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Hi I hope you are well! in Worse engagement AU, does NHS ever find out about LXC getting longer-lasting incense, or LQR intentionally failing him his first year in Cloud Recesses? Poor NHS just can't catch a break, and I love the angst
Worst engagement AU
He does! And I may or may not have pushed myself to write nhs failing his year just because of how badly I wanted to write this, ahah.
Set soon after they get married :D
warning for... I guess he’s having a panic attack of sorts?
Unpacking is a terrible chore, worse in some ways than the packing that preceded it, but at least Nie Huaisang gets some help from his...
His face heats up. It's going to take a while to get used to the fact that they're married. It's only been a few days, and half the time it doesn't feel real. Which is the entire reason why Lan Xichen insisted that Nie Huaisang unpacked his things so they could put everything in its proper place and turn the Hanshi into something that's home for both of them. Even more than Nie Huaisang, it's obvious that Lan Xichen can't believe he gets to have this. It shows in the way he looks at Nie Huaisang when he enters the room where he's working, always half surprised to see him there. It shows also in the way he clings to him at night, as if Nie Huaisang might disappear otherwise, or run away, or do whatever other insane thing Lan Xichen might be imagining.
“What are those?” Lan Xichen asks, having opened a chest and found it full of various papers.
Nie Huaisang abandons the books he was trying to organise and comes to sit next to his husband, a little closer than necessary perhaps, but he knows Lan Xichen will appreciate it.
“This... Ah, it's a bit of everything,” Nie Huaisang admits. “Things I’ve done for fun these last few years. Most of it is bad poetry. Some of it about you, actually.”
“Did you?”
“I got very creative with insults at one point. I made Jin... I made someone read them, he found them very funny. Jiang Cheng saw them too, but he made a fuss about me being rude.”
Lan Xichen's smile freezes into that very annoying, very polite expression he has when he's unhappy about something. They usually avoid talking about Jin Zixuan, really, but Nie Huaisang was so taken by nostalgia for a moment that he half forgot. Besides, the poems really were funny.
Still, Nie Huaisang takes pity on Lan Xichen, and quickly digs into the chest to find something that will let him change the conversation. There's some half finished paintings, some calligraphy attempts, even notes from his time as a student and...
“Oh, right, I kept that,” he mutters, grabbing a neat little stack of paper. “That's probably good for a laugh.”
“Poems?”
“Even worse,” Nie Huaisang chuckles. “It's that exam I failed, my first year in the Cloud Recesses. I really thought I'd done great, you know? Well, maybe not great, but decently at least. Heavens, sometimes kids are so stupid they can't even see how stupid they are.”
Lan Xichen tenses next to him, and rather than to laugh along, throws him a concerned look.
Worst engagement AU! What lxc uncle think nhs behavior?
Worst engagement AU
I could have just answered but I’m procrastinating on stuff so...
1 Qingheng-Jun does not like the idea of an arranged match, but Lan Qiren insists. He points out the need for a strong alliance, the old friendship with Qinghe Nie, the casual aggressions of Qishan Wen against its neighbours, the mounting disrespect against its allies.
He does not mention that, left to their own devices, people in their family have a tendency to choose horrible spouses for themselves. He doesn't say that he wants something safer for his nephew, one of the boys he's raising because their father decided to shroud himself in guilt and sorrow rather than do his duty to them and his sect.
He knows he doesn't need to voice it to be understood.
Qingheng-Jun does not like this, but he agrees to take Lan Xichen to Qinghe. When he comes back, he has an engagement contract in hand. Lan Xichen's future is set, and he will be protected from his own passions.
It does not occur to Lan Qiren to ask for details about that Nie boy. He doesn't really matter.
NHS and JZX's friendship gives me life!!! Thank you!
Jin Zixuan needs friends! He needs someone with who he doesn’t have to be perfect and proper and elegant all the time!
Everyone in this story has friends and/or siblings, but Jin Zixuan is just. On his own. Which is sad. And probably explains why he’s so fucking awkward all of the time.
