the dendrology freak in me is tweaking at that star-shaped pith post where the op refers to it as a "tree ring growth pattern" (it's not) instead of pith and also in shock that there are no other comments on the post clarifying how actually this is not a rare occurrence at all but fairly common in certain tree species (oak, cottonwood, aspen, willow...). and also people calling it "celestial xylem" when the xylem isnt even located in the pith. i know this post sounds pretentious i just had to let myself be annoying for a sec.

I have the urge to write but don't know what about. I guess I'm just supposed to sit down and let it flow out of me or whatever

my mom is really hurt right now due to a situation she's going through and she called my sister crying this morning and I called her earlier to ask if she was ok and to let her vent and it feels so terrible to hear your mother in pain but it's also so healing to provide the love and support to your parent that you may have needed from them at one point. she always makes indifference and anger her primary emotions when she's upset because she puts forth this tough idgaf exterior to cope but on the phone I said you know it's okay to be hurt and we love you very much. and she told me I'm always the kid who is good at breaking things down and helping her understand what's going on which was really sweet to hear. I wish she wasn't four states away so I could give her a big hug. as I get older I think I feel more panicked the further I am from my mother, and so protective of her knowing how strong and loving she is and how people are just waiting to take advantage of a person like that.

um there's construction happening on the road next to my apartment and I just went to go turn on the kitchen sink and my water is off.. literally received no warning about this and have no idea when it will be back on like ok cool thanks.....

today I'm taking my truck to get inspected and then going to help a local guy who grows native plants put plastic on a caterpillar tunnel for $100. and then maybe go somewhere interesting for the eclipse who knows. I'm not in the path of totality but very close and tbh I don't care that much about it but I guess it will be cool

btw when I make a post stating the tasks I'm about to do it's not for you guys it's to cast a spell on myself so I actually carry out my intentions

ok I'm going for a walk in the sunshine and then I'm going to make coconut creamsicle gummies

living in a thrift store desert is like a living hell.. literally how am i supposed to spend my sunday afternoons if the nearest open thrift store is over an hour away. all jokes aside though i'm having a sudden and overwhelming realization that i don't really enjoy or feel comfortable in almost any of the clothing i own.. to be fair i don't own that many clothes to begin with but i'm looking thru my clothes right now like damn bitch you dress like this? and i want to go to the thrift store so bad

also i'm starting to really notice a difference in my body composition since working out consistently for almost three months now. i haven't really lost weight on the scale but i attribute that to gaining muscle and i can visibly tell that my arms and legs have gotten more muscular even without flexing. and i'm feeling better in my body lately. it feels really good to be strong. and when you're strong it doesnt matter how much the scale says you weigh so.

honestly i feel more at ease when my hair is a mess.

ok i got my haircut, here is me before on a random day vs me right after + how the hairdresser styled it vs me this morning after showering + styling it myself lol. i was a little skeptical when she was done cause i was like wait a minute i imagined this cut being a lot more wavy/choppy than it is but she used a blow dryer and paddle brush on my hair and like. my hair is wavy so when she just kept brushing it repeatedly i was like damn this shit is about to be straight/flat. But thank god this morning it looks like this and I love it so much I feel more like myself

working on saturdays doesnt feel real.. literally blogging from my desk rn because no one else is here and then I'm about to go teach a landowner how to inoculate shiitake mushrooms. and then I'm going to get a haircut

when you realize you are just telling yourself stories about your life and who you are and you can change the story any time you want. I re-realize this like once every three years

do any of my north carolina followers have tips or leads on finding a farming or forestry job in WNC .. I'm normally like the ultimate job hunter but I feel like I might need some help on this one. also preferably something that doesn't pay like $8/hr and offer "housing" that is actually a school bus tiny home (a real offer I saw on a farming job listing earlier)

found these images from when I was studying computer science and trying to figure out assignments in the computer lab.. In the beginning it is just like big adult puzzle games

i just started flossing regularly for the first time in my adult life and i'm addicted to it and unsure of why i went so long thinking it wasn't really necessary. my mouth feels so good afterwards..