Not me getting shin splints type pains less than a month back into running 🙄🙄🙄

Oh the push and pull of wanting it all (what you’re terrified of)

I am chewing this over but wanting to reexperience trauma through the veil of another medium or another person is not actually reexperiencing nor is it addressing it, let alone healing it. You can’t feel better til you face things head on and eat the shit sandwich. And it’s like. Fine to eat it slow and not take too many bites in one go. But watching others being fed a shit sandwich isn’t teaching your gut anything.

Just waiting patiently for the next wave of hot weather to slice and salt a big watermelon 🍉

Sometimes it gets to four pm and you can just take a break to run in the rain then take a cold shower and streeeeeetch your legs then foam roll your spine and only then! Do you have to go back to work. Nice.

My little cat (Christian name Chicoree) struts down the hallway and I call: “come back here my little MatsuChouks”

(Chicoree-> Chico-> Chouki->Chouks->MatsuChouks it all makes sense)

and wonder why she doesn’t recognise her own name…

Every two months I come up with frenzied plans about turning my standard uk bedroom into some freak raised yojohan washitsu and one day, one day!!! it will work out