so despite the fact that part 2 isn’t done and i wanted to wait until it was, i broke and published some of the much anticipated amy gardner fic today. this first fic is fully done, i’m just working through posting each chapter.
so it’s now fully posted! it’s nearly 100k, and part 2 is in progress, but we’ll get there at some point! huge thank you to anyone who reads it <3 it means a lot to me
#like there are parts that i read and don't love and parts that are repetitive and parts where i'm not sure its totally in character and#parts where i hate my canon divergence (we don't get to see amy at her messiest-- or amy/donna at their messiest since amy and josh didn't#actually date in this) also like huge disclaimer that i should maybe put in the fic but. hopefully people have critical thinking and i'm a#competent writer.... anyways the point is amy is an extremely unreliable narrator#mostly because of her massive self doubt covered by so many fronts about all of her relationships but like also there's a lot that is#either missed entirely or misconstrued because amy doesn't know or is wrong about it. like there's a whole other version of this to be told#from donna's pov that has a very different brand of self worth#and also of growth because something i really don't get too much into here is that like donna is a mess about relationships#hmm two tags ago was supposed to say self worth issues... anyways.#the point of this is to say that there ARE issues in their relationship and one of them is that at this point in it donna's overly#accommodating because she has sort of codependent tendencies meanwhile amy is desperately trying to change all of her patterns at once and#is so scared of ruining this like she does with everything else that she wouldn't voice too many issues or doubts either even though she is#kind of volatile! and this actually kind of freaks donna out because she describes amy as caring enough to fight and amy never fights her#anyway just a little hint of what to come but i didn't want y'all to think i was giving them some picture perfect bullshit#this is also the healthiest i will ever depict amy donna though don't worry i knowwwww they have some good potential for fun fictional#toxicity i just usually lean more into amy/josh toxicity because i find it kinda fun to embrace their mess in whatever form it takes#oh also not to be cunty but someone already commented on it like oh its crazy i like amy here cause i hate her so much in canon and im like#hmm well i dont and i know its supposed to be a compliment but thats saying a) i hate the character you've written over 500 pages about and#b) i think its ooc from the source content and im sorry but neither of those are things you need to tell me#its a sweet sentiment but#no thank you <3
