Getting into a new relationship after not being in one for over a half of a year. It's a scary thing, learning to trust and care for another person after the last person completely shattered your trust and makes you question the sincerity of everyone you've ever met. It's a scary thing, trying to accept and learn how to be a better person for not only yourself. It's a scary thing, learning to love again. To be honest, you scare the shit out of me.
im a huge fan of space; both outer and personal
When Night Is Falling (1995)
sexual history does not define purity. i have seen pure. it is my friend silently moving things so her blind girlfriend doesn’t have to grope around for them. it is the seven year old student i had who learned how to sign “want to play” so he could talk to his deaf neighbor. it is the morning i woke up to find my dog and two cats all sleeping next to each other. it is in small beautiful moments: holding someone’s hand so they can work through a panic attack, giving someone a smooth rock from the ocean, a little boy being a princess, the look on a child’s face the first time they read a book on their own from start to finish. pure is paying for someone’s coffee, is giving up time for soup kitchens, is staying up late to help a friend work through things. it’s saying “yes, i’ll help,” even when you’re dead tired and you need help yourself.
this world is full of terrible things people can do to each other and yet we don’t see “pure” as the moments that matter. we see it as one black or white possibility: either you are a virgin and holy or you are unclean. but people are not blankets of snow. we don’t dirty for letting people in. no. when we love, we only become more beautiful.
