I haven’t felt this alone, this unwanted, this uncared for in so long and it’s my fault for letting it get this bad again. Maybe I am better off gone
I’ll never hate anyone as much as I hate myself
i feel so pathetic becuase i actually have a really good life but i’m just so damn sad no matter what
Sometimes I wonder what it feels like to have a will to live. I wonder what it feels like to love yourself, and to be happy with who you are and how you look. I wonder what it’s like to see yourself and know that you’re going somewhere in life, like as if it were something to look forward to. I’d like to know the feeling of waking up in the morning and knowing that you have a purpose for being here. I know we all suffer through pain in life, but what’s it like for the pain to go away without having to numb yourself? I forgot what it was like to be happy.
It’s painful. It’s like drowning in the ocean while waving your hand above the surface. You’re hoping that someone will see it and save you. But no one does and you slowly sink to the bottom full of despair.
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But the truth is that you hate yourself more than anything
It was the last words he said to me (via littlxbuttxrfly)
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I’m just waiting for the day I snap, when I loose control. And suddenly it really is over, because right now I feel like a timer, about to self destruct. Soon i’ll be gone
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