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Kylie

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Thinking about that scene where Alex asks Nora if Percy has heard from Henry and she says, "Percy said that Henry sometimes goes into his cocoon phases and the only thing to do is just wait it out." and Alex immediately replies with, "I can't wait it out, I'm going crazy here."

It made me think of just how many times Henry went into his "cocoon phases" and the people around him just "waited it out" until his sadness passed and he felt like himself again to let them in.

Was Alex the first person to just barge into Henry's cocoon? Was Alex the first person who couldn't just let Henry ride out his sad days by himself? Was Alex the first person who demanded to have Henry share his burdens with him? Was Alex the first person who has ever GOT him?

As someone who goes into frequent depressive episodes and shuts everyone out, this hits too close to home.

“Seriously,” he says. Henry’s looking back at him, beautiful and vital and heartsick and still, always, the person Alex is willing to risk ruining his life for. “I hate this so much. I know. But we’re gonna do it together. And we’re gonna make it work. You and me and history, remember? We’re just gonna fucking fight. Because you’re it, okay? I’m never gonna love anybody in the world like I love you. So, I promise you, one day we’ll be able to just be, and fuck everyone else.”

RED, WHITE & ROYAL BLUE (2023)