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I’m Not Ready Yet

@overwhelming-neverending-love

Be safe my lovelies 🌷🌻

My absolute world. I never knew I would find someone as perfect as this, and I’m so greatful to be able to have you forever. 😍❤️🌹

my anorexia: no food. nope. just don’t eat. just starve. please just loose some weight.
my orthorexia: okay but just eat some healthy things it’ll be okay you seriously need to consume more calories. if it’s healthy food it’ll be okay.
my depression: fuck it. who fucking cares. it’s not like it matters. eat. just eat whatever the fuck you want.
my brain: what the actual fuck,

“No offense but you look more than 100lbs.” “120 pounds?! That’s how much i weigh and I’m a guy!” “Honey maybe you should have a salad instead.” “Oh you should come workout with me!” “You’re going to lose weight and be healthy? Thats a laugh!” “Oh my gosh your cousin is so thin, shes always been so pretty.” “Hey, what’s your friends number?” “Did you gain weight?” “Are you going to eat all that?” “I don’t think that dress would fit you.” “Wait if you have an eating disorder why aren’t you..thin?” “I would let you borrow it, but i just don’t want it to get stretched out.” “We don’t carry your, sizes here.” “Maybe you could try a sport.” “You look fat.”

To never have to hear these.

oh my god

why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why

“Why am I so obsessed with being ill? Like, that’s what they don’t teach you in therapy They teach you, your disorder is destructive and it will kill you But they don’t tell you why you’re so obsessed with being ill And when you do something for recovery, why you frantically grasp at your illness Trying to hold onto it Trying to think of reasons why you still have it And why it’s so scary to let it go”

— Maybe I’m just crazy

Have any of you had that one friend that eats like 2 crumbs a week and is skinny and beautiful, making you feel horrible and self conscious every time you hang out?