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Professional Queer Bookworm™

@professionalqueerbookworm

👻 She/They, 27, Queer, Autistic/ADHD, Italian 👻 I read, rate and review LGBTQ books 🏳️‍🌈

Listen, if you interrupt me with a new task while I’m midway through another, you aren’t allowed to be mad when I switch to the new task immediately. You clearly thought the new task was important enough to interrupt me with it!

I am just a little pikmin! You’re the one with the whistle!!

‘You need to learn to prioritise’ no YOU do! You’re the one dishing out tasks!! All I need to do is take things back to the onion!

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Also, I have the ADHD! If you stop me while I'm doing X and ask me to do Y, I will immediately switch to doing Y because THAT IS THE ONLY WAY IT IS GETTING DONE. I do not have the option of finishing X and then getting around to Y, I will 100% forget and I know this about myself from years and years of experience of living in my brain.

You ask an ADHD person to do something, you're getting it RIGHT NOW or NEVER. Those are the only two times.

Welcome to time blindness, enjoy your visit, I live here.

adhd gothic

  • you want to watch a movie. you put it on. two hours have passed. you haven’t watched the movie. there are five new tasks in front of you. you want to watch a different movie.
  • there is an object in your hand. it is extremely important you don’t lose it. you look down. there is nothing in your hand.
  • you don’t know your friend’s name. you’ve been friends for months. they just told you their name. you do not know their name.
  • your friend doesn’t laugh at your joke. why didn’t they laugh? do they hate you? they assure you otherwise. you know they are lying. did they ever like you?
  • someone asks you what you just said. did you say something? you said so many things. you said nothing. you said everything.
  • there is something you’re forgetting. you check. you check again. there is nothing you’re forgetting. there is something you’re forgetting.
  • you had something to say. you can’t remember. it was important. wasn’t it? you can’t remember. 
  • there is a task that needs to be done. it should take ten minutes. you check the clock. it’s been five minutes. you check the clock. it’s been two days.

Who gave you this summary of my week

  • you are excited to do the thing. you are eager to do the thing. you do not do the thing and you cannot say why. your body is operated by a force beyond yourself.
  • you awake and lie in bed. you plan a detail to-do list in your head. excited, you step out of bed only to feel the motivation drain off of you like oil from a duck’s back. the bed calls to you like a siren to a sailor
  • did you lock the door? if you check, you will have locked the door. if you do not check, you will not have locked the door. if you check and have locked the door there is a reasonable chance you will accidentally unlock the door. there is no way to win this game.
  • you are hungry. you eat nothing. you are not hungry. you eat everything. the moon laughs at you.
  • you have had a tune stuck in your head for three days now. it is not a tune that exists on earth. it will not leave.
“Many people seem to think it foolish, even superstitious, to believe that the world could still change for the better. And it is true that in winter it is sometimes so bitingly cold that one is tempted to say, ‘What do I care if there is a summer; its warmth is no help to me now.’ Yes, evil often seems to surpass good. But then, in spite of us, and without our permission, there comes at last an end to the bitter frosts. One morning the wind turns, and there is a thaw. And so I must still have hope.”

— Vincent Van Gogh

“If I am worth anything later, I am worth something now. For wheat is wheat, even if people think it is a grass in the beginning.” 

- Vincent van Gogh

I don’t know who cares to hear this but if someone asks you to hang out and you can’t but you genuinely want to hang out with them, let them know that the time(s) they suggested don’t work for you and offer new times that do.

If you just say you “can’t/that time doesn’t work” with no follow up, it communicates a disinterest (to a lot of people) just a little tip on maintaining relationships

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And if you’re not sure when you’ll be able to, you can say that! I’ve had to say to friends many times, “I’m not sure if I’ll be able to hang out this weekend because my fatigue has been bad this week. Can I get in touch when I feel better, and we can plan something then?”

The answer has always been yes.

