stay trippin'.

body dysmorphia is a funny thing bc the past few weeks i was deadass convinced i gained weight like crazy but instead lost a whole bit

the very funny thing about this relapse is, that i was trying so hard to get better. i really worked on recovering n getting better n it went really well n then out of nowhere, i lost the control. again.

i was not at my place for the past 3 weeks but switched between my gfs n my parents place.

for some reason, my eating habits got terrible again. like, i've been struggling w my ed for years but like back then not eating was HARD bruh n now,,, i just,,, i literally need to force myself to eat anything these days. i lost all appetite n lost like 10kgs without realizing it.

my mum noticed that i like,,, barely ever eat these days n now she is super worried n i'm so sorry i hate this.

so without realizing it, i lost 10 kgs.

and i just,,, i didn't really realize any difference but i just took pics of my body n i couldnt believe it bc i'm so much smaller than i thought??? Like I'm not small lmao but smaller than before and?? wtf happened??? what??

anyways, if u havent guessed already, i got big fat body dysmorphia lmao and i really don't know what i look like anymore.

everything is thinspo if you're sick enough