I feel he would really profit from a friendship with NHS because 1. living proof that you can talk back to your older relatives and not die of dishonour 2. living proof that you can get along with your half siblings 3. if JZX argues against his dad about JGY or about the Wens or about anything, and JGS gets too angry, JZX now has the option to run off to QInghe for a while 4. He’d have someone to talk to about his complicated feelings toward JYL and maybe their situation could get solved a little earlier!
It just. It makes me sad that potentially, the closest thing to a friend JZX gets is his asshole cousin Jin Zixun. Sure CQL also gave him MianMian but... let that boy have friends! Let him have people who help him figure out that he can have emotions even if it’s inconvenient to his parents!
nhs: self defense! *punches someone in the dick*
for the record, the Worst Engagement AU is now also on AO3, although updates there will be what they are, since I want AO3 to have things in chronological order and I just… write stuff at random orz
anyway, a short thing set right before this ficlet. nhs is 10, lxc is 12
Nie Huaisang understands marriage. He’s clever, and he’s seen it around him. People get married, they kiss, they sleep in the same room, and after a while the wife has a baby, and then after another while she dies, and the husband has to start looking for a new wife. It’s how it went for both of his father’s marriages anyway, and he knows it was the same for Sect Leader Lan (though he never looked for another wife, but the Lans are weird). He can name a few more examples like that. Of course, there are also wives that don’t die, but he assumes it’s just a matter of time, or because someone has to be left to look out for all those babies.
As it is, he wonders how that’s going to work for him. He knows he can’t have a baby, and neither can Lan Xichen, so it’s unclear which one of them is supposed to die. He suspects it’s him, since Lan Xichen will need to become Sect Leader and can’t afford to die. For the first few months after the engagement is announced, it gives him nightmares that he has to pretend he doesn’t remember. Nie Huaisang knows that as a rule, sharing his nightmares with his family is a bad idea and just gets him teased or scolded, and he gets scolded enough already.
Because if the nightmares are unpleasant enough, they’re the least worst part of this engagement thing.
First, there’s the fact that suddenly, everyone keeps telling him that he needs to work harder at… just about everything, really. Of course, everyone has always been telling him that for as long as Nie Huaisang can remember, but now there’s a new urgency to it. After all, he is engaged to the wonderful, the amazing, the perfect Lan Xichen, and must show himself worthy of it. Not a day passes without someone reminding him that he’ll dishonour their entire sect if he proves inadequate, that an entire alliance rests on his small shoulders. He is his father’s son, his brother’s sibling, he has no excuse to be so bad at everything. No excuse save laziness, and an innate inability to focus.
Second, there’s his fiancé. Everyone says that Lan Xichen is perfect and polite and so mature and wonderful, but Nie Huaisang just finds him rude and cold. Well. Cold to him. There’s no ignoring the fact that Lan Xichen can be very nice when he wants. He’s plenty nice to Nie Mingjue for sure, the two having become instant friends. They write to each other all the time. And every time they all meet so the adults can continue discussing the terms of the engagement, Nie Mingjue and Lan Xichen will find ways to dump Nie Huaisang and go have fun without him.
That’s why at the fourth or fifth such meeting, Nie Mingjue has to stay behind in the Unclean Realm while Nie Huaisang and their father go to the Cloud Recesses.
Lan Xichen is… disappointed to say the least. The expression on his face when he realises that only sect leader Nie and Nie Huaisang are there is… the closest to an actual emotion that Nie Huaisang has ever seen on his future husband’s face. It doesn’t last, of course. Lan Xichen is stupidly perfect and schools his features into the most annoyingly empty smile that Nie Huaisang has ever seen. Anger would be better.
“Xichen, take Nie gongzi to your room and entertain him while we talk,” Lan Qiren orders.
“Of course, uncle,” Lan Xichen replies, with a perfect smile and a perfect, elegant gesture inviting Nie Huaisang to follow him.
