Breaking down

Feels like falling. Feels like being stuck in place.

You hear everything but can’t grasp the meaning.

Everything around you gets bright and sharp, but you can’t see a thing.

You slow down. You accelerate. Everything moves so fast

People around you get numbed out, yet you can still make them out clearly.

You are surrounded by people. You are alone.

You can’t move. You run away.

You need to be alone. You need someone to help you.

You cry. You keep a poker face.

No one notices. You want everyone to notice.

You are painfully alive. You are dying.

You just wanna escape.

Self Mutilation Problems

-When it hurts really bad but also rlly good

-That burning sensation

-When someone finds out you self harm and they give you The Look

-Just outright cringing when you see self harm posts that are obviously trying to make self harm look cute/edgy/romantic

-That adrenaline rush when someone is dangerously close to catching you in the act

-When someone points out your scars and you just internally scream

-Trying to act casual when you buy razors/lighters

-Alternative: Getting an extra product to go with your razor/lighter so the cashier doesnt get suspicious

-Wanting to wear revealing clothes cause its hot af outside but you c a n t

-Self harming on another new part of your body and its too painful, way too painful

-When it itches

-Whenever your clothes rub against your newly made cuts and you can feel the blood smear

(via there-will-be-violence)

100 Reasons NOT To Kill Yourself

1. We would miss you. 2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again… 19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don’t even know you and I love you. 57. I don’t even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. You’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you’re proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate 94. Sherlock season three. 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen

IF that isn’t enough:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696 Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433 LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255 Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743 Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438 Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673 Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272 Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000 Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253 Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453 UK Helplines: Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111 Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600 Drinkline: 0800 9178282 Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614 India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669 Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7 suicide hotlines; Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430 Australia: 13-11-14 Austria: 01-713-3374 Barbados: 429-9999 Belgium: 106 Botswana: 391-1270 Brazil: 21-233-9191 China: 852-2382-0000 (Hong Kong: 2389-2222) Costa Rica: 606-253-5439 Croatia: 01-4833-888 Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67 Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908 Denmark: 70-201-201 Egypt: 762-1602 Estonia: 6-558-088 Finland: 040-5032199 France: 01-45-39-4000 Germany: 0800-181-0721 Greece: 1018 Guatemala: 502-234-1239 Holland: 0900-0767 Honduras: 504-237-3623 Hungary: 06-80-820-111 Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90 Ireland: 1800-247-100 Israel: 09-8892333 Italy: 06-705-4444 Japan: 3-5286-9090 Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292 Malaysia: 03-756-8144 (Singapore: 1-800-221-4444) Mexico: 525-510-2550 Netherlands: 0900-0767 New Zealand: 4-473-9739 New Guinea: 675-326-0011 Nicaragua: 505-268-6171 Norway: 47-815-33-300 Philippines: 02-896-9191 Poland: 52-70-000 Portugal: 239-72-10-10 Russia: 8-20-222-82-10 Serbia: 21-6623-393 Spain: 91-459-00-50 South Africa: 0861-322-322 South Korea: 2-715-8600 Sweden: 031-711-2400 Switzerland: 143 Taiwan: 0800-788-995 Thailand: 02-249-9977 Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800 Ukraine: 0487-327715 Uruguay: 095 73 8483 You will be missing out on every single wonderful thing yet to happen to you.

if u see this please re blog. never scroll past this. you never know who may need to read this.

sorry that i lie and say im okay when i just dont want to trigger anything in you its just cause i care more about you than me so i lie

I hate when you wanna talk about something that bothers you but you feel like you’ve already talked about it too much, so you just hold it in

3am thoughts (via d-e-a-d)

(via wastexfspace)

reblog if you’re the worst

someone asked me where to start bc she wanted to stop self-harming & since it helped her maybe it could help someone else as well.

• first of all you have to get rid of every single thing youve ever used to cut. even if you might need the thing, get rid of it. like razors, ?? get rid of them. dont shave for a while. etc. and dont think “well im gonna keep this one just in case.” thats a recipe for disaster. get rid of everything. thats the first step you’ve gotta take.

• then i would say… ok so if you have like an empty box of some sort - like a shoe box perhaps?? or even just a bag idk something you can put stuff in lol (box is ideal bc then u can decorate it but anyway). fill it with comforting things related to your five senses:

-so, touch? silly putty, or something soft, a stress ball, etc. something tactile that can distract your hands. -taste? some type of hard candy like jolly ranchers, mints, gum maybe. -sight? idk for sight but you could put in a few word searches or something to distract your mind. or get a little notebook and a pen to put in there and you can doodle or color or whatever. -smell? lotion, perfume, dryer sheets, anything that smells good & comforts you. -hear, you can put in a pair of headphones so you can just plug em in and get some music going.

• other things that help are painting your nails - when you paint your nails, you have to wait until the polish dries to really do anything right? • also, getting ice and holding it in your hand or rubbing it on wherever you wanna cut can relieve the sensation of wanting to cut. • sometimes coloring on your body can help too. • maybe when youre in a good mindset you can make a list of what are called “positive affirmations” which are statements such as, “i am worthy” or “i am not to blame for the things that are out of my control” etc. just as little reminders. you can even write them on notecards & decorate them to make them look rly cute. • other stuff that has helped me is bracelet making ! getting little beads and putting them on string distracts the hands and the mind. plus you get to have a finished product at the end! • also knitting, crocheting, • taking up some sort of new hobby that is going to totally distract your mind and hands to learn it

• its v important to just distract yourself as well as be kind to yourself. because if youre being mean to yourself while trying NOT to hurt yourself, whats the point

(if anyone wants to rb this and add stuff please do!!!!! im always looking for new ways to cope as well so that’d be very nice)

(x)

You should tell people how important they are to you. Not because they could leave at any moment, but because they’re here now, and it’s worth saying something.

Bitte schreib mir einfach mitten in der Nacht einen Text oder mach mir eine Audio wo du mir erzählst, dass ich dir wichtig bin und du mich niemals verlieren willst. Ich brauche das jetzt..

Sorry.

Why? Reblog for self-harmer boys.

Such-Heavy-Emptiness

Im dunklen Zimmer sitzen, Musik hören, über das Leben nachdenken, merken dass man einsam ist, leise weinen.

Immer.