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Pulsing Ink

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I write better than I speak

When the whumpee wakes up somewhere they don’t recognize after having fallen asleep/passed out while in the whumper’s captivity, and they’re too out of it to realize that they’ve been rescued and are in the caretaker’s house. The whumpee quickly realizing that they’re not restrained, and trying to get up and flee, only to find that they can barely stand. The caretaker entering the room at that moment, seeing the whumpee on their feet, and rushing over to get them to lie back down. The whumpee moving to defend themself the second they see someone, but relaxing a moment later when they realize it’s the caretaker, and letting themself be settled back into bed. The caretaker explaining what happened to the whumpee, who falls asleep halfway through the explanation, but the caretaker not minding, because rest is probably the best thing for them anyway.

I love it when someone is so sick or so hurt that they don’t close the door of they’re house/flat/apartment.

They are in such pain from the wound the recent fight caused, or the fever is making them not thinking straight, that they forget to lock or the door behind them and just collapse on the floor in front of it.

+ Bonus if another character visits them and realises that the door is open after knocking there

Hey guys I’m sorry I’ve been off for such a long time but I’m back now!!! Love you all 💕

There’s a lot of pain in my heart

But who doesn’t have pain

Who hasn’t found themselves in the rain

With no umbrella or felt the heaviness of a chain

Around their soul everyone’s got pain

Everyone has felt the same

Sting of heartbreak that familiar feeling that you can’t contain

That you can’t explain

Like an ocean

Aren’t we all just swimming

Floating

Drowning

In an ocean of pain

i never asked
for you to solve my problems
i never wanted
you to have all the answers
and you didn’t have to throw
those failed attempts at therapy
in my face
you don’t have to understand
the way my mind works
that’s something i never expected
all i ever wanted
all i ever asked for
was your love
a gentle heart
an open mind
some loyalty and compassion too
a little patience would’ve been nice
that’s all i’ll ever want
is that too much to ask?

so to answer your question, no. i don’t think you’d find the answers my therapists couldn’t on google.

how little is too little?
how much is too much?
what expectations are too high?
when am I being taken for granted?
why can’t I stop thinking?
where do I draw the line?
how long should I wait?
what was that sound?
why do I care so much?
why can’t I care less?
can you run out of tears?
why can’t I find the right words?
am I crazy?
am I right?
am I wrong?
why does time move so slow?
when does this pain stop?
does balance even exist?
will any of it ever make sense?

do sleeping pills even work?

I guess i've just been feeling kinda alone, and idk what's going on anymore. I feel alone in trying to make the distance seem not so bad, I feel alone in trying to stay close and making you feel loved. Maybe that's not your thing and I know long distance is new territory for the both of us but at least I'm trying. Everyday I'm trying to be there for you and make you smile, even if it's just with a dorky text. Now that we’re together I don’t want that spark to go out, i don’t want to just roll over and passively communicate. I never wanted anything grand or big, just to feel like you actually cared if I'm there or not. Words are my thing... you know that. You know how important it is for me that we’re open and just genuinely tell each other things. I can’t read your mind, and when you’re so cold... i feel like you’re trying to tell me something else. We talked about being together, about me moving so I could be closer to you... and i hate having doubts about your feelings for me. If I’m making huge steps like that, it’s because I’m serious as hell. And I want to be sure you are too. I’m afraid that you’re trying to push me away. If you’re not just tell me you want some space or that you’re showing me you love me another way because we’re both kinda new to each other so maybe you have s different way of showing it than I do. And if you are trying to get rid of me... please just say it, because i feel like I’m making a fool of myself by always trying to be loving and cute. Do you even like it? I've really been struggling to feel like I'm not just a piece of gum on the bottom of your shoe that you've just let stick around. And I know you're busy and dealing with lots... but you were right last night. So am I and I just miss you and I feel alone.

i write scripts before phone calls because i can’t keep my thoughts in order. here’s one of the ones i wrote before i called you

I feel like I’m going to be sick
this heartache sticks
to the back of my throat
so sticky so thick
you’re close to me but far
a cruel trick
I wish you could just pick
me up & take me away
hurry
come quick
because I don’t think I can take another blow another kick
I long for you every second
& times just tick tick ticks
on by so slowly
a candlestick
almost burnt out
tell me you need me too
& maybe this tattered wick
can catch fire again

why have you changed so?

Are you afraid to be romantic
Or do you just not want to be?
Because I need a reminder love
I can’t see where you are anymore
i can’t hear your voice
I can’t read your mind
I need you to tell me
I need you to remind me
Everyday
Because I need to know that you’re still waitinig
I can’t guess I can’t hope
Anymore
I’m not asking for much
Just your words will do
But I can’t go on like this for much longer
I love you too much to not know
If you love me too

it hurts too much

“what ifs”
will be the end of him
he asks her if she’ll remember him
trembling and teary eyed because
the time in between is so sour
will you remember the smell of my hair?
the touch of my hand?
when sleep hides
the weight of frigid darkness becomes
too heavy on his chest
echoes in his heart
I could never forget you
he prays that the
“I love yous”
haven’t expired
he wonders if things will be the same in
the morning
just hoping that he isn’t a temporary plume of smoke
forgotten
but expecting to be anyways

will you still love me tomorrow?

I wish things weren’t so tense
Dense
Like salt water
Immense
Like the raging sea
There’s no defence
For this feeling so intense
It’s like there’s this huge fence
Between us and it makes no sense
To have this pretence
And if I could I would condense
Your smile and keep it in my pocket wherever I go
How can I show
You what you mean to me?
Do you know
That I see the universe when I look at you?
I could never say no
To one of your kisses although
I won’t be having one of those
For awhile
And time moves so slow
Like watching melting snow
Because from the first hello
I was yours

but i don’t know if i am anymore

in another cosmos
far away and long ago
floating in the sky
dancing in the stars
he must have found her
touched her skin softly
kissed and loved
beneath an inky sky
not unlike this
they must have always known one another
only the distance
of scattered lifetimes
between them
folds in eternity
until now
finally brought together
two people
two hearts
who were meant to be

maybe that’s what they mean by soulmates