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The Heart of Gold

@pajrc1234

she/they, 20, hyperromantic lesbian, math and physics nerd, autism, adhd. It is an extraordinary coincidence that you and I meet at this exact moment. We will be restoring normality just as soon as we are sure what is normal anyway.

i suppose i should actually introduce myself! the post i made when i first rejoined gave sort of an exigence but i didn’t actually think to talk about myself

  • my name is Eris, she/they, 19. i am a trans lesbian.
  • i am a math and science kind of person! i'm a sophomore at my college and i'm majoring in physics and minoring in math. i am the sort of person who watches math videos in her downtime.
  • i have adhd! i don't articulate that very often but yeah it should be mentioned that my experiences are definitely at least close enough to adhd to say that i have it. sometimes, it is a bitch! though sometimes it's all right i guess
  • i play a lot of video games! i have a variety of games that (probably due to the adhd) move between "i will do this regardless of the need to sleep" and "i will do this when i'm bored" and "i can't even stand to open this game" every few weeks. right now i'm playing a lot of Kingdom of Loathing and Brawlhalla.
  • i also read a lot of books, specifically fantasy. here are the books i've read since this summer (when i started getting back into reading for fun):
  • The Grishaverse books--S&B trilogy, SOC duology, KOS duology
  • A Darker Shade of Magic trilogy
  • Currently reading The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy series (on book 4 right now)
  • some series i enjoy:
  • She-Ra and the Princesses of Power--guess who's my favorite character lol
  • Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts
  • The Dragon Prince
  • The Good Place
  • Bob's Burgers
  • Shadow and Bone (cannot wait for the next season!!!)
  • The Umbrella Academy
  • some kinds of music i listen to:
  • some classic rock: Queen, Styx, a few others
  • showtunes: mostly just Heathers and Wicked, but now that i look at it i'm gonna add some others i like later
  • girl in red
  • MARINA
  • Waterflame--artist that makes music that's in the genre of video game music, but not all necessarily for video games
  • actual video game music. Specifically the Kirby's Epic Yarn OST
  • i love cute animals so much you can send me pictures of your pets. i have 2 dogs of my own and they're just the sweetest (well sometimes they're jerks but they're cute)
  • if you want to chat with me my dm's are open! or just submit an ask. i do not bite. at least, i don't think. more testing needed to minimize uncertainty

ok I DO have ONE hot tip.

So. You're like me. You have ideas and you want to see characters move around in sync with some audio. But also you need to cut as many corners as possible. BUT ALSO you really want it to feel good to watch to justify the effort.

My tip is this: use tweens but as few as humanly possible.

To explain: so we got these key poses we wanna use while somebody says something

That's 3 drawings!

If you draw out a whole scene at this rate, you'll get the point across! This totally works! You can have all kinds of cool poses and expressions and it will still be an unreasonably large number of drawings, and an impressive feat to finish!

BUT since we're already here....why not trick everyone into thinking it's "smooth" by making THEIR brain do HALF the work, at LEAST.

^ That right there is only 3 additional drawings!

Tween Type 1: bridging the gap

so the difference between these 2 frames is huge, and as a consequence playing one right after the other feels choppy.

Now I haven't explained the second kind of tween yet, but the way we decide between them is by asking ourselves, "how controlled is this movement, and where is it fastest?"

This guy is unfolding their arms and then placing a hand on their hip. This is a more controlled motion, because the limb stays close to the body at all times, where there's not much room to swing around.

Also, if you do this in real life to test it, the two slowest parts are separating your arms at the beginning, and then resting your arm on your hip. Between those two parts, it's mostly just your arm swinging into place relatively fast.

The fastest part will be easier for your brain to fill in for us, so the tweens are only added to the slow parts.

The arm starting to unfold, and the arm slowing down to rest on the hip.

The second screenshot, depicting the "end" of the movement, is overlaid onto the NEXT frame rather than the previous, because it will need to look very close to that for your brain to process the new pose properly.

These 2 new drawings have created just enough of a bridge for your brain to register it as a movement rather than two separate images.

Tween Type 2: overshooting

This kind of tween is used for faster, less controlled movements, or anything that "squishes." Here I use it for the guy bringing his arm up, and his eyebrow moving.

Once again overlaid onto the frame AFTER this tween, so you can see the "overshoot" effect.

Since the arm is out in the open air, it will swing with the momentum it took to raise it, and the guy's musclea will need to squeeze it back into the place they intended to hold it at. So it moves past the final resting pose (overshoots it), because it is too fast to slow down before it.

Overshoot is kind of the opposite of bridging the gap. Where bridging the gap shows you something starting to move, and then slowing down; overshoot shows you something winding up (omitted for this chill guy, but it's a frame "pulling back" on the pre-movement pose where the frame I did add is "pushing" on the post-movement pose), and then struggling to come to a complete stop.

But just like bridging the gap, you don't have to draw he middle because the movement is fast, so your brain wouldn't have paid attention to it anyways.