They get to his room, and it’s not a bad place. Nie Huaisang likes how clean and well organised it is, with large windows that let in a lot of light. The Cloud Recesses aren’t a fortress, it’s a place built to meditate and admire the world and in some ways, Nie Huaisang could almost be happy that it will be his home someday.
The only problem is that it’ll be his home with Lan Xichen.
“I’m sorry that Dage couldn’t come this time,” he mutters, watching his impassive fiancé take out a guqin and carefully lay it in front of him.
“I am sorry as well,” Lan Xichen coldly replies, motionning for for Nie Huaisang to sit down while he starts playing.
Lan Xichen starts practising the guqin without sparing any attention for his financé. Nie Huaisang genuinely enjoys it, to his own surprise. There hasn’t been a lot of music in the Unclean Realm since his mother died along with the little sister who never breathed, but Nie Huaisang realises he missed it. It helps that Lan Xichen is so great at it. He really is just as perfect as everyone says, but for once Nie Huaisang doesn’t really mind. For the first time since the engagement was decided a year before, Nie Huaisang starts to think that maybe this won’t be quite as awful as he thought.
But it’s when he switches to the xiao that Lan Xichen really shines. Even Nie Huaisang, with his unrefined taste and lack of musical education, is blown away by his fiancé’s skill. When Lan Xichen plays the xiao, it his more harmonious than the most talented songbird, more soothing than the sounds of a peaceful river, more beautiful even the music played by those friends of Nie Huaisang’s mother, the ones who were so great they had played several times for the emperor. And Lan Xichen is still only twelve. Nie Huaisang remembers hearing that Lan Xichen only started playing the xiao earlier this year, which means he still had room to improve.
The divide between them, one skilled at everything he does, the other failing at everything he tries, could not be greater.
And yet, watching and listening to Lan Xichen, Nie Huaisang wonders if he could ask to learn how to play music. He’s not so bold that he would ask Lan Xichen to teach him, and they don’t see each other often enough for it to be efficient. But he could ask his father if maybe, just maybe, he might learn an instrument. It would be nice if they finally had something in common. It’s unlikely they’ll ever like each other, and Nie Huaisang will never be good enough to play together, but if they can have something to talk about, if they can at least get along…
He never asks, in the end. As soon as the adults return, Lan Xichen enquires if Nie Mingjue can come next time, because Nie Huaisang is just too quiet and won’t talk to him.
When they get to the guest quarters, his father scolds him for acting shy.
Nie Huaisang doesn’t try explaining he didn’t want to bother his fiancé, that the music was too pretty. He guesses that if he’d tried to chat, Lan Xichen would have complained against being distracted.
He just can’t ever do anything right, anyway.
Lan Qiren thought that everyone’s life would be easier if he chose his nephew’s spouse so that Lan Xichen wouldn’t repeat his father’s mistakes
That’s because Lan Qiren underestimated his own clan’s capacity for drama
worst engagement au, how would lxc react when he finds out that his lovely fiance didn't even make it onto the list of the most attractive young masters?
He was not happy
for a bonus
writing the list was something of a team effort:
boys enjoying a moment of quiet in the Cloud Recesses
"Don't let anyone make you feel ashamed of who you are" with Nie Mingjue and Jiang Yanli! Some good ol' oldest sibling bonding?
Jiang Yanli is left alone as her brothers deal with the fallout of that soup gifting debacle. Wei Wuxian is probably off somewhere threatening people, with Jiang Cheng trailing behind him, trying to both stop Wei Wuxian's threats and add his own to the lot. She is... glad that they care, glad that they won't stand for injustice against her. She is glad also for a chance to be alone and compose herself, humiliation still burning hot.
She would be glad as well to have them at her side, comforting her the way she'd comfort them if it had been their hearts breaking. Just once to be the one being taken care of. A selfish need, and after what happened she should know better than to be selfish, shouldn't she ? And yet...
