Je réfléchis à voix haute

Ça va? I forget that anyone knows I exist. Sometimes you remind me friend.

Not just any man can look good with a mustache. In fact, most men look awful. However, there seems to be a golden ratio of traits such as athletic or masculine or properly dressed that often accompany the overall demeanour of a successful mustache bearer.

It's been a long while.🤍

Remember when I said I had that crush on the mail man? We finally spoke with y'know, real words. He's married with 3 children, 2 dogs, and a parakeet. He loves tacos, classic rock, and the occasional outdoor camping trip.

It is hilarious that I find him attractive. I saw him in public not in uniform. His hair is quite long for a man. His voice is calm and soothing. He seems like a good guy and it makes me happy that he loves his family.

I've been working at a bar in a ritzy part of the city. At this point I suppose it's fair to say I have 3 jobs. Anyway because I need the money, I force myself to smile and flirt with men that look at me like I'm made of glass. There are typical stereotypes and not so typical. But what I've learned by turning up the sexy, is that nobody is paying attention.

I don't drink alcohol. When a guy offers me a shot (owner expects us to mingle/drink/flirt) I fill mine with water and say it's vodka. Not a single man has noticed. I also watch how often girls leave their drinks unattended. When they return to a napkin placed over their beverage they look at me puzzled, then it clicks.