watching tv in my sickbed at 6 am and today the murder victim is a latvian anarchist. fun!
liberation opportunity??
hi here is evidence i still exist, hope you are all well
2016, or, the year i stopped listening to music -- looking at this there were definitely single weeks in 2008/9/10/11/12/13 in which i listened to more music than this entire year......oops
people telling me i'm smart all the time seems like a recipe for disaster that will definitely result in me letting them down, but hey, whatever
what the fuck am i supposed to do with this.....especially when i low key wanna be unsupported and ignored......................................................"it hurts my heart"
accidentally turned in big thing for co-op class about how the arts division is Not The Place For Me instead of the appropriate "here's what i learned this month" version of the assignment. as in, i wrote two, with the same name (stupidly!) and then submitted the wrong one for credit. ofc then I got a stressed as fuck email from my co-op advisor about it, and am desperately backtracking to avoid being questioned further about my Feelings. if we're being honest i /feel/ like i have some sort of pathological need to be ignored because apparently all these adults want to solve my disciplinary problems ('apparently' because i don't trust it, they don't want to solve my disciplinary problems) and i'm just pushing them awaaaaaay!
has my mom gotten used to me spouting lefty shit? did my dad vote for ralph nader this year? are my parents gonna listen to the internationale together? i hate the *2016 is a wild weird year* thing but damn.
sitting here thinking about registering for classes like, *need to avg 10 credits per quarter for the next 2 quarters, maybe i should take 16 in winter* which is probably a stupid idea, but -- idk how i'm supposed to make it through the 4hr (evening! thursday! with art majors!) block of "senior seminar in the arts: studio practice & critique" without taking a coupla vaguely interesting things. us/mexico borderlands history? political economy of race & gender? also gearing up to battle the self-design major committee about how i should be able to swap media foundations so that taking MEDA 102 instead of MEDA 101 should not prevent me from graduating. wowee. good thing my Playing Nice with Faculty & Admin skills are Top Notch!
file under times adults worked to convince me to make fiscally irresponsible life decisions