It's also totally valid, if someone proposes a high energy activity but you don't have the spoons for it, to ask if you can meet up and do something else instead.

if you need permission to speak plainly about your needs, this is it. you can literally say any variation on im really glad you texted, ive been wanting to hang out with you but was finding it hard to get organised, that time doesnt work for me, im not sure when will, im worried ill forget to text if we leave it too long, can you ask me again on wednesday etc etc etc

Happy disabled pride month to disabled people with undiagnosed physical disabilities

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Happy disabled pride month to all disabled people. I love you. /p

Senpai says you’re welcome

Reblogging again because I just realized that if I had this advice in high school I would’ve never made a tumblr account.

Also works for most of those news sites like WSJ or NYT that only let you read a little bit, or block adblockers. Also some disable the scroll bar but if you go to the right side of the console after hitting F12 and look for the CSS element “overflow” and change it from “hidden” to “visible” then you can continue scrolling for free. Might have to click around on different parts of the page to find it, but it should work.

There’s also a Firefox/Chrome extension called Behind The Overlay that does all that with one mouse click. Used it for years; what a time saver.

And if you encounter a true paywall, use Archive.Today to bypass it. Just paste the paywalled url into the blue “search archived snapshots” box near the bottom:

Breaking my silence. Wuko's an underrated ship. It's cute. It's giving twink4twunk. The sheer comedic potential? Unmatched. The possibility of them both growing as people by being part of each other's lives? Beautiful. Wu becoming more empathetic and down to earth and Mako learning that existing is something a person can actually enjoy instead of just suffering through? I am scraping my plate clean and getting back in line for seconds. Also like. Mako growing up homeless and starving and then dating a literal king? Cinderella moment. Love that for him.

I know I've been over this but man HRT is good stuff. I wanna shake the hand of whoever invented it. It's a crime that I don't know who that is actually. They're more important than Einstein

id also been really curious about the history of hrt so i had some tabs open:

The first hrt treatments were mostly estrogen extracted during pregnancies to be used for menopause symptoms, but the first usage of those medicines for trans women is credited to the world's first Trans Clinic, opened in pre-WW2 Germany by Magnus Hirschfield, a gay jewish man.

Oh he looks delightful

Thank you grandpa

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The comparasion to Einstein was actually made at the time too! He was commonly refered to as “the Einstein of sex”, to which he supposedly once replied that he would rather Einstein be called “the Hirschfeld of physics” lmao

Oh my god

The story of the Institute of Sexology should be mandatory learning in all schools. It is arguably where the science of gender and sex were codified and became a field, featuring such hits as development of HRT, gender affirming surgeries like top surgery and bottom surgery, and understanding of gender and sex which were inclusive of gay, bisexual, asexual, trans identities, etc. Hirschfeld advocated free sex education and contraceptives, and destigmatization of LGBT identities. He coined transsexual, as a departure from transvestite, and wrote medical passes for trans people to show police who would hassle them for crissdressing.

The Institute of Sexology, was burned by the Nazi regime. It was one of the earliest targets and one of the biggest, of the book burning efforts, and the majority of photos depicting Nazi book burnings were from that one specific event. It had medical research, records, case studies. The burning of the Institute set back the entire scientific field entire decades.

A while ago I read about autistic people and nesting somewhere & I think we don't talk about that enough. Apparently, a lot of autistic people like nesting. I love nesting. I carefully choose a space to build my nest and I bring all my little trinkets there. I surround myself with everything I love and everything I could possibly need in the next few hours- my water bottle, a snack, my weighted blanket, my soft blanket, hand creme, my headphones, my charger, my favorite stuffed animals- so I don't have to leave the nest to get anything. It makes me feel save and calm and like everything is gonna be ok. This is a nesting appreciation post. Any other autistics who love a good nest?

sometimes people dont really understand that having schizophrenia doesn’t permalock me as an angsty 13 year old evanescence fan

i keep telling myself i can’t handle longer projects but in the last four days i wrote 23,377 words just totally by the seat of my pants

This is the Good Post of seat-of-your-pants inspiration, reblog so you too may add 23,377 words to your WIP without a single moment of hesitation or self-doubt

Bursts like this are like