So yeah thats how I play tricks on people's minds without REALLY animating! Go nuts!

Since the tweens are onscreen for much shorter times, don't be afraid to let them be messy, so that you can try out a few different variations to see which looks right. I redrew that arm coming to rest on the guys hip 2 or 3 times, and it was originally supposed to be an overshoot, but the bridge ended up looking better!

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i understand that this is the "disabled people know our own limitations" website, but ime, if you are the kind of disabled where everyone around you knows about it and has known you as a weak, incompetent, subhuman creature your entire life: it is important to learn how to make the distinction between "i can't" and "i'm not allowed to."

"i can't hold fragile things without breaking them" vs "my housemates won't let me do dishes anymore."

"i can't manage my own finances" vs "my family won't let me make my own financial decisions"

"i can't ever learn how to drive" vs "the state has decided that people with my disability cannot be allowed to drive."

also "what would need to happen for it to be possible for me to be able to do dishes?" or "what would i need if i were to ever move out?" or "what kinds of supports would i need if i did try volunteering?"

even if the answer to these you come away with is "i actually cannot do the thing, no matter what supports or accommodations i'm given" that's fine! they're still useful questions to ask!

Boy did I ever have to learn the difference between "I often struggle with normative social cues and subtext" and "I am bad at socializing and will embarrass the people I'm with every time I open my mouth"

"i can't socialize" vs "people wont let me speak/advocate for myself/share my opinions"

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when people who want to be vaguely progressive say 'nature' all secular style but it's painfully obvious they mean 'god' while thinking they don't mean god

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"natural behaviour" "the natural body" "nature intended" "nature created" no da fuck it didn't

“Culture tends to argue that it forbids only that which is unnatural. But from a biological perspective, nothing is unnatural. Whatever is possible is by definition also natural. A truly unnatural behaviour, one that goes against the laws of nature, simply cannot exist, so it would need no prohibition.” - Yuval Noah Harari

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Tintin remembers what comes after 15.

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drtanner-sfw

FUCKING HELL IT’S BACK FROM LAST YEAR

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ctoons

This literally gets reblogged every 15th of the month. It’s almost two years old. It’s beautiful.

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ctoons

listen up ya’ll this post is 6 years old now and you’re still reblogging it. every month. once a month, my notifications blow up for this one video, but only until the 16th. then the notes on this vid completely stop. it’s so eerily spot on and impressive how you just all collectively know what to do. if I’m not online, people irl still remind me that it’s the 15th. thank you for six surreal years of me wondering if I completely fucking lost it. here’s to the 15th

Ten years of celebrating the 15th, everyone

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HAPPY 10 YEARS OF THE 15TH, EVERYONE. I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE THIS IS STILL HAPPENING.

Honestly, in my work as a therapist, I’m seeing this A Lot, and tbh I still don’t have a satisfactory approach to it. A heavy dose of Existentialist “create your own Purpose” tempered with “when the plane’s going down, put your own oxygen mask on first”, but… yeah, there is no ethical way to work on individual emotional distress without acknowledging the systemic socioeconomic, geopolitical fuckery going on at the moment, and the sheer grief that comes with it.

I’m a guidance counselor/psychologist for teenagers and it’s getting really hard to motivate young people to work for a future they don’t believe in. 

 They look at ther future and see global warming, wwIII, unemployement, political unstability, poison in everything  they eat, the earth and animals dying all around them. 

I saw this video where someone was asking french teens in the 50s how they imagine the future would be. The war hadn’t been over for long and yet it was all positive with like peace and flying cars and such. Then they went and ask the same questions to nowadays teens and hell that was depressing. Some still had hope, but it was just that “well I hope I’ll have a nice house and maybe some kid” but there was such a hesitancy to it, like they didn’t dare to hope too much. 

People mock Greta Thunberg but what they don’t get is that when she said “you stole my dreams”, it was the truth. 

Young people don’t get to dream like they used to. They don’t dream anymore, they grief all that won’t be anymore and that’s just so fucking sad. 

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The fact that both the tweet and these reblogs are pre-pandemic makes this post even worse

lol i hate today’s era of absolutely zero nuance takes. a friend didn’t behave exactly as you’d wanted them to? cut them off. a guy didn’t text you back instantly bc he has his own life? he’s just giving you breadcrumbs. doing something makes you uncomfortable? don’t do it anymore. someone isn’t instantly available for you? disinterest. just absolutist statements that often don’t apply to the multilayer situations of everyday life. like. stop. literally just stop it

Every time I see companies selling """punk""" jewellery or clothing I become apoplectic with rage. Just saw a £65 padlock necklace advertised to me bitch Fuck you go to your nearest weird little shop that sells everything in the world including fake Rolexes and bongs the size of a toddler. Buy a thing of chain and a padlock. Borrow some bolt cutters someone you know will probably own some and if not get some cheap ones or borrow from a local tool library. Slap em together. Maximum cost £30 and that's MAXIMUM that's assuming you bought over a metre of expensive heavy chain AND bought the bolt cutters. You can do it for under a fiver with a wallet chain and pliers. I still wear a necklace I made when I was 15 out of a wallet chain and pliers and a padlock I got in a set of 3 from poundland. If the issue is dexterity or otherwise disability related then find a friend and swap a favour with them it'll still be cheaper than these scamming poser companies and will help you build community and share resources. Something which is actually punk. Fuckin. Capitalist posers

