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@ohsweetoblivionsweetrevelation

I am a lesbian thespian going into stage management, as well as getting comfortable with who I am, and I have been coming out to people who I believe will support me. Gay things. theatre things. the occasional cute animal.
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ohsweetoblivionsweetrevelation

Be kind to everyone-unless...

Time to vent

So up until a certain point in my life, I have been living by the golden rule, and putting in extra effort to show kindess and understanding to those who need it, but ive been thinking a lot about an experience in college I had, that led me to the conclusion of FUCK THAT MINDSET

So I was the leader of our Gay-Straight Alliance at our college, and we had one flaky, annoying, creepy gay dude who would come, and he would ask me occasionally to hang out and stuff. I felt bad for him, because although he was annoying and creepy, he had depression, low self-esteem, was very much overweight, had almost no friends, and yeah.

So I agreed to hang out with him on several occasions, and he would drive us to a taco place 30 minutes away, and he got the chance to vent and have a meaningful conversation, and I got some free tacos. Not a bad deal right?

Except after a while, he got real wierd and started twlling me about his fucked up life, things that made me uncomfortable, things that he should only be tellimg his therapist,

He also started said things like,

"I'm only like 3/4ths gay"

"I love you" "I would date you"

And the last time I hung out with him he was driving us back to campus, and he touched my boob, and I expressed that I was NOT okay with that

He got all defensive and was like "my other lesbian friends let me touch their boobs"

But that doesnt give you permission to touch me in anyway

He apologized, but he wanted to hold my hand on the way back, and he kept puttimg his hand on my thigh.

So that is ABSOLUTELY the last time I am showing anyone that makes me uncomforable any excessive kindness. I am not obligated to make anyone feel more comfortable by making myself feel less comfortable.

ohsweetoblivionsweetrevelation

One time I brought a friend into the shop to help me with a project, and she got scared of the pneumatic air compressor I was using to blow off the extra foam pieces from the cabinet we were putting together, so she hid in my office with the door closed til I was done. I thought that was pretty pathetic until I remembered that one time when we went camping, and I had gotten a ticket on my car because I hadn't paid yet, and to slove that problem we had to knock on the door of the camp manager and I froze because Idk why and she did it for me so like I really can't judge and moral of the story we all really can't be super judgy about what makes others uncomfortable

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teenageangst-bullshit

Take Me To Church by Hozier came on in the car the other day and my mom said, “This doesn’t sound like a song that you would listen to.”

All she heard was “take me to church” and the repeated “amen”

What I heard was women are goddesses and I will worship them

It’s not real church mom, it’s gay church

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moonbroth

i think something not talked about enough is how often when you’re a lesbian you get so attached to any gay girl that pays attention to you, you want love so badly and it’s so hard to find anyone like you that when you do you feel like you have to hold on so tight to that love even if it’s unfulfilling or doesn’t fit or even is abusive because how often are you gonna be seen like that and who will see you like that again? it can be so isolating but there are more like you than you think, there is someone who will see you deeply and fully and you won’t have to question it or beg for it or force it because their love will feel like breathing and it’ll feel like home