ianthe's poker fantasy

give gideon a parental figure!!! and please let it be pyrrha

canaan house i miss you

I think we don’t give Camilla Hect enough badass credit for making the vengeful eldritch soul of the earth do physical therapy and DBT exercises. she’s like the meme of Eddie Brock asking for two bagels when Venom says they want to eat the souls of the innocent. and then she snuggled with her at night.

Nona’s tantrums made Pyrrha “I’m gonna drink a bottle of bleach to review my Getting Tortured Skills” Dve uneasy. Her tantrums made Augustine and Mercymorn want her dead. Blood of Eden was so terrified of her they wouldn’t even be in the same room as her.

And Camilla was like. Yeah I’ll help teach her how to stretch. Yeah I’ll read to her in the bath. I can talk her into holding a sword for a few hours every day even though she doesn’t want to. Yeah I’ll sleep in the same bed as her. I’ll put ice under her pillow so she’s comfortable. I’ll wrap her up in a blanket and hold her close to me while she’s having her tantrums. She could really benefit from learning how to count to five when she’s mad. She loves dogs, I have to keep her from taking them all home. She wants to stick her fingers in peoples’ ears. She thinks ass jokes are funny. She sleeps next to me at night. She looks to me when she feels vulnerable. She wants me to hold her. Yeah sure I’ll hold her.

Nona and her boy Varun - Now with jellyfish

griddlehark, in bed the kiss

palamedes sextus was so real for writing an insane sequel to a shitty erotica book on the walls of his fucked up little river bubble prison. nothing else going on in there, just the same awful romance novel on repeat 600 times and his own little silly headcanons scrawled all over the nearest surface. outside there’s a million screaming ghosts and the only way to stay sane is to hyperanalyze the same story for eight months. that’s literally exactly what it feels like. he gets it

When it comes to John, I have zero interest in condemning him. First of all, it's boring. You mean destroying the world and lying to your friends about it is bad? Shocking. Groundbreaking character work.

Second of all, I'm just not all that comfortable with condemnation in general, not when it comes to whole-ass people. Actions, for sure. I am ready to wholeheartedly condemn pretty much every decision this man has ever made, but I'm only comfortable doing that with a side of compassion for the man himself. Tamsyn said once in an interview that some of the discussion she's seen about Harrow is unintentionally very cruel to people with mental illnesses, and I feel similarly seeing a lot of the discussion around John. If I'm going to try to figure out where he's coming from, why he did the things he did, and what he thought he was accomplishing by doing them, I'm not at all interested in coming at those questions with contempt or disgust.

To me, the main question when it comes to John is: What do you do when you feel that you're unforgivable? That you've fucked up so completely no one will ever love you again, unless you lie and trick them into it? How do you deal with shame? And while part of the answer is definitely "Holy shit, not like that," what I'm most interested in is: what should he have done instead? At what points in his narrative could he have changed his course? And at what point, if ever, did he become right about it being impossible for him to dial it back and turn around?

This is the best John post. I think that he is deeply fucked up and his inability to forgive is a huge part of it - anyone else or himself. His evasiveness comes from his inability to confront what he has done - to own up to it because doing to would be too big and too devastating. I think John is really an incredible portrait of a kind of righteous anger that has hollowed everything else out until even the love that once motivated it is gone.

#when i think about what john has done and continues to do#and how much sunk cost fallacy he must have after ten thousand years of bad decisions and avoidance#how he probably feels like he doesn't really have a choice#i think about 'we had the choice to stop'#as true now as it was then#the consequences of the actions he's already taken will continue#both for others and for him#but every single second he has the choice to say 'no more'#'ive hurt a lot of people but i will not hurt another' #so much evil is done by people who are afraid to reckon with the fact that you can always say 'no more'

i promise i don’t exclusively draw tlt these days; it’s just that i started several sketches trying to get more of the *vibes* of specific scenes/environments in tlt so i can share my vision for people. for some reason i want to give the ninth a very sickly green glow, like the place is cartoonishly radioactive.

thinking about remembering

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so many people like camilla hect for her stoicism in the face of danger, one-word responses, and competence at her job. But I like her because underneath all of that she's genuinely unwell and her problem-solving skills will simply make the problem different. queen of not knowing how to process her own emotions or interact with other people but deciding that just being good at what she does and being attached at the hip to someone who does like to speak to people will probably cover all of that. well it did cover all of that but then it gave her new problems didn't it

I would have said "Philomena The Ninth" but that wasn't as funny.