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@phanbliss / phanbliss.tumblr.com

Monika | she/her. I'm from Poland and I write fics. Ablissa on AO3.

Anonymous asked:

I hope it isnt totally inappropriate to ask, but is there any possibility you would consider orphaning rather than deleting your phanfic? No pressure at all, it's your fic to do what you think is best with, but I know the fics have brought a lot of joy to a lot of people and so just wanted to get in touch to ask if that might be an option

aww, anon, if you know of this that means you know me... you can just reach out and message me!

but yes, i have been thinking about deleting my fics. a few days have passed and i still want to. im still thinking about it and will give people some heads up if i choose to go through with it.

ill definitely consider your request. thank you friend <3

#my fic #hi #this blog is dead #but i randomly checked it and saw this ask #hi friend #hope everyone is well :)

IT’S HAPPENING!

The 34 hours Charity Livestream for Phil’s Birthday is starting in 20 minutes!

Grab a snack, have a little pee and join us for 34 hours of madness and fun.

Reminder to donate if you can to be able to win some amazing prizes like:

fanworks
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copies of Dan’s book
and more!

What are you waiting for? Join us, The room is already open here: https://caracal.club/PhandomWatch 🤴🐦🎂

The livestream is about to start!

Do you have your snacks? Are you ready to have fun?

Are you good? Good good good that you are good!

The livestream will start in 15 minutes and the room is already open at https://caracal.club/PhandomWatch

Remember that we have physical prizes and fanwork prizes, and we’ll also match some of the donations made to a BLM organization of your choice, to support not only Mermaid UK but also the BLM movement!

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#happybirthdaydan #daniel howell #dan howell #danisnotonfire #phan #phandomwatch

🌈 Dan turns 29 on June 11th!! We are teaming up with @phandomgives to bring you a special 29 hour charity livestream to support the drive raising money for Mermaids UK! 🌈

Be sure to save the date for June 6th, and join us starting at 1 PM UTC for a fun-filled 29 hours with videos, prizes, chats, and more!!

We hope to see you at the gayest charity livestream on June 6th! 🌈🖤

🌈🖤Don’t forget the livestream is happening TODAY, starting at 1 PM UTC! 🖤🌈

Tune in for fun videos and prizes!! We have:

-50+ fanwork commissions of all types

-2 DAPSHOP Gift Cards

-2 HTCTE Bracelets

-1 pair of Hidden Fox Socks

-2 pairs of DAP Pixel Stickers

In addition to this, while we are still raising money for Mermaids UK we want to acknowledge the global Black Lives Matter movement and provide a series of donation matching throughout the stream, where a certain amount donated to Dan’s birthday drive will be matched with a donation to Black Lives Matter charities.

We hope to see you there!! Stay tuned for 1 PM UTC!

#happybirthdaydan #dan howell #daniel howell #danisnotonfire #phan #phandomwatch #signal boost

#blacklivesmatter

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All proceeds are going to various organizations within the blm movement

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#blacklivesmatter

#BlackLivesMatter - Petitions to sign.

14-year-old Joāo Pedro was killed by the Rio de Janeiro police. Joāo was shot at his home and his body was taken by the Rio de Janeiro police. His family waited 17 hours until receiving news of his whereabouts. They finally found his dead body at a medical examiner’s office. The family counted 72 bullet marks on the walls of the house.

George Floyd was murdered by a Minneapolis police officer.

George was handcuffed and restrained and being completely cooperative when this all went down. The officer put his knee on George’s neck choking him for minutes on minutes while George screamed that he could not breathe.

Bystanders beg for the police officer to take his knee off George’s neck, but the officer didn’t listen and continued to choke him.

Petition for the punishment of Minneapolis police officers after the assassination of George Floyd.

Julius Jones has only 122 days before being executed for a crime he DIDN’T COMMIT. Julius has lived on death row for almost 20 years, and is held in solitary confinement for 23 hours a day. He is allowed one hour of sunlight a day, and three showers a week. Every minute we wait to take action, Julius is suffering. Every second that goes by brings Julius closer to being executed for a crime he didn’t commit.

Tony McDade was a transgender black man who got killed by police in Tallahassee. No one is talking about it.

A 12-year-old girl has drowned in the River Irwell in Greater Manchester.

Greater Manchester Police said it was treating what happened as a “tragic incident” and did not believe there were any suspicious circumstances.

Ahmaud Arbery was chased and gunned down by Travis McMichael, son of retired Brunswick investigator Greg McMichael, under the father’s and son’s pretenses of witnessing a burglary in Satilla Shores of Glynn County.

Jennifer Jeffley was 15 years old when she was arrested for the murder of Maria Palomina. A murder that she did not commit. Innocent of the crime that she was convicted of, Jennifer has been behind bars more than 20 years serving a life sentence.

Regis Korchinski-Paquet was murdered by Toronto Police. A call was made for a domestic incident and Toronto police officers were present on the 24th floor in a High Park apartment building to “observe” 29-year old, Regis. Shortly after, she allegedly fell off the balcony.

