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A therapist told one of my friends that his depression was synonymous with teenage angst that he should just learn how to deal with it because everybody else his age does I am seething because he pays to hear this bullshit pays to hear that he is too weak to conceal it that he doesn’t know how to ‘cope’ like the rest of us pays to be told that his problems are too small too typical to be important. How are we going to learn how to tackle mental illness when even our doctors are telling us that we should learn how to grow thicker skin don’t you know that the demons are already inside our head, thicker skin just means getting better at keeping them in, at hiding them, at letting them grow without us being an inconvenience to the rest of the world’s minds which are at ease. How do we deal with it when we our literally placing our lives on the line you are asking us to take a leap to follow up on that risk of plunging head first into maybe recovery and maybe suicide this isn’t learning how to ride a bike there is no push and hope you stay steady it’s more like taking steps down a tightrope every step is an invitation to death– My best friend is rotting from the inside out her body is a cemetery, dreams buried underneath layers of anxiety, happiness clouded over by medication and therapy I don’t know if she’ll make it out alive and that is so scary to admit because I was there when she told me that she loved her life and I was there when she told me she wanted to die and she was the same person except there was depression in her mind and the doctors tell her that she’s got to get over it. I have never seen death so up close its name sounds all too familiar in my mouth its faces are all too friendly I walk among people who have already gone because as far as they’ve been told the only cure to their miseries exists in getting over an imaginary illness they’ve been erased from clipboards turned into numbers first as patients then as a death count and the doctors just keep on saying that they have to deal with it deal with it and carry their own lives to the graves.

i’m no therapist but at least I know more than to tell them to get over it /// inktrails (via thesocietyofpoets)