I love the way training change my body and mind 💜

I have been meaning to write this post for weeks and I finally got my ass down to do it. How do you describe such major changes in your life? It sounds so cliché but seriously if someone 3 years ago would have told me that I’ll not finish university, move to a different country and will be 25 kg lighter I’d be probably still laughing….yet, here I am!

Let’s start with the toughest one, school. Yeah, I got expelled from Hogwarts. I felt (maybe still do) feel sorry about it but what happened in the past months has made me realize life is so much more than just school. (It makes my life sound so interesting…HA! don’t be fooled my friend, I just work work and work really). But now I don’t mind that it happened this way. I’ve grew up in a household where though my parents always, always tried to give us everything, money was always an issue. I’ve had several jobs next to school for ridiculous wage that was not even enough to pay rent. So now when I can actually go out with friends, I cannot even describe how great it feels to choose something I want to, not what I can afford. I am in love with my jobs (which is a good thing, considering I work 70-90 hours per week) and Malta is wonderful. I have no idea what to do with my future though. I want to go back to school but not for now. I enjoy life at the moment. I’m still in love with sciences but I’m also becoming interested in different things like book publishing or foreign policy. How do people decide what they want to do for the rest of their lives?

Now, ladies and gentleman, let me give the big news…I am officially -25 kg (50 pounds) down. It has been the hardest, yet easiest thing I’ve ever done. I still remember when two years ago just before New Years Eve I decided I’m gonna change. How I did 5 minutes from a 20 mins workout video with my door locked and curtains closed in my room then died. How my own brother told me ‘just accept it that you’re fat and stay that way’. But I did not. I don’t know what kept me going, I just knew I want this. It all went super slow, I wasn’t as committed as most of you wonderful people, but I did made changes slowly. I was so terrified when I first joined a gym, then super happyly after 2 month of 4-5 sessions per week I wanted to show off my baby muscles to my dad…and all his reply was ‘fuck this is only fat, stop kidding yourself’. Thank you supportive family. But I kept going, no matter what and here I am today, halfway at my planned journey. Now when I see people I haven’t seen in a while, they all tell me shocked ‘wow, are you eating? You have lost lots of weight!’. Yes, I’m eating more than enough, but trying to make healthy choices. Yes, that includes a jar of nutella by the spoon every now and then, lol. And what’s really frustrating is that they think I don’t eat, it has been only since I moved away from home. NO. IT HAS NOT. I’ve more work in this than they can ever imagine even if they chose to ignore that. It’s really not genetics or whatever…it’s just YOU. Only YOU. You want to do it or no? I know it is hard but if this is what you want then you can 100% succeed.

But please don’t think your weight is the problem. Don’t think that all your problems will magically be solved once you lose that weight. YOU ARE ALREADY WONDERFUL. For me it is really difficult to socialize with people and make conversations. I thought it’s just because I’m fat and shy, and yes it was probably the reason I was shy, but losing the weight did not make it easier to talk. I have gained tons of self confidence yeah…but in one way everything changed, yet nothing. It’s still so difficult for me to talk to people. Making your brain understand that you have always been good enough, that’s the difficult part. Not waking up early to go for a run or a workout before work. Not trying to set up a meal plan for the week (though that’s a bitch as well). No, the most difficult thing is to see how wonderful you are, no matter what you think. You are always worth it. 

Also, I’m sorry I just appear sometimes then disappear for weeks. I have a crazy work schedule with 75+ hours each week (plus no internet at home). But each time I open tumblr just to check up on you, you always give me the biggest rush of motivation. Wonderful people like @nomoreexcusesforjules, @polvodstars, @thehealthierhappierheatherier, @queenbliss, @mybigfatfitlife (I know we don’t know each other but you are my biggest inspiration ever Harmony, along with @fatmaninalittlesuit, who’ll now probably thing I’m a creep just to tag him like that, without ever talking to him…but you rock guys:)). @am-songs I miss your gorgeous face, just like @fireflowerposts. @i-go-bananacrazy, @lifeis2short2bestupid, you ladies, are the best. Thank you for being my wonderful supportive family <3

Kata, you are so freakin awesome, hard worker, intelligent, beautiful, kind... *insert all cool adjectives here* !!!!!! So proud of you!!! Lots of hugs for you, my beautiful hungarian friend!!!! And so much happiness and success in your life, you deserve everything to be the happiest girl in the world! :)

On Saturday I went to my mum’s house as usual and my 7 year old nephew read an article over someone’s shoulder and asked what it means about people dying in France. After it was explained to him he was confused. My sister tried explaining it in a different way and he said “no it’s not that… It’s just, I didn’t know bombs were REAL”.

We’re so blessed to be in a part of the world where it’s possible for a child to have these beliefs.