Jiang Yanli startles when there is a knock on the door, and she hurriedly dries with the hem of her sleeves the tears she had not realised escaped her. When she goes to meet her guest, she is surprised to find Nie Mingjue, holding a tray with some tea on it.
“I've been told what happened,” he explains. “I hope I'm not overstepping.”
Too stunned to answer, Jiang Yanli quietly shakes her head and invites him inside the room she shares with her brothers. Part of her cringes at the mess but... this is a war, and she knows Nie Mingjue will understand she's had more important things to do than tidy up.
Such as causing a diplomatic incident.
“I am very sorry for what happened,” she says as Nie Mingjue puts down his tray. “I never intended for things to take such a turn.”
“Jin Zixuan was played with by a dishonest person, you can't be blamed for that,” he retorts dryly, sitting down and inviting her to do the same.
This room is her home, the only one she has left until they can reclaim Lotus Piers, but ultimately this entire camp is under Nie Mingjue's control and he's free to act as the host if he likes. Jiang Yanli sits down. Before she can make a move to serve the tea, Nie Mingjue is doing it.
“The servant who took credit for your work will be dismissed,” he announces as he hands her a cup. “This sort of behaviour is intolerable. And once things have calmed down, I will make sure that proper apologies are delivered to you.”
“There's no need... Master Jin had been lied to, he cannot be blamed for...”
“Jin Zixuan has reasons to act the way he did, but he has no excuses,” Nie Mingjue cuts her. “A boy of his standing and education should have known to handle things better than this. Even my brother would have shown better sense than this. You should not have been spoken to in such a manner.”
Jiang Yanli feels her hands tremble and has to put down her cup for fear she will spill its content.
“Chifeng-Zun is too kind,” she softly protests. “My own behaviour too was questionable, and so I can only blame myself for what happened. I will have my own apologies to offer.”
Nie Mingjue doesn't answer right away. He studies her impassively for a moment before shaking his head.
“Don't let anyone make you feel ashamed of who you are,” he says. “Your kindness is not a fault, and I have never heard a bad word against you since you arrived. The healers have all told me that you take great care to heed their advice and never hesitate to get your hands dirty if it can help. The cooks have told me you also give them a hand when they need it, and that you have done great at organising supplies and communicating to them the needs of the wounded. This alone is to your honour and if Jin Zixuan cannot see what he's letting pass, then he's as much of a fool as his father.”
“I did not do this to curry his favour,” Jiang Yanli protests, her cheeks heating up. “I made soup for my brothers, and it is difficult to make in small quantities, I always had some left. Young Master Jin works very hard, I thought he would appreciate this.”
And he had, she thinks with startling bitterness, until he realised who it came from. But she had guessed it would be so. Isn't this why she asked someone else to deliver the soup for her? Jin Zixuan has always made it clear that he wants nothing to do with her, she should have known better than to insist.
Nie Mingjue nods, and sips on his tea.
“It is a good reason for doing what you did,” he agrees, sounding so earnest that Jiang Yanli feels something settle inside her, grateful that he doesn't judge her for her foolishness. “I assume you will continue making soup for your brothers in the future?”
“If the supplies allow it, I would like to. I realise that there are better use for the resources we have, but...”
“I trust you to make the right decisions on that matter,” Nie Mingjue assures her. “And if you still have some left, I know I would appreciate both the food and its maker's company.”
Jiang Yanli can't help but gape for a moment at the bold suggestion. It is poor manners on her part, but she can be excused when Nie Mingjue broke decorum first. To ask for such a thing is...
“You don't have to,” he quickly adds, as if realising that he went to far, and there's something sweet to seeing a man this confident look unsure of himself. “But I would welcome it. I value people for their actions, and yours say you are someone I wouldn't dislike having as a friend.”
Another bold declaration, but of course that is to be expected of someone like Nie Mingjue whose reputation she knows. He is not one for flatteries and empty politeness. Her father used to both enjoy and dread dealing with Qinghe Nie's leader for that reason, saying Nie Mingjue gave people the respect they deserved, and nothing more than what they had earned.