Sean was a victim of police brutality. He was running from the police and was on Facebook live. The police officer tased him while he was going down and then shot the man 14 times in the back.

On October 4th 2016 Amiya was stepping off of her school bus and was hit and killed by a car.

11 months later my family and I met with the District Attorney John Weddle and Sadie Gardener. Neither of them took the case seriously and it showed because shortly after that my family was informed that Karen Carpenter would not be charged.

On June 7th, 2019, Emerald Black a pregnant, black woman, and her fiance were pulled over by police officers after coming from a doctors appointment.

The officers spoke to Ms. Black’s fiance while she stayed in the car.

The officers began to order her out of the car. Ms. Black was clearly pregnant and she had let them know that she had just gotten back from a doctors appointment where she was also informed that she was at a high risk for a miscarriage. Despite this, the officers yanked Ms. Black, still in her hospital clothes, and threw her to the ground. They taunted her, piled on top of her, and stomped on her stomach causing her to miscarry. The stomp had also left a shoe mark.

Chrystul Kizer is an incarcerated trafficking survivor who is being charged with life in prison for acting in self-defense against her trafficker.

The punishment that Chrystul is facing for defending her own life signals that black women and girls have no selves to defend.

Tamir was only 12-years-old when he was shot and killed last year by a Cleveland police officer as he played in a park with a toy gun. Timothy Loehmann, an officer in training, shot and killed Tamir within two seconds of arriving at the park. The police car hadn’t even fully stopped before he began shooting.

Siyanda was racially abused and beaten by a group of people. After defending herself - instead of being protected by the justice system - she was sentenced to 4 ½ years of prision.

One month ago, a division of the Louisville Police Department. performed an illegal, unannounced drug raid on Breonna’s home. Not a single officer announced themselves before ramming down her door and firing 22 shots, shooting Breonna 8 times, killing her.

Alejandro is a innocent 15 year old, African American who got shot 7 times while walking to Boone High School, in December of 2018. NO ARREST HAVE BEEN MADE!!!

We need legislation now that prohibits police officers from shooting unarmed citizens!!!

#blacklivesmatter

dear friends, did you know that our beloved @insectbah has recently had their birthday? 🎂

Ev is such a huge part of this community! so many of your favourite fics have been beta’d by Ev, and as someone that has benefitted from their amazing beta-reading skills many many times, i can promise you that there is no greater way to improve a wonderful story than to give it to a wonderful, wonderful editor.

Ev works tirelessly on all the fics they beta, and thanks to their help, many stories see the light of day and are loved by us all. i know that without Ev, i likely wouldn’t have posted anything in much longer than i have, and they gave me so much more confidence in my writing.

they are so kind and so supportive to so many of us here. they’re also literally one of the sweetest people i’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. i count Ev among my closest friends and honestly, the amount of times i’ve been grateful for that day when they reached out to me to help me beta a fic is too high to count. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, EV! THANK YOU FOR EXISTING 🎈🎉🎂

please reach out to them and show them some love on this special day, they deserve it so much. <3

#happy birthday my dear friend #thank you <3 #insectbah

Our 33-hour charity stream in celebration of @amazingphil‘s birthday has come to an end!

Thank you so much to everyone who attended, donated, participated in the raffles and trivia, chatted, and laughed (or cried) with us during these super fun 33 hours. 💛

Thank you to all the volunteers who helped make this happen, and thank you to all the Phandom creators that donated their works for us to give away during the stream! 💜

All of us had a great time and the best part is that we have helped @phandomgives with their fundraising efforts! 💙

Together, during the course of the stream, we have raised over £1200!!!!

The fundraiser is now at over £2570, just £630 from the goal! Please keep donating and let’s give Phil the most AmazingPresent 😎 - let’s help DKMS!

🌟DONATE HERE: https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/pg-phil33🌟

Follow us to find out when we will be doing the next watch party - we host them every two weeks! 🥰

#thanks so much everyone #it felt good to be back too #maybe ill post here more again

We are still going strong! ✨

Come enjoy a lot more hours of Phil, DAPG video, Nostalgia Moments and lots of fun, fandom chatting and giveaways!

Join us here: https://caracal.club/phandomwatch

And remember you can donate here: http://bit.ly/PGPhil33

We are live!!

Come join us for 33 hours of Phil - alright, and Dan

We are on hour 5! We have lots of Phil videos to watch, games to play and prizes to give! We are going to have a raffle giveaway soon, come and join us for the chance to win!

Join us and remember to donate if you can at Phandom Gives

We are £84 away from our next donation goal of £2000! AMAZING!!!

Once we hit the goal, we will do a huge giveaway in the stream for, among others, a D&P PIXEL BACKPACK 🥰

Join us to not miss the chance to win: https://caracal.club/phandomwatch

Donate here: http://bit.ly/PGPhil33

🌌 Phil's 33rd birthday is coming up! And we are teaming up with @phandomgives to bring you a 33 hour long marathon of Phil fun! (And maybe that guy who hangs out with him all the time too) 🌌

Join us on Saturday, January 25th at 4 pm UTC to watch videos, chat, and win some awesome prizes!!

