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@percocat

yung scorpio existing in delco.
borderline personality disorder. depression. bulimia. anxiety. addiction. self harm.
in a constant war with my own thoughts.
bandos, opiates & tattoos make me happy.
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xxxyelsa
Nothing is ever going to compare to the feeling opiates give you. Trust me. I’ve tried everything. Uppers, downers, alcohol, so much fucking alcohol. But to not feel anything, mentally or physically, and I mean to be completely numb, that’s something you’re only ever going to get from opiates. And to be honest, I miss being a full blown junkie. I loved it. Almost more than life, maybe that’s why it took over so much. But fuck I miss it. I never felt a god damn thing. And you just can’t compete with that.

It's really upsetting to me that I don't even feel it anymore when I cut myself it's like second nature at this point

I'm friends on Facebook with this girl who always be posting pics of her pinned eyes & talking bout how much weight she's lost since she's been on it & on god that shit makes me so fucking mad. THERE IS NOTHING COOL ABOUT THROWING YOUR LIFE DOWN THE GUTTER.

Nothing is as close as my teeth are to my tongue and even they bite. If the sun shines all the time, it’ll make a dessert. I’m mostly alone, because it’s better than bad company. I try to make sure that I always stand up more than I fall. I’ve always been the jealous type, but deep inside I’ve always known that jealousy is nothing more than fear of abandonment. I try to keep my mind open to everything, but at the same time attached to nothing. I look at life as a ladder and for each step we take, the view gets better. I’ve learned that pain and happiness is temporary, so after every sunshine I’m preparing myself for the rain. I know that there is people in this world who always have it worse, so I’m thankful that I at least have it better and even if it rains, we all get rained on together. I try to do my best to live simply, so others can simply live

Lifehitsharder.tumblr.com (via lifehitsharder)

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222d
“Wait-” I hesitated before continuing. “I don’t think you know” your eyes stared at mine full of curiousity as I slowly began to speak. “I don’t think you know how much you mean to me and how much I love you. Imagine this: my mind is like the sky, it’s filled with clouds and it’s raining most of the time. Everything changed when the sun arrived. The sun eased my mind and filled my entire body with warmth” I carefully took your hand and placed it on my heart. “But most of all, you fill my heart with warmth. You are my sun, and I love you so so much, please don’t ever forget that.”

something that never even happend but I think this is how I would explain it to you if I would ever tell you how much you mean to me (via the-tthoughtofyou)

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thrakaboom

When doctors are like “what are your symptoms” and you’re like “dude I don’t even know I just kinda live like this”

When something bothered me, I didn’t talk with anyone about it. I thought it over all by myself, came to a conclusion, and took action alone. Not that I really felt lonely. I thought that’s just the way things are. Human beings, in the final analysis, have to survive on their own.

Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart  (via wordsnquotes)

The FBI surmise that there may be as many as 30 serial killers who are active in the USA right now. Serial killers are often not the typical movie “psycho” as i is portrayed in horror movies like Halloween, but they are normal people living in our neighbourhoods and communities. One of America’s biggest serial killers, Ted Bundy, is famously quoted as saying “We serial killers are your sons, we are your husbands, we are everywhere… And there will be more of your children dead tomorrow.” Bundy’s quote is an eerie reminder that killers walk among us, and their charming demeanor and normal appearances make it impossible for us to detect the danger until it’s too late.