I don’t understand how you can spend 5 years with someone and they still know nothing about you..

If he wouldn’t have blocked me I would’ve been able to tell him.. guess it’s too late

Today marks 2 years since it’s happened. Lately life has been hard and I can’t seem to find the energy to live, I’ve recently been feeling suicidal. I’m trying to find any reason to end it all. I told my friend that I wanted to tell my s/o to move his guns so I don’t have access to them but I’ve held off, well today I told him I was feeling depressed and he just told me to get over it that there is nothing that is going wrong in my life. I didn’t know that just because everything seems okay meant that it was. I really need help but I can’t put my feelings into words.

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