss my head and tell me everything is going to be okay.

Please someone

Anyone?

I may be a sociopath

questosoffittoviola

sexhaver

calling the cops on someone else in america for drug use is the most comically evil action i can think of that you can still admit to in public and (unfortunately) not be shunned/exiled/physically attacked for. you're very explicitly saying that your sheltered discomfort with seeing someone do drugs is worth ruining that person's entire life over (even though you could get the same effect by just continuing to walk past the drug user until you never see them again). 18th century dauphin mindset. "papá! papá! i espied that peasant over yonder partaking of a snuffbox! throw him in the dungeon, lest my delicate morals be corrupted any further!" kill yourself perhaps