Important to keep in mind there's a distinction here between 'someone who paints and sells patches in their own small business' (cool, craftsmanship, usually very fairly priced for materials and labour while still affordable for punks who don't have that skillset to buy, honestly not a category far removed from 'if you buy me lunch I can paint your jacket' exchanges) and big companies who charge extortionate prices for something that's supposed to be counterculture, paying staff minimum wage and making huge profits the workers will never see a penny of (cunts)

No one I know has had the same experience as me getting on hrt and honestly it’s a damn shame

me, mentally bracing myself for months, if not years of psychological evaluation: “So I think I might be trans?”

doc: “cool cool cool cool”

doc: “so… do you wanna start estrogen today or…?”

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This is the blessed post of ungatekeeping. Reblog this to never again have to barter with a medical professional regarding treatment of your mental or physical health.

I had similar and actually had to tell my doctor not yet because I wasn’t actually out to everyone by then hahaha

theelovelyyboness

I love this. I’m all for these types of friendships but I think most ppl think anything intimate is too far but friends can do these things too

When I talk about queering friendship this is the type of shit I'm talking about. Just genuine, meaningful gestures and actions of love even within platonic relationships.

When the Harry Potter HBO series comes out, I better not be seeing any of the bullshit justifications that you guys used to justify your Hogwarts Legacy purchases.

"Oh, she won't be making any money from it!" She's the executive producer.

"There's no ethical consumption under capitalism anyway!" That excuse applies when you're talking about things that humans actually need, like food. That excuse does not apply when you're talking about a TV show.

"I have to support the creators!" No you don't. No you fucking don't. If that excuse was true, you'd have to consume every piece of media that was ever created. Besides, Warner Brothers is a billion-dollar corporation. You won't hurt their feelings if you boycott one TV show.

"But it was my childhood!" I don't care. I legitimately do not care.

I don't wanna go through this bullshit again. Just don't fucking watch the series. It's that simple.

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"But the set designers/crew/costuming/etc deserve to be paid" they already have been. By the time the show is ready to be watched, all the people who did the work to bring it to life have already been paid. They don't get extra after it airs. The only people who do are the corporation that owns it and the terf who owns the rights to it and was the executive producer for it.

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you know what. after seeing Another blazed poll about this I'm gonna just

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You are always playing The Game because its rules say you are always playing The Game. A game which you are not playing is therefore by definition not The Game. Similarly, you cannot avoid losing The Game (other than by not thinking about it) because the rules say you lose The Game when you think about it and don't provide any exceptions.

The important thing to recognize here is that even though the statement "You are always playing The Game" is true, "You should care about The Game and do what its rules tell you to do" does not necessarily follow from that. And I think that's interesting!

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did you know? that's not how games work!

you are only beholden to the rules of a game if you're playing it. therefore, the rule "everyone who is aware of The Game is playing The Game" only applies to people who are playing The Game, therefore it ACTUALLY means "everyone who is playing The Game is playing The Game", which is meaningless and not an actual rule

Who says that's how games work

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what would it even mean for this to be false? it's just. so self evidently true, that a game's rules don't apply to you if you're not playing. if there's a game with rules you "have to follow" regardless of if you're playing or not, that's not a game. that's just a standard social construct

I don't think it's self evident. The poll would seem to suggest it isn't for a large portion of the population, but even otherwise, that'd be of little benefit to say to someone unconvinced.

I wouldn't say "The Game" has rules you have to follow, per se, either. There's one goal, and a fail state for not achieving it, but in most formulations there's no punishment in the fail state as there is in say, paying up after a poker hand. But even then, I'd argue there are scenarios commonly understood as games that do punish losses (although this does suck): Punch buggy, the circle game, calling shotgun, etc.

I don't think something could cease to be a game if you had to perform it, either. Chess wouldn't become less of a game once Death says you have to play him or die, imo. It's still chess.

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hhhhhh okay so.

the observation I'm making, the thing I'm calling self-evident, is that it's not possible for a game's rules to apply to people who aren't playing. if you literally were forced to play a game, it would be a game. but someone who isn't being forced to play that game, isn't being forced to play that game. it's a choice for anyone else.

like, if Death tells you to play chess or die, that would mean that you have to follow the rules of chess, but it says nothing about people who, aren't playing chess.

this is why a rule that says "everyone is playing" is meaningless if it's interpreted as an actual rule. rules cannot apply to people who aren't playing, so "everyone" by necessity only includes people who are playing. if you were literally forced to play, it would include you (as you are being forced to play), but if you're not playing a game, its rules cannot apply to you.

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wow looks like you guys are losing the game HARD