Jiang Yanli can't help but smile, a little more of her earlier shame melting away.
“How much spice can you handle, sect leader Nie?” she asks.
He smiles back, looking relieved.
In those difficult times, perhaps they could both do with another friend.
inspired by this post by @tsunamigongs
Don’t talk to Nie Huaisang before he finishes his morning tea
For the ask meme: "I'm mad at god" where sqq is really talking about airplane
Luo Binghe’s husband is, to put it simply, an odd and fascinating man he half gave up on understanding. It is easier, he’s found, to simply accept whatever Shen Qingqiu does and say and not question it too much.
Besides, even when he gives in to curiosity, it is rarely indulged, not for the oddest things at least. Shen Qingqiu will make excuses, or pretend he never said anything, or in more extreme cases, lightly hit Luo Binghe with his fan to get him to stop asking pointless questions.
It doesn’t matter much, in the end. Luo Binghe knows the important things, such as his husband’s acceptance of his love, and the fact that he is loved back with an intensity that Shen Qingqiu doesn’t always bother hiding anymore.
Still, sometimes it really gets too odd.
Today, for example.
They are both relaxing in Shen Qingqiu’s… in their house on Qing Jing Peak. Shen Qingqiu is polishing his sword, while Luo Binghe gives some news from the demon world. His husband is always curious about that, especially if fearsome creatures or rare plants are concerned. It is not the case today, sadly. Instead it is all politics, especially since a great lord recently died and left no blood relative but a child he had with a human woman. Successions are never easy among demons, but this one is already looking to be particularly ugly. The child is young still, and the mother has come running to Luo Binghe to beg for his protection, which he has granted.
“The mother is a good woman,” Luo Binghe notes. “Many would have abandoned their half breed child and only sought to protect themselves.”
He thinks, of course, of Su Xiyan. Somedays, he tells himself she tried to save him, as Shen Qingqiu once argued. Other times, he is convinced that she really meant to destroy him before his birth and failed. Certainty will always escape him on this matter, as on many others.
“This Lord is generous to give asylum to those with enemies,” Shen Qingqiu praises him with a tender smile.
“Shizun thinks too highly of this one. It is only that this one was reminded of his own youth when he saw a miserable mother and child. This one’s life would have been different if his mother had been given help in her time of need.”
Shen Qingqiu, briefly, interrupts his work and stares ad Luo Binghe in that air he has sometimes, as if seeing him for the first time. He then tightens the grip on his sword and starts polishing it with renewed determination.
“What’s shizun doing?” Luo Binghe asks.
“This one is making preparations,” Shen Qingqiu retorts in a dry voice. “I’m mad at god and this time, he’ll feel my wrath.”
“Shizun cannot be serious. Sizhun cannot think of fighting gods.”
Shen Qingqiu shrugs, the way he does when he’s too high on emotion to play the part of cold master he hides behind, and lifts his sword to the level of his eye, checking the edge.
“God is a wimp and it’s time someone took him down for what he did to my husband,” Shen Qingqiu retorts, standing up. “If you need me, I’ll be in An Ding Peak.”
Luo Binghe blinks a few times, unsure what to make of that. He knows of his husband's friendship with Shang Qinghua, but he doesn’t understand it and quite frankly, that little whimpering fool is the last person he would have wanted at his side to go fight gods.
“Will shizun be back in time for dinner?” Luo Binghe inquires, since somehow that’s the sanest question he can think of asking.
Shen Qingqiu only takes a brief moment to consider this.
“Yes. It won’t take very long.”
He then leaves, while Luo Binghe can only stare at the door and try to make sense of what happened.
His husband is a very odd man, but Luo Binghe is hardly normal himself, so they fit well together.
The real problem, though, is that he must now think of a meal befitting a man who may or may not have gone off to kill a god. It’s only early afternoon, but Luo Binghe needs to get to work.
Dage more like Daddy, right?
I blame @theivorywriter