do you ever think about Alderaan, like really think about Alderaan. Because yes I was reading the wiki for a writing thing and I did just watch rogue one and. Do you think about how it was a sunny afternoon day, when the death star eclipsed the sun? how many rebels saw it and knew what it meant, by then, knew that it was too late. Do you think about the two billion people on the planet, which is a number too great to imagine, but do you ever think about babies being held tight on last time with silent apologies from parents who failed to protect them or themselves and friends who held on to eachother, and people who called their family off planet, desperate to say goodbye because thats all they could do and and-
how many children where there on Alderaan that day, did anyone count? Did anyone write down their names in the hope that it would make it matter more, if someone remembered them.
Who stood there and watched, everyone on the death star was ordered to, did they know what they were doing? how could they ever live with themselves after that? How do you wrap around your head, two billion people. A whole planet.
Can you think of recieving this news, alderaan gone? what part? all of it, all of it, imagine of earth, now imagine it all gone, imagine the people you are fighting being capable of this. How do you hold on to hope? how do you ever feel like you can fight against something so utterly destructive, that can make your life, and the life of everyone who came before you so utterly meanlingless. How did Leia Organa, whose father died hoping her to be alive, trusting her to never let this happen again, ever look on to a crowd of people and asked them to fight.
I think she was 19 at the time, think about that.
Do you think about surviours with tattoes of the rebel alliance starbird like tears underneath their eyes, the complete loss of their culture and people so thoughrly theres nothing left to mourn, nothing at all. How do you mourn that? How do you process?
Do you think about libraries and museums, and parks and walls full of shitty graffiti.
the full scale of what was lost makes me dizzy, nursery rymes, and languages and statues, and people so many people.
I think about the aftermath and everyone trying to hold on so desperatly to what they rememeber, their history, their culture, the name of the funny little bakery down the street. About people furiously looking through name data bases of surviviours, hoping so desperatly that the people they love miraculously survived.
Do you think about what it really means, that millions of voices cried out in the force before being destroyed, that force users woke up in cold sweat knowing something utterly awful had happened, for no reason at all, did they have to live with the grief of a planet in their chest?
Do you ever think about the cost of war, of rebelion?
Do you ever think about Alderaan?