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that My House doom .wad is like a video game adaption for house of leaves n its hilarious that some guy ran it using brutal doom

"Feeble men should not be tempted with miracles" really up there among patho classic lines that Get Me Every Time. A tragic admission of defeat, of unworthiness. When I played Bachelor's route, I knew the endings upfront and was hesitating throughout between the "destroy everything" ending, utopian and termite (humble wasn't really on the table since all of Daniil's reactions to Clara were to say she's either delusional or lying, so I didn't really see how he'd side with her without it being ooc and out of nowhere), but the final tipping point was the day 10 pantomime. "The law of gravity is incompatible with dreamcatching; illusions have to be let go of in due time." And I was like alright, I see, so this is the story we're telling here, gotcha, noted, will do. I don't remember word for word how the journal entry after curing Artemy's bound and promising to side with him went, something about how the Hippocratic oath obliges us to preserve life, even at the cost of something precious - and the tone of the whole entry was so bitter, and extremely effective at communicating that this wasn't a choice made lightly, even if believed to be right. But that final remark after the actual choice was made hit me so hard. "Let the broken cycles resume." "The wisdom of life is superior to that of people." What a complete 180 turn from a character who challenged laws of nature, aligned with a faction whose life's work was quite literally a triumph of mind over matter - all ruined now. In a way, it's a bit of character growth, Dankovsky learns some humility for once, but it's also just so sad to me. Feeble men should not be tempted with miracles; a claim that to dream of utopia was a mistake in the first place. It's a bit of a loss of innocence story in a funny little way, but also the fall from misguided but earnest idealism to jaded cynicism just fucking breaks me. There's a possibility of something else further down the line in there, but at that point it's like, whew, they really took everything from him. Also I'm a sucker for the Romantic (in the literary sense) and I can't help but feel sad for the grand and impossible ideals, for the larger-than-life having to make way for just life, even if I'd also choose termite if it was me in there and I had to choose based on my own ethics. I felt good about that choice but it still hurt.