Save the date, and we hope to see you there! 🚀☄👾👨‍🚀

Our charity stream for Phil's birthday begins in less than 4 hours! 🥳

🌟The link to the stream is: https://caracal.club/PhandomWatch :)

✨We have 33 hours of videos, prizes to be won, trivia and quizzes, and a lot more planned - all of this to help @phandomgives with their fundraising for DKMS!

Join us and pass this on so we can meet our goal🥰

🌌 Phil's 33rd birthday is coming up! And we are teaming up with @phandomgives to bring you a 33 hour long marathon of Phil fun! (And maybe that guy who hangs out with him all the time too) 🌌

Join us on Saturday, January 25th at 4 pm UTC to watch videos, chat, and win some awesome prizes!!

Save the date, and we hope to see you there! 🚀☄👾👨‍🚀

Are you ready to watch 33 hours of AMAZING(phil) videos? Not just that, his #1 stalker will be featured too! 🥰

We've got loads of prizes waiting for you & all your donations go to charity.

What are you waiting for? REBLOG this to let others know & let's have a fantastic time! 🎉🎈

OUR 33-HOUR AMAZINGPHIL CHARITY STREAM BEGINS ✨ TOMORROW ✨!!!!

Join us to watch 33 hours of Phil. Let’s celebrate his birthday and give him the best gift possible - donations to charity!

We will release the link to the stream a bit later on, so watch this space and get ready for a day and a half of fun with Phil! 🥰

#phan #signal boost #tomorrow!!!

Join us on the 25th at 4pm utc!

Have you seen all these awesome prizes that are waiting for you this Saturday, January 25th at 4 PM UTC onwards? 😊

Join us for 33 hours of fun and help us help charity! You don’t have to donate to win most of the prizes, just show up!!

Pass this on - it really helps us! 💛💛

#join us please :)#phan

🌌 Phil's 33rd birthday is coming up! And we are teaming up with @phandomgives to bring you a 33 hour long marathon of Phil fun! (And maybe that guy who hangs out with him all the time too) 🌌

Join us on Saturday, January 25th at 4 pm UTC to watch videos, chat, and win some awesome prizes!!

Save the date, and we hope to see you there! 🚀☄👾👨‍🚀

Are you ready to watch 33 hours of AMAZING(phil) videos? Not just that, his #1 stalker will be featured too! 🥰

We've got loads of prizes waiting for you & all your donations go to charity.

What are you waiting for? REBLOG this to let others know & let's have a fantastic time! 🎉🎈

#phan #give this a boost my friends #lets help charity

🌌 Phil's 33rd birthday is coming up! And we are teaming up with @phandomgives to bring you a 33 hour long marathon of Phil fun! (And maybe that guy who hangs out with him all the time too) 🌌

Join us on Saturday, January 25th at 4 pm UTC to watch videos, chat, and win some awesome prizes!!

Save the date, and we hope to see you there! 🚀☄👾👨‍🚀

#signal boost #phan

“i really need someone to comfort me”, i say as i continue to isolate myself and push away all my friends

#basically me #not phan

thelesterhowells

Today is @phanbliss’s birthday!! Please send Monika all the nice things at @phanbliss on tumblr and Ablissa on ao3 and ko-fi.

I wish I could gift something I made, but all I have are words:

Being her beta has been so special to me and absolutely changed my phandom experience. It’s hard to believe it’s been over a year now and I’m so lucky that I found such a wonderful friend. I used to be even more unsure and anxious about how I gave feedback, but she had the patience to reassure me whenever I needed it. Without her I’d still be the weirdo who just offered to beta for strangers –– now I’m the weirdo who still beta’s as much as I can and usually doesn’t offer to work with strangers. Your presence in phandom is important no matter how active you can be online.

Monika is a huge part of the phandom for me, present tense, no question. I mean maybe part of that is that I still bug her to talk to me periodically, but the fics are always there for rereading, and I recommend it highly! (She’s also a great cheerleader to combat fic-related anxieties and life ones, and she translated lines into Polish for me too.) She deserves a great birthday and a lot of love.

thelesterhowells

Monika is without a question one of the nicest and most supportive people I’ve met through the phandom. Being her cheerleader and screaming about her fics was always a great joy. So, like Ev said please go and send her nice things and love. She deserves all of it.

im in tears, thank you so much 💜

ive been inactive here because of my mental health but im lucky to have met some wonderful people and for that i will always be grateful :’)

thank you for remembering and making my day, i love you ❤

#not phan #personal

ahhhthefeels asked:

Happy Birthday!! 🥳🧁🎉

thank you!!

Anonymous asked:

I wish you the happiest of birthdays, fellow Sag, we miss you lots xxx

thank you, i miss you too :( 💜