bundle of nothings

I love being alone <- girl who has known nothing but loneliness her entire life and so has no choice but to take comfort in it

I'm like if a chill girl had the need to control everything around her

when hozier said "if im a pagan of the good times, my lover's the sunlight" and when hozier said "no grave can hold my body down, i'll crawl home to her" and when hozier said "i slithered here from eden just to sit outside your door" and when hozier said "heaven is not fit to house a love like you and i" and when hozier said-

Y'all have no idea how shitty the wifi is in my gothic castle

some salads are amazing and then other salads feel like you're stuck in purgatory just eating leaves forever

not enough secret gardens and hidden passageways and bookshelves that open to a mysterious library these days. get working on that girls.

chocolates shaped like body parts

I could function in a society that had an actual nightlife that isn't synonymous with just clubbing. Where are the night markets what if I want to go to the library at midnight

i’m a nice girl i deserve weapons

romanticizing your life is such a powerful tool and it’s a shame that it’s mostly used by people on tiktok to justify the purchase of expensive breakfast smoothies when there are few better ways to force oneself through unpleasant shit than imagining a cinematic backstory for your extremely quotidian suffering

i blog for girls who were deeply lonely in elementary school and stayed that way

let your imagery be a little violent let your imagery be a little weird let your imagery be a little sexual and by god let it be sacrilegious. at this point if someone looks at it weird im just going to assume theyve got the art-consuming palette of a four year old. stop making artistic chicken nuggets when you could be cooking an actual meal just because some people cant handle the flavor doesnt mean it shouldnt exist. damn

– Ritika Jyala, Excerpt From "The Flesh I Burned"

William Holbrook Beard

Coming to Writing and Other Essays, Hélène Cixous tr. Deborah Jenson

i love female hysteria

Y'all have no idea how shitty the wifi is in my gothic castle

i really do feel catastrophically lonely. like recently i read the phrase "socially atrophied" and i feel like that perfectly encapsulates it. and it's like there are so many factors working to keep me in that weakened state. the neurodivergence. the grief. the increasingly individualist nature of modern life. the lack of societal safety nets and opportunity for healthy organic connection. there's nothing to work with and even if by some miracle there was i am too fucking reliant on self isolation to know how to bond with anyone properly because all my adult life i have been stuck in this exact cycle that doesn't allow me to practice how to exist within a community