A lot of these refugees you’re hating on, they’re not coming over here to bring their war to your doorstep, to cause you harm, to force religion on you, to change anything in your country.. They’re coming because they wish their children could have the same belief that bombs are fictional…

tell the world that she belongs to no man. that she is a lady, a warrior, a tsunami, and she belongs only to herself. (insp.) 

Right, well this has already had more attention than I was expecting, so instead of leaving you all in the dark until I get home tomorrow I’m going to share with you what I am planning for the challenge and your task for day 1.

This challenge was initially just going to be a little list for me to keep on top of my health, fitness, studying and mental health up until the end of this year.

I have written out a small list of tasks, one for each day.

Each task can be done your own way and if you want to do it a bit different and adjust to your own goals please do.

Please feel free to message me as well if you have any questions!!

Day 1, Monday 16th November.

What are your goals?

This probably sounds a cliché first task, but it is important to work out what you’re wanting to achieve in the next 46 days, or longer term if you wish.

Want to gain 10lbs? Want to ace your exams? Improve your self image? Want to just make it to Christmas break? Right a post, share some goals, let us know what you want to gain from this.

If you want, as well, tag me in your posts with #46daychallenge and #queenfatigue. I’ll do my best to check you all out.

Soooo the gorgeous @queenfatigue is hosting a challenge and I decided to join. :) 

Day 1, Monday 16th November.

What are your goals?

My goals are relatively simple. 

1. I want to eat better

I’ve been struggling a bit with nutrition lately. Namely, I want to have fruit and veg EVERY day and try to keep the sugar down. You BET I’ll still enjoy the Christmas markets ;) 

2. I want to keep up exercise

Even though it gets dark earlier in the day and it gets colder, I still want to go to circuit training three times a week AND, more importantly, I want to run. Let’s say I want to make sure I still run at least once a week. :)

3. I want to take care of myself

In these stressful times, I sometimes struggle to make time for myself other than exercise. So this bullet point is for mental health. This can be yoga or meditation and I want to be able to check this on at least 4 days a week. I also want to keep up oil pulling. 

4. Other

I want to give a pair of socks (or two?) away for Christmas, so knitting should be a part of this ;) Maybe if I just say I knit at least ten minutes a day that’ll help? ALso I want to make one of those pictures for each day… in this case it’s the wool that will be a pair of socks soon :) 

So yeah… this is it :) 

It’s crazy…you think about some things and you’re like, “I’d never be able to get through that. I’d never be able to endure…” but you do. You get through it. You get up every morning and continue to put one foot in front of the other even when everything seems to be going against you. You never know the strength you have until you’re confronted face-to-face with your biggest fears. You think you can’t do it, but you can. You really can. You will. You face it. You endure.

Evil looks for opportunities to do evil. Good looks for opportunities to do good.

The best way to honor the fallen of violent tragedies is to do good today for no other reason than it’s the right thing to do for humanity.

Look for opportunities to do good today.

👆🏻👆🏻👆🏻👆🏻👆🏻 THIS

pray for paris but pls don’t forget to pray for the innocent muslims who will no doubt be subjected to the ignorance and violence of people who will blame these attacks on islam and it’s followers because of western media propaganda

I’m sorry for the gunshots, the bullets, the pain. I’m sorry for the blood that won’t wash out with the rain. I’m sorry for the bombs, the explosions, the tears. I’m sorry for those that take pride in our fears. I’m sorry to the world we keep scarring with our hate, I’m sorry for those who think it’s too late. I’m sorry for the chaos, the confusion, the madness. I’m sorry for the mornings stained with fresh sadness. I’m sorry for the terror, the darkness, the night. I’m thankful for all those, who still chase the light. #tylerknott #paris

I’m so mad because this worked

help me roger

Reblogging myself because

Originally posted by gifs-for-the-masses

Reblogging myself because… what was that? Five minutes?

O_O

………my friend has made me curious

pls pls pls pls pls pls

Daryl Dixon in every episode | Still - 4.12

Christmas Workout Playlist

OK GUYS! Code red! Christmas red, that is! :D 

Here’s a link to a playlist I just created (on Spotify). I want you all to feel free to add whatever you feel is a fun, upbeat and catchy christmas song that can be used for working out! Subscribe & add your own favorites to the list! :D 

Also; Reblog! The more the merrier! :D

When I was training to be a battered women’s advocate, my supervisor said something that really blew my mind:

“You can always assume one thing about your clients; and that is that they are doing their best. Always assume everyone is doing their best. And if they’re having a day where their best just isn’t that great, or their best doesn’t look like your best, you have to be okay with that.”

Any now whenever anyone in my life, either a friend or a client, frustrates me, disappoints me, or pisses me off, I just tell myself They are doing their best. Their best isn’t that great today, but I have days where my best isn’t that great either. 

The power of Old Spice Wolfthorn!

Just let me die

I hate life

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