This 👏🏻 ⚡️🎉🌈 me too.
“You know you have a good connection with someone if something they noticed about you makes you learn something new about yourself, like yes pay attention to me and educate me about myself”
- 3am overthinker
“Sometimes it feels like I am trapped in my own life. I just need to see new places, meet new people and experience new things.”
- 3am overthinker
I don’t want to lead you on, I really don’t. Although I feel as if that’s what I’m doing.
Hear me out, please.
There are things about me that you don’t know. There are thoughts, needs, cravings, curiosities and wonderings that you could never satisfy in me. Is that your fault? No, not at all, it’s no one’s. I’m smart, intelligent and aware. And you know that. I care about school, degree and intellect. You don’t. Does it bother my parents? No, it doesn’t, but somehow, it bothers me. Which is such a hypocrite thing to say, because no such thing as a dumb person, but we are different. Like, two different flowers, blooming at their own time.
You are amazingly kind, sweet, handsome, manly and cute. If there was one person that deserves the best, it’s you. But I’m not made for you, I don’t crave the hard hands of a man. I long for subtle glances, soft hands, long hair and lovely curves. They make my pulse race a little faster. My heart veins reach for different things than yours. I do like you, appreciate you, and respect you. And I don’t want to pretend to you, me or my friends. I don’t want to hurt your feelings, because you don’t deserve that. But otherwise you’ll notice me slipping away, which is also not what you deserve.
You deserve better, I deserve better, different. For now, let’s just see how this plays out. But there are things I’ll never satisfy in you, and you won’t satisfy in me. I’m still curious and careful. And I trust you. For now, I’ll leave it at this. <3
Excited.
Nervous.
Curious.
All the small things, make the bigger picture. A sum of small things, you and I.
We are not just one thing.
We're everything we want to be. Together, we're unstoppable.
Just run away with me. And if you won't, I'll gladly do it alone.
Will you want me at my best and worst?
Are you the one who'll be there for me?
Could we be infinite together?
Will you stop me from overthinking?
Would you shut me up by kissing me?
Assure me everything will be ok, as long as we're togerher?
Are you the one who'll make me happy?
Will you be the gentleman I always wanted to have?
Not only a gentleman, but passionate, risky, tough, caring and loving at all times?
Can I laugh so loud with you that my eyes will tear up?
Can I trust you to be the one I crave for?
Will you pick me up when I fall, will you let me catch you too?
Will you let my fingers trace every inch of your skin without mercy?
Will we figure it out together?
Will you figure me out, when I don't even know myself yet?
So many questions, so little answers.
You are unexpected.
Someone, I didn't see coming.
Like a woosh of fresh air that cleared my view.
I don't know who you are.
All I know, is that I like you more than I planned.
Will we work out?
I'm curious, intrigued, nervous and excited all at once.
To be continued...
All she wanted, was to be understood.
And I just wanted to feel something, anything.
Her mind as the key to everywhere.
She didn't want to care, but she did anyway.
She did it shamelessly, without a single shred of doubt.
She is not just one thing. She is everything. Everything I ever wanted to have.
The way her hair flows in the wind.
The way her lips move on mine. The way I crave her with the tips of my fingers.
The way her breathing speeds up as I kiss the spots on her neck. And the way her breathing steadies once again as we lay there, exhausted but fulfilled.
I think she was a butterfly in her past life. Free. Elegant. Beautiful.
I know how her eyes lit up when she speaks passionately.
I know every single inch of her body.
The things I need to do to make her flinch. To make her mine.
My heart is attached to hers. Our souls unite together.
We will be happy, together. I know we will. I'll try my best for us. For you always. My butterfly.
I used to crave you. Followed your touch everywhere.
Now we're here. Ashes burnt to the ground.
You did this. Not me.
I am not scared to take accountability.
I loved you. More than anything.
And I deserve better than the red flags you gave me.
I hope you'll be happy without me. And I hope I will get my so called Happy Ending as well.
Her mind.
Endless.
Bold.
Infinite.
Her soul is a forest fire. Burning to be noticed. And I am not scared to conquer my fears, I will gladly burn to the ground if it means I get to be with you.
Whenever I am with you, I feel complete. As if you are the so called puzzle piece or soulmate I have been missing. Our friendship mean the world to me. I think your eyes shine brighter than any of the falling stars we have seen that night. Your soul is magnificent.
How I felt after reading the last chapter of If I lose myself
I need chapter 17 like omg