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nihiltrash

Hello there! You can call me “A”!

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ABOUT ME

Piano performing is my dream career. I have been playing since 2009 but have little skill to show for it, HAH.

My favourite creatures are spiders🕷 and tigers🐅

I like walking, reading fake news on Facebook and tumblr and listening to music. I like to thinking that i am kind and considerate, but I know i can also be a bit dull and VERY awkward. As mentioned before, I play piano and im also trying to learn ukulele. I love playing with makeup. I am also a rather alternative person. My favourite bands are the Smiths and GHOST. My favourite singers are Tobias Forge and Frank Sinatra. I like the colour red, and also black.

Hope to make your acquaintance!

#me#vampire#vampiric
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coquette-club

If you want to embody Paris, Texas from Lana Del Rey’s new album “Did You Know That There’s A Tunnel Under Ocean Blvd.” try… Philosophy's Falling in Love. 

 A delicate pretty faint light scent, fresh blackberry with green notes, lightly sweetened with vanilla.

#hmmm?#perfume
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g3r4rd5-bl00d
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devotion-ismy-emotion

It drives me fucking insane to know you interact with other people. I want to lock you up and throw away the key. You’re mine. No one else’s. So stop paying attention to them and only keep your eyes on me.

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Anonymous asked:

How do you get rid of negative people if you live with them, not by your choice?

girljournal answered:

avoiding negative people 🎧

if you live with them then unfortunately you can’t get rid of them. but you can avoid them as much as possible. i’m going to assume these are roommates. if they are then you don’t necessarily have to hang with them and be around them 24/7. when you’re home you can stay in your room most of the time, do your own thing or invite your friends over, hang with people who are positive and uplifting and fun to be around. also when you can, leave the house, go on dates with yourself, go for walks (in the daytime - it’s safer) , go to the library or a cafe just to relax and be in a better atmosphere.

i know it can suck living with people because you have no other choice but you can always make the best out of situations. don’t let their negativity bring you down. if ever i’m around someone who is negative and i can’t necessarily leave i just brush them off honestly and i say to myself that their negativity and bitterness will not affect me because i won’t let it. let the things they say to you or about you go in one ear and out the other.

when people are being negative around you and you feel yourself getting angry or sad or frustrated that’s when it’s time to turn the world off for a while, go to your room or a place you feel comfort, listen to music, think of things that make you happy, jump into an activity or comfort show and rest your mind.

i hope this helps and you find peace and solace in your living situation. sending positive energy and love, please accept ‹𝟹

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If pigeons were angels.

If pigeons were angels, what a sight to see’

Cooing hymns as they float past on wings of forgotten dreams.

Fed grains of faith by weathered hands,

Listening to confessions as we throw out our sins from peeling pews in forgotten city parks .

nihiltrash

Hey i jusft remembered a forbidden memory.

I was graduating 6th year an for some fucked up reason i just wore a black babydoll dress with striped black and white stockings to the ceremony and everyone was like “wow what the fuck Avis”

Anyway yeah that was funny and weird

#me#self destruction
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vexenhaven

Poem of pain

I don't know when I decided pain was attractive

When I first embraced the harsh words thrown my way

When I gave in to the thoughts that crowd me

All I know is that this idea has failed me

Led me down a steep cliff path

Almost no return

And I fell off that cliff

Welcomed the pain

Caused this burn in my lungs and ache in my head

My skin splits, red beads

To satisfy the voices that scream

And to prevent me from hurting another

That's what it boils down to, always

It's you or them

It can't be them

My soul is a dirtied mirror

Cracked along the edges and dripping red

And I don't want to shatter. 

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starcatcheryips

you are allowed to talk about being disabled

And you are allowed to talk about your disability .

Talking about being disabled is not bad .

It does not mean you are trying to get attention .

it does not mean you are trying to get pity .

it does not mean that you are "faking" it .

it does not mean that your disability is " all you ever talk about " .

You can talk about being disabled however often or infrequently you want to .

You can talk about it positively , negatively , or completely neutrally .

You can share however much or little information about your disability with others as you want to .

You can choose who you share information about your disability with , and who you do not share information with .

It is your disability . It is about you .

You get to make your own choices .