Never let it make you feel this way moni I hope my loves strong enough to make you feel happy of it
from mayakovsky by frank o'hara
from mayakovsky by frank o'hara
I just wish I can say the things I wanna say, you think you can atleast respond to the things I say please?
My life has been perfect so far I started making eye contact with moni and it has exploded my EMOTIONS I nearly feel like I have a crush WHEN SHES MY GIRLFRIEND!!! LIKE THATS HOW IT MAKES ME FEEL AND WHEN WE TEXT I FEEL INTERLINKED LIKE SHES ALL THE WAY OVER THERE AND I GET THIS FEELING LIKE SHES HERE RIGHT BY ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE MY BRAIN JUST MELTED. I LOVE HER SO MUCH
I bought her this Korg pop SHES talked to me about for months it was supposed to keep her happy but I’m a loser so nothing about me is exciting and I bore her. I wish I just gave enough love.
You treat me like a stranger and it feels so rough, now you’re just somebody that I used to know
I do everything right for you, I never leave you in situations I know that would hurt you I ignore this entire reality just to show you that only you exist to me. I wish you could do the same, I love you moni I really do I just hate the fact you exist in other peoples mind. You’re not a terrible person and IM not leaving you, I just hate that guys exist the way they shouldn’t towards you because you’re mine.
I got her this beautiful necklace I can’t wait to see it around her beautiful neck, AHHHH oh moni I love you, I can call you my very own after everything we’ve done together. Will you spend an evening with me, if we go some place will you kiss me when we leave.
I love her, I’ll always be yours moni our feelings are so beautiful it makes my eyes feel like your massaging my eye lids
I love moni so much just being here without her makes me overthink she’s doing something but I still love her. THE SHOP I went too played boys DONT cry reminded me of a moment we both had when I SENT HER A PICTURE OF ME HOLDING MY KNEES I quoted “THIS HOW BOYS DONT CRY GOT ME FEELING”
I’m never gonna stop shaving
Please don’t leave moni i love you
She’s the one🫛
Just realized how badly I wish I could take back everything I wasted my time on I wish I wrote more so that moni could be SUPRISED and make her feel more obsessed with me because of how amazing I am at writing
It’s hard to believe I’m the only guy woke up today feeling like theirs someone else
Sharon Olds, from "Something Is Happening", One Secret Thing: Poems
still no reply from her it drives me insane
“ what was it about me that made you want to leave so badly “
“ you used to be so sweet and one day you just couldn’t stand it “

