I'm not even taking care of myself anymore. I don't see the point.

A Mood: part 2

I feel like a background character in my own life. I don't have any friends, I don't go out and do anything i just stay in my room. I hate the life I'm living and I desperately want to just run away and start new completely just reinvent myself. But I don't know how to change. I'm afraid I'll be stuck like this forever

A Mood

Actual true love

it’s loving mothman o’clock

wikihow to express anger without stuttering then crying then feeling guilty for even trying to express it

You yell at me for expressing emotion. You yell at me for going numb. You yell at me for talking to you. You yell at me for ignoring you. You make me feel like I’m the problem, you make me feel broken, you gaslight me, you tell me that my mental illness is my fault, you tell me I was never abused, you tell me I’m a failure but then say that I’m amazing and that you love me. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.

Abusive behaviors that may be hard to spot or identify as abusive

Constant passive aggression toward someone, implying anger or that something is wrong, and then blowing up at the person for it out of the blue, and blaming the person for not knowing.

Isolation tactics, an example of this would be attempting to convince a person that their other friends are toxic, or that they shouldn’t be around them. Oftentimes this is disguised as care or concern, but it’s a tactic that leaves the person dependant on the abuser for support.

Babying you, or infantalizing you. Not letting you do things because they say they feel it would be too hard for you, or that they worry you would mess it up. This is a way of lowering self confidence and making a person dependant on their abuser.

Picking at your character constantly. This one feels obvious, but it can be easily disguised as concern; and it could be harder to spot for someone who is used to this behavior being directed at them. This is usually spontaneous, and is designed to wear down self esteem over a period of time.

Always depending on a person for emotional support, and then never letting them talk about their feelings. This teaches the person that their feelings are less important than their abusers, and therefore, shouldn’t be spoken about, or they are being selfish/needy.

Including you in plans without talking to you beforehand, and then expecting you to drop everything for them when you finally find out. Usually if the person refuses to follow through it is met with intense anger or guilt tripping behavior. This is incredibly toxic.

These are only a few examples, but definitely some things to be on the lookout for.

Stay safe, darlings.

You cannot heal in the same environment you were broken by.

When you’re growing up in abusive environment there’s such a strong feeling of “not belonging here”, “not being a part of anything” and feeling like you’re not supposed to be among humans at all, and only wishing that someone would come already and take you home. To another planet, where there’s people like you, where you wouldn’t be a burden or nuisance, where you wouldn’t feel guilty for just being, for existing as you are. It feels all wrong, being in a place where you’re so despised, as if it would be better if you didn’t exist at all. We all just want to go to our real home.

If I don’t get my daily dose of attention, I either do something impulsive or take a depression nap

Never forget that if you threaten your kids with the “ill get on a plane and wont come back” and “ill kick you out if you say that/do that” youre a horrible fucking parent.

“you wanna cry? ill give you something to cry about” is one of the most fear striking sentences in the english language 

Just Abused Kid Things

When you’re venting about your parents and somebody interrupts to say “that’s not REALLY abuse though so stop complaining”

i hate how normalized hitting children is. it is never okay. child abuse is a terrible crime. your child can be an insufferable asshole and you still aren’t allowed to hurt them. you can’t discipline your child without using violence? that means there’s something seriously wrong with you. you don’t deserve to have children.

traumatized culture is wishing what they did to you was worse

2017

“The Summoning“ ♥ Photoshop

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Things people shouldn’t say to trauma survivors:

• “I said ____, for the hundredth time. Do you just not hear me when I talk?”

• “If you don’t remember then you weren’t really listening.”

• “You never listen to me.”

• “If you cared you’d remember.”

We care and we are listening. Memory isn’t always our strongest subject. Please be patient with us.