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Skip Google for Research

As Google has worked to overtake the internet, its search algorithm has not just gotten worse.  It has been designed to prioritize advertisers and popular pages often times excluding pages and content that better matches your search terms 

As a writer in need of information for my stories, I find this unacceptable.  As a proponent of availability of information so the populace can actually educate itself, it is unforgivable.

Below is a concise list of useful research sites compiled by Edward Clark over on Facebook. I was familiar with some, but not all of these.

Google is so powerful that it “hides” other search systems from us. We just don’t know the existence of most of them. Meanwhile, there are still a huge number of excellent searchers in the world who specialize in books, science, other smart information. Keep a list of sites you never heard of.

www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.

www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.

https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.

www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.

http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.

www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.

www.pdfdrive.com is the largest website for free download of books in PDF format. Claiming over 225 million names.

www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free

“I’m- I’m immortal?” Merlin whispers.

“Yes, young warlock” The dragon says “and you will live many life times waiting for your Once and Future King”

Merlin looks out at the lake, at the little boat slowly floating further and further away, and with it Arthur.

“I don’t want it” The warlock yells, choking down a sob “I DON’T WANT IT” he screams

“THIS WAS NOT MY DESTINY!” He cries “This.. This was not my destiny” the wavering whisper is nearly not audible.

“You told me-“ Merlin points a finger up at Kilgharrah, eyes dark with rage and sorrow “You told me my destiny was to protect him! You told me he would bring about The Golden Age of Albion!”

“Indeed I did, young Emry-“

“Don’t you dare call me that ever again!” The warlock interrupts.

“I did” Kilgharrah continues as if undisturbed “And one day you will reunite with your king, at Albions greatest need, and the Golden Age will rise”

“No” Merlin murmurs “No, I don’t want it. Let me follow him. I don’t want it. I don’t want it! I DONT WANT IT!” He begs and screams.

“I’m sorry young man, this was not how I would have intended it either.”

Merlin looks away from the dragon, trying to gain control of himself; blinking rapidly and taking deep breaths.

“You said man. But am I even that? What am I exactly?”

Kilgharrah looks down at him fondly.

“I have wondered that for a long time as well. Some would call you Emrys, I myself call you Warlock, those close to you call you Merlin, but I think, yes I think that who you truly are is Arthur’s”

“I don’t understand”

The dragon gives a sad smile.

“Yes, I don’t think Arthur did either.”

*House early season 4 deleted scene*
Kutner: So... House and Wilson, huh?
Foreman: What about them?
Kutner: Aren't they like- *kissing gestures*
Foreman: Oh yeah, definately. But don't let him know you know. We just pretend we don't know. Works best for everyone
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he in fact did outlast every single one of wilson's hetero love interests. and wilson also outlasted house's. i wonder what that says about them 🤔

I am currently thinking about how House regularly uses himself as a scapegoat so he can help other people. Like with Foreman and his brother, House purposefully brought up their mother because he knew that it would spark outrage. He knew they would be mad at him. He wanted them to be mad at him so they could reconcile. House is so used to upsetting people. He's so used to being yelled at, hit, and insulted. He regularly seeks out those responses, so doing something that causes people to treat him that way is easy. He has created this persona that doesn't care about anything and will do anything to upset people without provocation or reason.

If he didn't care about Foreman enough to want to help him reconcile with his brother, I do not believe he would have ever brought up their mother. He understood how personal that was, and there would have been no reason. I don't think House likes having people hate him, I don't think he likes being yelled at or upsetting people. I think he just doesn't know how to be any other way. Hurting people, at his own expense, comes naturally. He will play the bad guy over and over again to help the people he cares about. But because he puts himself in that position to be their scapegoat, people don't recognize what he's doing. He's being kind, in his own fucked up way. And I don't think anyone except for Wilson and sometimes Cuddy recognize it.

the emotional back and forth in the aftermath of wilson deciding not to continue w treatment in the penultimate episode with house manipulating and scheming and scamming and getting so so close to what he wants and foreman’s ‘enduring pain to do some good for someone you care about… isnt that what life is about?’ and then ultimately house accepting that he will be the one to endure the pain of losing his best friend . I need to buy a gun

Anyway Barbie sitting on a bench, just having cried for the first time and looking over at an old woman and very genuinely complimenting her beauty was such a lovely moment. Because not long before, Barbie was freaking out about cellulite. But here in the Real World, where everything is so much more complicated than she could have imagined, so much more painful, she looks over and sees a woman who has actually lived. Aging is a privilege not afforded to everybody, and this little old woman, with all these years and experiences inside her, quite happy and at peace and secure with herself (she knows she’s beautiful), represents what Barbie is only starting to understand, that real death is staying the same forever.

That’s why it’s so important that The Ghost Of Ruth Handler, a little old lady herself, is the one who guides her into real life. She warns Barbie that by choosing to live, she must by necessity die. But in keeping with the themes of growing up, of adulthood, of womanhood, Barbie now knows that you can’t ever really return to the version of yourself that didn’t know something. Children, most children anyway, don’t really understand death. Part of the emotional struggle of adolescence and young adulthood is having to come to grips with the inevitable fact that your parents will die someday, as will everyone you love, and you yourself. If you’re lucky, not for many years. But it will happen.

And I think that’s why the turning point is “do you guys ever think about dying?” That’s why it matters that the girl playing with Barbie and changing her is a middle-aged woman. Gloria is grappling with her own morality and stifled creativity and feeling her daughter slip away from her and looking back on those days of innocent joyful play and the thing is that it’s all so sweetly painfully joyously human that it changes Barbie.

There’s a maiden(s), mother(s), and crone(s) aspect at play, and Barbie is all three and none at all. She is Ruth’s daughter and she is at once old (64 this year) and young (a toy for children, sexless and innocent and optimistic). Sasha is her past and Gloria is her present and the old woman on the park bench, filled up with years and life and peace and joy, is her future.

Barbie chose to become human, but it was also never really a choice. You can’t un-know something, you can’t ever go backward, you can only go forward. Humans only have one ending. The only alternative to growing is dying. And death may be inevitable, but better later than sooner. The child must become the adult. The adult must become the elder. The elder must eventually die. And living all those years is a gift even when it’s painful and Barbie embraces it.

PRAYING that barbie sweeps the oscars not because i have anything against oppenheimer but because one of the few joys in life is seeing film bros melt down when movies primarily made for women are lauded as serious and important works

Certain People: THE BARBIE MOVIE IS ANTI-MEN

anyone who actually paid attention: the Barbie movie is about how both matriarchy and patriarchy are damaging to people and that no one will be happy as long as people feel unequal and you shouldn’t base your happiness on once person and you shouldn’t force your feelings on another person, especially if they’ve told you that they’re not interested in you. In this essay I will