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Time Heals? No Way.

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Cole | 29 | hella depressed, kinda rad, extremely anxious | FL

"Before I die, I want to be somebody's favourite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe."

(Andrea Gibson)

As I lay here in my bed, so close to slumber, I’m falling

Just like when I fell for you all those years ago,

Like dominoes, one after another, fast yet slowly

Like the sand falling in an hourglass, watching the seconds pass

I couldn’t give up the opportunity to be loved by someone as beautiful as you were in that outfit

So elegantly clumsy you were that night, unaware that I was falling

Right into the palms of your sweaty hands

as they reached out for another, I couldn’t bare the thought

Like you’ve been etched into my brain before I even knew you existed

Like when the sun met the Big Bang, everything collided

Right into your heart and later into your bed

Large enough to hold royalty, no wonder you don’t expect less

Is always more when it comes to my love

Flowing out of my mouth, like leaves in the wind

Brushing your hair against my cheek, sending chills down my spine

Found the backbone to explain to you how I really feel

Everything and nothing all at once, except around you

Helping me feel every emotion possible, as if you weren’t real

A figment of my imagination, a blur in my reality

Checks me into place when I see you with them, confused

Unaware of what we once were, I’m given a fist bump

Down the road I hoped to never write our demise

Dead before the idea of us was written in the stars

The constellations I once drew from freckles on your shoulders

The weight of burdens that once laid there because I’m unfit to handle my emotions

Back to feeling nothing again, because you’ve disappeared like a childhood ghost

Afraid to fall asleep, monsters keep me up at night

Time after time, I replay the actions that led me to that day

Trips down memory lane are the only way to fully remember

Falling for you like dominoes, unaware that the fall always comes to an end.

yall ever sleep from 1700-2200 and call it a nap bc

i thought this was about years. but yes